A special question came across my radar recently. What would you say if you were asked, “What’s it like to be you?”
It’s a great question because it gets one thinking about oneself from a slightly different perspective to the one that’s usually in our heads when we’re thinking about being us.
We’re thinking from the view of how somebody else might understand us, and we can clarify who we are in a new and refreshing way.
It’s a multi-layered question, we might ask: Who am I? Am I my way of life? Am I what goes on in my head that only I hear? Am I my beliefs and the patterns they create? Am I those complex and varied feelings that are constantly playing out within me? Am I my hopes and aspirations? Am I my past? Am I my memories? This question prompts all of those things in terms of how we express them.
It asks where do we tend to live our moments from? Mostly in the past, the future or the now? How do we see ourselves and our life? Are we glass half empty or full? How kind and loving are we to ourselves?
In so many ways, I think it’s really great to be me, I have freedom to live my life as I choose, I’m empowered to decide every moment and can allow almost every day to be as much of an adventure as I care to make it, in my way. I have all my basic needs ticked off and can dedicate myself to the higher functions of being human. I can invite music, dancing, singing, meditation and relaxation into my life and often do.
My spiritual focus brings enrichment. It’s a blessing to be able to contribute to increasing love and light in the world, in whatever small way I can.
Several days a week I paint and it’s like I slip away into another dimension. It feels wonderful to be creative and expressive. It’s so peaceful and I really feel like I’m in the flow of something divine. Through painting, I am expressing my soul.
I live in such a beautiful place where I can spend the day walking on my mountain or down in the woods and not see another soul. Or I may go to the coast which I love so much, the sea invigorates me with its energies and sounds.
I am a solitary animal but these days, I’ve found my tribe and am blessed with special people around me who love me, have my back and whose hearts are true. Some are nearby, some at a distance and some I have carried through the years. When people know how to love you, you don’t let them go. When I first moved to this neighbourhood a year ago, I didn’t think there was anyone here with similar ideas and aspirations as me, how wrong I was and now I’m certain that this is the right place for me.
My home is a huge blessing, it’s my sacred sanctuary. It feeds my soul. I have nature all about me. Just by opening the glass sliding door of my living room, I step out onto a platform that looks across the tops of the trees to a 180 degree view of lush, green Welsh hills with the Gwendraeth valley below, across to the picturesque ruined castle of Kidwelly and out to sea. I always know where the tide is and watch white foam waves on windy days. Sometimes, the magical mist rolls into the valley beneath my elevated view and I imagine that a fire-breathing Welsh dragon has passed by my door yet again.
One of my favourite places, visible from my house, is the Neolithic henge and standing stones on the opposite hill. Difficult to spot like a well kept secret, it draws my heart and my eye. I feel that the ancestors are ever present through time, conducting ceremonies amongst the stones. I truly feel blessed to live with such a special vista.
Being me has had its challenges. Every so often, the need for further healing comes to the surface and there’s been no slacking on my part. Recent healing has been potent and effective, leaving inner peace and closing doors so that I can finally move forward. Honestly, it’s been like undergoing a rebirth and no wonder this is the theme emerging through my current paintings.
Recently, I received clarity about my soul calling and experienced a shift in my energy. The migraine aura episodes that have largely dictated my life are not happening. It’s down to me to stay true to myself, honouring and loving myself. And if doubt or fear surfaces, I have the skills to handle it.
What’s coming forward right now, more than anything, is the realisation that so much inner peace has seeded and grown at my core. The awareness of how many resources I have to call upon and my capacity to turn things around. I realise how much I used to pay attention to illusion. Most of all, I am loving myself as I live a life that honours my soul.
What about you? I invite you to reflect on this question for yourself and see how you’re feeling about being you right now.