Posted in darkness and light, healing, Inspiration, transformation

House of Cards

What do you do when everything’s a mess?

Chaos does not create order

Chaos creates more chaos.

Sometimes, you just gotta pull the plug

Bring down your house of cards.

Let it fall

What you fear, the collapse,

It’s not going to be as bad as you think.

Let it come

Let the rubble fall

Let it fall until it settles

Then, have a good look around.

You are alive

You are still standing

It can’t get any worse

You have nothing to protect now

Nothing weighing on you

Nothing more to fear

Your worst fear has materialised

And now you are free

Now, you can choose differently

And rebuild anew.

From the ashes of destruction

Soars the phoenix of rebirth.

Sometimes, it’s about one little problem

Sometimes, it’s our entire life.

Posted in darkness and light, Energy healing, Inspiration, Personal Story

Waking Up

Quite often, the posts I write don’t represent where I’m at, they’re me working things out for myself.  It’s a part of a process where intellect is engaged, part of moving through the energy to realisation.  So, when I state something, it doesn’t mean I’m there yet, it means I know I’m working through that energy.

I watched a film recently, it was one I’ve watched at least five times, an old favourite I never seem to tire of.  Every time, it gets me in the heart, which is not surprising since it’s a film all about the heart.  And more than that, it’s a film about claiming your darkness, and I hadn’t really noticed that before because I hadn’t watched it just at the moment when I was ready to see it before.

As usual, this time, the emotions started to surface, ones I often struggle with.

And there it was.  After my recent post ‘Allowing Life to Be’, I realised what I needed as I watched the film.  I realised that those struggling emotions of yearning and desires and loneliness, a desire for a deep, abiding loving relationship that expresses as a sacred union at all levels, this is not a lack in me, not something to fight or struggle against, not a bad or negative feeling. It doesn’t represent a deficiency or failure. It’s okay, it’s a part of me.  It’s who I am, and all of a sudden I claimed it.  I embraced my needs and desires and moved the energy from dissonance to resonance. 

Then, I realised there was more that needed to be claimed, I needed to claim the darkness, the loss, abandonment, lack of love I’ve experienced, deeper than I’d ever claimed it before.  Instead of feeling it was something that had happened to me, that it was a problem, that it was the opposite of what I wanted, I claimed it all.  I claimed the darkness as mine. 

Now, I own it.  I can no longer be hurt because it’s something I allow as who I am.  All those emotions that weren’t love became love, love for myself.  I loved myself to freedom.

Guilt, resentment, blame, anger, sorrow, all became love.  And that love became peace.  The peace brought stillness and release, it brought acceptance and trust.  I accepted me and at the same time, I healed myself some more.    

Waking up is a series of moments of realisation, of claiming and acceptance of oneself.      

Posted in darkness and light, healing, Inspiration

Allowing Life To Be

How often have I found that the problems, symptoms, troubles surrounding me always dissipate when I get out of the way.

When I stop fighting.

When I take the road less travelled, the path of least resistance.

When I stop energising the pathways of dissatisfaction, of not being enough, of having to be a fighter or martyr.

When I think that something needs fixing…

It doesn’t.

When we choose to not oppose our conditions, we take away the energy of resistance.

When we remove the energy of resistance, we move from dissonance to resonance.

When we move from dissonance to resonance, we let go of fear and find love.

When we find love, we find our inner peace.

When we find our inner peace, we find our centre, our truth, our integrity and authenticity, we are home.

Do less, trust more, allow, allow, allow.

Posted in Abundance and lack, darkness and light, The Truth of our Being

This Is What Trust Is

What are you looking for?

Are you looking to be liked?

Are you looking to be healthy?

To lose weight?

To be healed from all your issues and pains?

To be relieved of all your worries?

To find your true love?

To find your true purpose in life?

To make a success of yourself?

Maybe you’d quite like to find all of the above.

What about the crazy idea of not looking for any of them. 

