Posted in healing, Personal Story, sexual healing, The Truth of our Being

Exposure – The Rawness of Truth

A couple of days ago, I posted a very personal account of a childhood sexual experience.  When I started to write that post, I was intending to write something else entirely, something general about children and play and how that can sometimes involve exploring their bodies from a place of innocence, trust and openness.  But all of a sudden, an experience I had that was the opposite of that poured out of me, it clearly wanted to be said. 

It’s not the first time I’ve written openly about this event but it’s the first time that I was able to write without any sense of the emotional hurt or confusion, the first time that it came with such clarity and detachment and I think that was the reason it had to be done, to show me I am now in a different place with it.

Of course, writing it for oneself is one thing, sharing it is another thing entirely and I would be lying if I said I was nonchalant about that.  Actually, it was a close thing that I didn’t pull it just before it was due to publish.  And now it’s out there I’m reminding myself it’s not my concern who sees it and how it’s taken.  It’s my truth, not anybody else’s.  This is now a big test of owning my truth and letting go of what others think.  Because what others think of me has been such a big hurdle throughout my life and it’s still something I’m conscious of. 

All this brings up the issue of disclosure, when it’s okay, when it’s not okay, and who’s to judge.  It feels like this is about revealing hidden secrets from the past, exposing what others have kept hidden because they had the authority.  Now the lid is off, those that had the ability to impose from their position of strength, they created a record of my life, upbringing and experience that was out of synch with what I felt, saw, sensed and believed.  And yes, it’s all a question of perception and probably truth is somewhere in the grey areas between those perspectives.

As a healer, I experience many people who have similar stories.  Maybe the details are different but, for them too, lies from the past are being exposed.  Perhaps lies from your past have been exposed or are in the process of being so.  And I know it’s a very painful process, especially if we’re suddenly faced with a huge realisation that goes against everything we once believed. 

How painful this process is can be impacted by us.  It depends how much we fight it.  It’s easy to fight back because we don’t want to know, we don’t want this truth, it hurts.  And it may involve finding the healing that enables us to accept, acknowledge, face and embrace the truth.  And then the ability to heal and integrate it into our hearts.  This can be done in minutes or years, depending upon whether we’ve woken up the knowledge and skills we need, whether we’re ready to claim it all, the good, the bad and the ugly, or not.  If it’s coming up, it’s because our guides and spiritual support are with us and they’re available to call on, they’re rooting for us and know that the only way out is through.  Be brave, dear one, it’s time, we are waking up and we are more supported than we can ever imagine.    

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If there’s a word that describes Ananda’s offering to humanity, it’s power. Everything comes through so powerfully. If there’s a word that describes what brings that power through, it’s love. Ananda embodies a foundation of love and love is the vehicle that transports all she does. Ananda Amenet is a lightworker and darkworker. She walks as confidently in the shadows as she does in the sun. She knows that the shadows contain the greatest gifts and that they are created from the light. Without light, there are no shadows. Her work is rooted in truth. Her role of service is dedicated to helping others become the truth of their being, which means embodying their soul on Earth and moving forward on their journey of fulfilment. She has been gifted with extraordinary skills and abilities; an intuition as sharp as a razor, a channel as wide open as the night sky. An innate understanding of energy that enables the most profound relationship with the invisible world all around us, the world of spirit. And the ability to heal what is ready to be healed. She knows how to call in the invisible world and deliver healing to support your journey to fulfilment. She sees what others don’t see, she knows what others can only guess at. Ananda brings divine magic to all she does and invites you to engage with magic too. If you step forward to work with Ananda, you are opening up to transformation. You are inviting an acceleration of your growth and are likely to experience fundamental changes in your life, not always what you were expecting, always what you needed most. Ananda is a vehicle through which spirit moves, so you are really engaging with the universal energies and divine source that moves through her on your behalf. You are inviting their participation to answer your questions and bring the support and healing you are ready to embrace. Ananda has travelled through sixty years upon the Earth, hers is a story of being unwanted, unloved, through adoption, abandonment and rejection. She had to fight to survive abuse and learn to find her truth. She did it the hard way. It was the way that was needed to ensure she understands you and your journey, for she knows that you have walked through some dark shadows too. Ananda knows you have a story of struggle and growth, sometimes it feels too much to bear, sometimes it’s like being on top of the world. She can truly say she has been there too. She has the eyes to really see you. She has the ears to really hear you. She can look into your heart and see the soul that you are. She will help you remember who you are, that you are a being of love made of light. When everything is taken away from us, even love or worthiness, we have no other option but to go on a journey of rediscovery until we remember our truth. Our truth is that we are divine beings, the embodiment of love. The only way to embrace that truth is to walk through the dark shadows until we claim it all.

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