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Waking Up

Quite often, the posts I write don’t represent where I’m at, they’re me working things out for myself.  It’s a part of a process where intellect is engaged, part of moving through the energy to realisation.  So, when I state something, it doesn’t mean I’m there yet, it means I know I’m working through that energy.

I watched a film recently, it was one I’ve watched at least five times, an old favourite I never seem to tire of.  Every time, it gets me in the heart, which is not surprising since it’s a film all about the heart.  And more than that, it’s a film about claiming your darkness, and I hadn’t really noticed that before because I hadn’t watched it just at the moment when I was ready to see it before.

As usual, this time, the emotions started to surface, ones I often struggle with.

And there it was.  After my recent post ‘Allowing Life to Be’, I realised what I needed as I watched the film.  I realised that those struggling emotions of yearning and desires and loneliness, a desire for a deep, abiding loving relationship that expresses as a sacred union at all levels, this is not a lack in me, not something to fight or struggle against, not a bad or negative feeling. It doesn’t represent a deficiency or failure. It’s okay, it’s a part of me.  It’s who I am, and all of a sudden I claimed it.  I embraced my needs and desires and moved the energy from dissonance to resonance. 

Then, I realised there was more that needed to be claimed, I needed to claim the darkness, the loss, abandonment, lack of love I’ve experienced, deeper than I’d ever claimed it before.  Instead of feeling it was something that had happened to me, that it was a problem, that it was the opposite of what I wanted, I claimed it all.  I claimed the darkness as mine. 

Now, I own it.  I can no longer be hurt because it’s something I allow as who I am.  All those emotions that weren’t love became love, love for myself.  I loved myself to freedom.

Guilt, resentment, blame, anger, sorrow, all became love.  And that love became peace.  The peace brought stillness and release, it brought acceptance and trust.  I accepted me and at the same time, I healed myself some more.    

Waking up is a series of moments of realisation, of claiming and acceptance of oneself.      

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If there’s a word that describes Ananda’s offering to humanity, it’s power. Everything comes through so powerfully. If there’s a word that describes what brings that power through, it’s love. Ananda embodies a foundation of love and love is the vehicle that transports all she does. Ananda Amenet is a lightworker and darkworker. She walks as confidently in the shadows as she does in the sun. She knows that the shadows contain the greatest gifts and that they are created from the light. Without light, there are no shadows. Her work is rooted in truth. Her role of service is dedicated to helping others become the truth of their being, which means embodying their soul on Earth and moving forward on their journey of fulfilment. She has been gifted with extraordinary skills and abilities; an intuition as sharp as a razor, a channel as wide open as the night sky. An innate understanding of energy that enables the most profound relationship with the invisible world all around us, the world of spirit. And the ability to heal what is ready to be healed. She knows how to call in the invisible world and deliver healing to support your journey to fulfilment. She sees what others don’t see, she knows what others can only guess at. Ananda brings divine magic to all she does and invites you to engage with magic too. If you step forward to work with Ananda, you are opening up to transformation. You are inviting an acceleration of your growth and are likely to experience fundamental changes in your life, not always what you were expecting, always what you needed most. Ananda is a vehicle through which spirit moves, so you are really engaging with the universal energies and divine source that moves through her on your behalf. You are inviting their participation to answer your questions and bring the support and healing you are ready to embrace. Ananda has travelled through sixty years upon the Earth, hers is a story of being unwanted, unloved, through adoption, abandonment and rejection. She had to fight to survive abuse and learn to find her truth. She did it the hard way. It was the way that was needed to ensure she understands you and your journey, for she knows that you have walked through some dark shadows too. Ananda knows you have a story of struggle and growth, sometimes it feels too much to bear, sometimes it’s like being on top of the world. She can truly say she has been there too. She has the eyes to really see you. She has the ears to really hear you. She can look into your heart and see the soul that you are. She will help you remember who you are, that you are a being of love made of light. When everything is taken away from us, even love or worthiness, we have no other option but to go on a journey of rediscovery until we remember our truth. Our truth is that we are divine beings, the embodiment of love. The only way to embrace that truth is to walk through the dark shadows until we claim it all.

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