Stop, look inside yourself. 

Everything that you need, you have.

Everything that you have was a gift from the Universe.

To serve you.

Even if it looks like an inconvenience, or not good enough, or a curse.

Be who you are, and be that totally, honourably, wholly.

And the Universe will rearrange itself so that everything works out beautifully.

Posted in Abundance and lack, Ascension, darkness and light, Energy healing, love, spiritual skills and techniques

The Path of No Resistance

I wish to let you know, we do not need to suffer anymore.

And that’s a big statement that needs some serious quantifying, so I had better get onto it.

The Ascended Masters and Archangels are telling me we don’t have to suffer anymore, all our suffering has been released and has been freed from our karma.  And yet, we clearly are still suffering.

There’s a dissonance between what they mean and what we are realising and that gap needs filling.

What they mean is we have all the skills at our disposal to remove or bypass suffering.

We have the ability to remove our own suffering at will.

Suffering used to be necessary for growth and karma but is no longer necessary.

We can choose to grow without it, we have been released of all our karma, all our past lives and the life we’re living now have been cleansed and integrated for us.

That’s what they mean.

But we are still suffering because we think we have to.

We are still suffering because either we don’t realise or don’t remember to use the tools we possess as human beings that can release or remove our suffering.

We are still suffering because we believe that suffering is a part of our lot, a part of our sacred journey.

It’s not.  Do you really think the Creator wishes you to suffer if you don’t have to?  The Creator is the most incredible source of indescribable unconditional love that can exist.  I know the Buddha talked about the need for suffering, how the path of Earth is one of suffering, but that was then and this is now.  The path of Earth is one of fulfilment, to experience fulfilment constantly, eternally, and we are all deserving of this. A lot has changed and suffering is no longer needed.

We can choose not to suffer.  But if we don’t believe that or don’t choose to energise the pathway of not-suffering, we stay stuck with suffering.  Maybe we don’t believe there’s no need for suffering.  Maybe we believe we are not worthy to be free of suffering.  A lot of us are carrying guilt, remorse, confusion, low self-worth.  A lot of us are carrying the energy of suffering because we don’t realise that we simply need to choose to let it go and no longer energise that pathway.  No longer persist in holding onto it. 

We no longer need to carry guilt, remorse, confusion, low self-worth, lack consciousness, whether lack of love or anything else.  We don’t need to carry any of those burdens, but we are.  Because when they come up to be released, we are not letting them go. 

And it’s not easy to let go.  We are letting them go one minute and then calling them back the next, like old frenemies, bad habits we are used to.  Goddess knows, I’ve got my struggles with this and I presume you’ve got yours.  It’s not simple and I am not saying it’s easy.  But I am saying it could be.

So, first of all, please know, you don’t need to be carrying those energies anymore, please don’t think suffering is a given. People on the journey, whether spiritual or not, people going through their shit, they think they have to try, to work hard at it, to make an effort. It’s the opposite. Stop trying, stop processing, stop looking for answers. Stop. You need do nothing, just let go, once you do that, everything can happen naturally. Get out of the way and let the Universe help you, it will do the work for you and you can sit back and receive. Stop fighting the Universal flow, really, it’s on your side and you are the one getting in the way.

Suffering can be a teacher, it shows where there’s something out of alignment, something causing dissonance in our lives.  So, it’s like having an early warning alarm system built in.  But then, we can notice, adjust and reset the alarm so that the suffering is gone.  But only if we know how. 

We need a bag of spiritual energetic tools that enable us to do this and more.  And that’s where my next online workshop comes in.  I’m creating a 101 course on energetic tools and gifts that we all have access to.   They will deliver to you:-

Instant inner peace

Instant grounding

Instant protection from all unwelcome dissonant energies

Instant boosting of your energy and vitality

Instant fulfilment and so much more.

You will have a directory of energetic solutions to every situation that you need help and support with. You will know how to express your life as an energy being, which you truly are.

