Posted in Abundance and lack, elemental kingdom, Energy healing, Inspiration, spiritual skills and techniques

Sleepy Time Spirituality

Waking up is golden.  I love that feeling, especially on the colder mornings, when I wake up and feel that soft, gooey comfort of being still in sleepy suspension, wrapped up in my fluffy duvet.  Without opening my eyes, I turn over and curl up in glorious bliss for a few more minutes of deliciousness.  This is a great time to contemplate any lasting remnants of the nights’ dreams.  But mostly, this is a special time for doing some really powerful and transformational spiritual work.

When we are just waking from sleep and slipping into sleep, we are already in an altered state of consciousness that is perfect for deep and powerful manifestation.  This is a great time to repeat your affirmations and positive self-statements, to send out healing and gratitude, to manifest and activate all you are calling into your life now.  It’s probably amongst the most powerful times for all this work, not to mention for prayer, and maybe that’s why we traditionally teach children to pray just before going to sleep.  At this time, you are conscious but also have a foot in the other world.  You are operating as both your physical and energy selves combined.  

My current waking up practices involve engaging with the energies of abundance in order to overcome any resisting energies of lack consciousness.  This work is really, deeply about increasing self-worth and self-love, except it tends to manifest as fear of lack.  Lack of money, lack of time, lack of fundamental things we feel we need to survive.  It can appear in the form of addictions.  The fears are often irrational, perhaps a fear of not having enough to eat when we have a full larder.  So, I’m using this early morning sleepy time to repeat some powerful statements that consolidate my being in a constant stream of abundance, which we all are. 

And this is also a perfect time for me to send healing out, knowing that it’s so powerful because I’m really connected and open at this time. 

Currently, I’m working on a ‘re-homing critters’ project and this is one of my newest offerings.  In this case, it’s rats in the attic space.  When engaged in this work, I’m addressing the over-lighting great Rat Consciousness.  This is the collective archetype energy of all rats.  And I request that the Rat Consciousness supports the individual rats in question to understand that their current choice of home in the attic is neither safe for them nor for the humans who live in the house.  I will also call in the house spirit, an elemental spirit that takes care of the house, which in this case dates to the 1700’s.  And I also call the Elemental Kingdom, who I’m especially asking to support the rats in finding a safe and suitable new home in the vicinity.  This activation is repeated several times in order for the creatures concerned to overcome their natural instincts to protect the nest or site they have already chosen to live in.  It’s important to appreciate the enormity of asking them to leave their home, after all, it’s not something we would willingly do without good cause, so why should they?

Have you felt called to engage in some energy work during these powerful times of entering and leaving sleep? 

Posted in Abundance and lack, Energy healing, Full Moon, inner child, Inspiration, love, Personal Story

Embracing Abundance at the Full Moon

Abundance is something I’ve looked into and worked with energetically many times over the years. I’ve been trying to connect with that energy and invite it fully into my life.

Like secretly eating donuts when you’re trying to lose weight, I’ve been working against myself, sensing deep down that the fear of lack is still underlying.

It’s a difficult one to shake. My mother grew up during rationing with a strong tendency towards frugality, carrying her own lack consciousness wounds. She portioned out every meal, sparsely and carefully, for the family and it was never acceptable to help yourself from the fridge or cupboards, take seconds or refuse to eat everything on your plate. I was the youngest in the family and always received the smallest portions.

Everything was hand-made, toys and clothes, DIY was king and it was all about make-do and mend. My clothes were sewn by my mother, my out-of-fashion school uniform made me an easy target. The sense of material lack, lack of love and lack of emotional connection were tangible in every moment throughout my childhood.

My mother often expressed, sometimes hysterically, fears that we were poor and how she couldn’t cope with it all, now I know we were not as poor as all that. As a little child it scared me and I felt a heavy burden upon me when she spoke like that, a feeling I still remember now. It’s as though my little self translated it as, “we’re going to die!” It felt like she was giving me that burden, she was and I took it.

I don’t think my childhood was that unusual, we all have experiences of lack growing up. When material things and love are both scarce, the two easily become intertwined. So it is my current wounds relate to early traumas about not feeling wanted, loved or valued. That’s the healing I’ve been working on for years.

I’ve come a long, long way. It feels like I’ve cleaned the house and now I’ve just got to hoover up the last bits of mess, left over from all that hard work. But boy, are those sticky bits of mess difficult to vacuum up. If you read my posts you will know that inner child healing has been a game-changer for me, really helping me to shift a lot of stuck patterns and heal early life traumas. And sometimes, one twenty minute healing has changed so much. But when it comes to lack consciousness, I just keep going over and over it with the healing and yet, it’s still there. There’s just so much of it, so many trauma moments from my young selves, such fixed beliefs and patterns of behaviour that it’s like wading through treacle. I know I’m making a difference, finding and healing child after child who are carrying this energy, but there are so many of them!

Lack is deep, sometimes too deep to see. It’s not being good enough, not being worthy, not receiving the love we crave, it’s never feeling full up or complete, like having a hole inside you that cannot be filled, no matter what you do.

Its presence appears in desperately seeking or craving to be loved, engaging in addictions like alcohol, drugs, food or sex. It’s a panic feeling that surfaces when there’s any kind of possibility of not getting enough of anything, whether food, time, money or attention.

Lack of love can materialise as entanglements within relationships, when we are looking for the love we crave but are matching with the wrong energy, finding someone that fits the dysfunctional energy from our past. It never works and there’s only one answer, find that love inside ourselves. But when we carry a hidden wound, it’s not easy to give up the deeply held hope and desire to find the love of our life, the one who fulfils all our dreams and doesn’t hurt us.

