I had one of those special moments yesterday, you know the ones, when something suddenly clicks into place at a new, deeper, more profound level and a lightbulb goes on. And as is often the case, it was something I thought I already understood, but no, only intellectual understanding it seems.
Today, I just want to capture that learning, because, like a dream, these moments can so easily blow themselves away from our memory, even if they do count energetically.
I was doing something mundane, I had just read an interesting Facebook post and was mulling it over. I remember, I was mumbling out loud, and then, suddenly, I said it.
And, of course, it only happens when something inside us is ready to receive it. So, it may or may not light your bulb, if I tell you what it was.
I don’t remember what the post was now, that doesn’t seem important. But I was thinking about the way we embrace the things that we find really difficult, like painful physical conditions, troubling thoughts and moods, challenging situations. Well, I’ve been doing that when I can from time to time, with differing results, because sometimes, it’s not easy.
But in this special moment, I suddenly realised that if we open up our heart to that difficulty, literally love it completely, like it is our beloved child, and in realising this, I experienced a flood of love so deep that it was like a pure wave cascading over and through me. If we do that, it is instantly dissolved. What can possibly stand in the face of such love?
In that moment, it felt so natural and totally possible to do that. Now, I’m not so sure, I can still see how easy it is to get caught up in one’s suffering so that we cannot separate it out from ourselves and then look it in the face with such utter, pure heartfelt love that it melts. I guess I’m probably going to have this particular lightbulb moment a few more times before I totally embody it.
But now I’ve remembered and captured the memory, I’m going to bring it to mind when I’m in those situations if I can and try it on for size. You never know, it may just fit.