And when it comes to letting go of suffering, it’s hard because our relationship with suffering goes deep, it’s been within us a long time, not just us personally but us as humanity, as a collective.  It’s a huge part of our psyche.  And so much is coming to the surface to be cleared now, so suffering is coming to the surface.  Many things that trigger suffering are coming to the surface.  If we don’t know how to clear that dissonant energy, we suffer more, not less as it’s meant to be. 

Whatever comes up from the past doesn’t need to be engaged with, just let it come up and move through. Whatever is coming up, it’s coming up to be released with love, not to be held onto, not to be engaged with, not to be intellectualised or processed, not to be energised, not to cause us suffering.  When we choose to no longer energise a pathway, we are recognising the trust, the strength and power that exists within our being, which is always present.  And most importantly it’s about recognising that we are a beacon of love.  When we can recognise the power of our love, and the love that is gifted to us and flows through us, we will recognise that anything is possible.  And, of course, what is also needed is a deeper connection with our soul.    

[This post goes out for you, Lorraine.  I see you, I hear you.  You are a being of love and love is at your core.  Always]  

[Painting above is by myself, Ananda Amenet Reid and is protected by copyright and cannot be reproduced]  

Posted in Ascension, darkness and light, healing, Personal Story

How Are You Doing?

Are you okay?  Do you need a virtual hug?  Somewhere to be heard without judgement or solutions being offered?  Do you wish someone would ask how you are?

There’s a lot of powerful energy coursing through the ether for us all right now, and I know of quite a few people who are struggling because of it.  And I include myself there.

Thing is, when powerful change is happening, it quite often looks like things are going down the drain.  We feel worse, our life gets worse and it seems like we’re losing ground.

We’re not. 

What’s happening is, all this energy is creating a great deal of opening up and releasing – which is good because it’s a chance to let go of some things that we’ve been holding onto for a long time and felt like we had no control over.  Like what?  Like feeling not good enough, like believing we are not lovable, like the patterns that hold us in our wounded beliefs.

But releasing isn’t easy because, in order to be released, stuff has to come up to the surface that is difficult to handle, stuff that makes us feel low, sad, angry, inadequate, a failure.  Yes, it can get tough.

Just remember, this is another opportunity to see past the personal, past the emotional, past the over-thinking it and see instead the healing and releasing.

For me, I just had two days when my mood plummeted and tears fell.  Then last night, I had diarrhoea throughout the night and didn’t sleep.  It was a question of lying on my bed and waiting for the next wave of stomach pains to push me to the bathroom.  So, I put on a powerful soundtrack from my Spotify and lay on my back moving my arms around, singing along.  Somehow, the music started to awaken a new level of awareness and I began to call in my guides, soul and soul group, asking for cleansing and updating of my energies.  I also started to release what I could see didn’t serve me and manifest what I was calling into my life.  In doing so, I experienced a new level of uplift and empowerment.

Whilst this was going on, a whole new level of understanding came through.  I realised that even though I had believed I was an empowered person who embraced my self love and self worth, there were times when I wasn’t actually living that, I was still giving my energy away and deferring to others instead of being myself.  

I needed to see that.  I needed to realise that this is okay, that it doesn’t mean I’m failing, it means I’m still growing, still learning and that’s something that never stops. 

There is no destination, fulfilment is constant growth that can oscillate between enlightenment and despair and it’s all there for a purpose, bringing us to more fulfilment.   

So, in going through my experience, I thought of you, I wondered what you are experiencing and if, like me, you have moments of wishing someone would just reach out, check out how you are.  Offer a virtual hug.  It can make all the difference just to know we are in this together, we can be there for each other.  I am sending my blessings and healing love to you today.  And reminding you of how far you’ve come and how amazing you are.    

Posted in darkness and light, love, Poetry

I Am Present

Even if I seem distant,

If I seem quiet,

Know that I am present.

Unconditional love stays at source

And will not follow into darkness.

I am waiting.

Holding the light.

I will not give false platitudes,

But make silent prayers for you.

I place my whole being into the hands of the Creator

And trust that you make space for the Creator within you.

I will stay with the source, loving you as the source loves you.

I will not give the comfort that your wounded child craves,

But my soul glorifies in the presence of your perfect soul.

You may choose what you will,

Wander where you wish,

Even into darkness, confusion, chaos.

I will not move into the abyss with you.

I remain at the place of truth.

Whether or not you see me, whether you hear or feel me,

I am present.

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration

Stuff

Stuff happens,

It’s just stuff.

But then we judge it….

Now, there’s good stuff and bad stuff,

And this is the bad stuff.

Now, it’s a problem,

Now, there are tears,

And life has become a fight.

It wasn’t stuff that changed,

It was the judgement we took to it.

Posted in darkness and light, Personal Story, Storytelling, transformation

Revealed By Darkness by Chloe Elgar

My niece, Chloe Elgar, has just self-published her second book. And I was one of the lucky ones who got an early preview, receiving bits of it and then getting to read the entire manuscript, pre-publication. I have to say, from the off, I feel so hugely proud of Chloe and her book is amazing. She is one incredible human being, one of the many things I admire about her is that she knows how to stay in her centre and is true to herself, no matter what.

The book is called ‘Revealed By Darkness: A psychic memoir’ and tells the story of how Chloe emerged as the person she is through dark times and scary events. How her psychic gifts developed and the ways she first denied and then embraced her truth. She has written in such a way that asks, nay, challenges us to reflect on the truths for ourselves, because in reading this book, we will all recognise ourselves and our journeys somewhere here, even though we are all different, we often share the same fears and challenges, in one form or another. And hopefully, we will all come to trust the dark, even trust endings and death, as Chloe’s book guides us to a greater understanding of the reason these energies exist in partnership with love and life.

I warn you, it’s gritty, raw and powerful. It really amazed me how it brought up so much of my own childhood and there were some challenging moments. But that’s what working with the dark is all about, that’s how transformation happens.

Chloe and I met up occasionally over the years, but it wasn’t until 2019, at my mum’s 90th birthday party, that something really clicked between us. From then on, we developed a much closer relationship and started working on an exciting project together, utilising our unique skills in combination. This is a long-term project, under wraps for now but one day, I’ll tell you all about it.

In the meantime, if you feel attracted to Chloe’s book, it’s on Amazon and available as kindle, paperback and audio version. Or follow the link above by clicking on the book title or Chloe’s name and you’ll land on her website where you can order your copy.

Posted in darkness and light, death, transformation

The Dance of Life And Death

Sometimes, things end

Sometimes, stuff breaks down

Sometimes, everything falls apart

Whether it’s plans, dreams, hopes,

Whether it’s society, culture, structure,

Whether it’s relationships, career, status.

Whether it’s the lives of the ones we love

Or a complete stranger, or our own life.

It’s transformation

It clears the way for something new.

It’s a death.

And death begets life

Death cleanses

Death heals

Death creates a new beginning.

Do not fear change

Do not forsake what needs to be dissolved.

Do not deny the death of what is ready to transform.

Embrace the process

And let the fresh green shoots grow.

Embrace your truth,

The old ‘you’ dies

The old life is ready to fall by the wayside.

The new is constantly waiting to be born.

Our fear of death is as much about our fear of life, our fear to live.

We fear change and cling to the familiar.

The challenge is often that we are not good enough, we are not worthy,

We cannot step up.

Be brave, beautiful soul, you were made for this constant dance of death and life.

They are always present, whether you fear them or not,

Whether you engage or not.

You are worthy, you always were.

You are worthy to fully engage in truth

And death is truth

Life is truth

They are both beautiful and necessary

You are safe with them, they belong with us.

Surrender, trust, accept, receive.