I fear, literally fear not getting enough to eat, even when I over-eat, fear I’ll go hungry before my next meal, when that’s simply not possible. I fear that I don’t have enough money to live off, to get me through to my state pension. I even fear that I’m wasting time, that there’s never enough time in the day and I’m not using it wisely. Of course, these fears are always there but they’re not always activated, so there are lots of times I feel huge gratitude and great abundance in my life. But deep down, there’s a part of me that can’t completely buy into that and it’s the part of me that was hurt so much by lack of love throughout childhood.

So, what am I doing about it? Well, today it’s full moon and I’ve been making it my focus all day. I’m celebrating the full moon and her beautiful energies of increase, manifestation and abundance by embracing abundance consciously all day long.

I often bless my food and give gratitude before I eat and today I’m doing this for everything that goes into my body.

I’m having a little fire ceremony to release all that no longer serves me mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually, calling my guides, soul and soul group to help. This will make room for more abundance.

I’m making a candle spell for increase of all harmonious energies in my life, mental, emotional, physical and spiritual.

I’m creating full moon water and drinking it with intention to receive the moon’s blessings of increase and abundance.

I’m drawing down all that is ready to come into my life now and calling in all that my heart is choosing.

I’m working with inner child healing, looking for wound energy trapped within my body related to that little inner child who carried the burdens of lack from her mother.

I’m spending time with my shadow self, my cosmic double who holds all the unresolved energies and offering to transform energies of lack into abundance.

I’m being conscious of abundance all day, starting and ending the day with prayers of gratitude and really feeling the power of gratitude. I’m taking my time, feeling no pressure, putting aside thoughts or feelings that I need to be doing something else.

And I’m sending you many blessings this full moon!

Posted in healing, inner child, love

Nothing To Do: A Secret To Living a Fuller Life

I’ve just hit a pause.  And, oh, that pause is rich, it is deep and it is giving.  Being active, busy, having a full life and stuff to do is great but we need times when there is nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing to see.  A pause when we are free to just be.  There can be so much richness going on inside, where it matters, when we have nothing to do! 

And I am so lucky.  I don’t exist in relation to anybody else.  I exist only in relation to myself.  Many would consider that a failing, a loss even.  I can see that and sometimes feel it, but it’s also a wonderful gift.  It means I find silence, stillness and space whenever I need it. 

I don’t have a day job (which doesn’t mean I’m not working or busy).  I don’t live with anybody or have anyone dependent upon me.  Some might think me privileged (I would agree) or self-centred (yes I am, but in the most positive manner, putting one’s self first is critical in learning self-love and self-love is my personal healing journey right now.  It’s only a healed self that can really give freely to others.)

My pause moment is bringing forth such treasures, the kind of learning, intuitions, understanding that doesn’t find the space to grow and form when we’re living a full life.  I’m learning what needs to be acknowledged, what needs to be integrated.  I’m moving forwards in my fulfilment.  I’m receiving clarity and have the chance to make adjustments for my growth. 

Specifically, I’m looking deeply into what has not healed from past losses and rejections, yet again, at a deeper level than before.  Why it is that I desperately feel a need to be loved?  I’m asking what has to heal to find that love from within myself.  I know my soul is calling for a solitary path at this time in my life and I’ve ditched, rejected or removed some key people who surrounded me because their presence in my life was stopping me from loving me. 

At the end of the day, we will continuously search for the love we never received in childhood from outside ourselves.  We will keep looking for that love, entering numerous relationships to do so.  However much we are loved in those relationships, it always comes up short and the original loss will not be assuaged.  That can only be accomplished within ourselves through the love we give ourselves. 

We may try to fill that hole in all sorts of ways, with love, food, alcohol, drugs, sex, work.  None of it will truly help, it will pull us further and further to a crisis point where we have no other recourse than to turn to ourselves.  We will have no other options than to heal from inside out.  And finally, we face ourselves.  We go deep and embrace our inner child.  We love our inner child with all our heart and all our truth and all our might. And we acknowledge, heal and integrate the wound that has never left us. We are ready to truly face it and claim it.           

Posted in Inspiration, The Truth of our Being, transformation

Body Fantastic

Movement

Nourishment

Relaxation

Silence

Sleep

These are the needs our body craves, in equal measure.

Listen to your body and it will guide you.

Respect your body.

Your body is your most loving life-time companion

And if you treat it right, your body will initiate a self-reset

To its original blueprint, your best physical self.

Trust your body.

Love your body.

You are not your body, you are more ‘not’ your body than you are your body.

You are energy, you are soul, you are consciousness, you are personality, you are emotions, you are thoughts, you are memory, none of those are physical.

The only part of you that exists in physical reality is your body.

With your body, it takes time to manifest change.

But your body is amazing.  It’s talking to you all the time, notice the bodily sensations that tell you what to eat, when to move, how long to sleep, when to stop, when to go within. 

Your body is capable of so much more than you can imagine.    

Posted in Inspiration, spiritual skills and techniques

What Can’t You Stop?

This Friday’s Transformational Question is somewhat challenging, assuming we choose to take the challenge.  If not, the seed has still been sown if there’s something our soul wishes us to learn here.

Have a look at this list.  What can’t you stop doing?

Drinking coffee

Swearing

Wearing make-up

Eating junk food

Checking your phone

Using social media

Writing posts

Taking selfies

Drinking alcohol

You get the picture, maybe you can think of your own compulsions, we all have them and they all have something to teach us about ourselves.  There’s nothing wrong with doing any of these things, the issue here is who is in control? When it feels like something we can’t do without, that’s not freedom. 

What if we were to pick just one activity that we feel resistant towards giving up and choose to stop doing it for 30 days. For me, it’s got to be coffee, I’m definitely shackled to coffee. Give it up? Eeek! Not going to happen?

Then, consider this.  The next time we do it, we do it mindfully, completely aware that we are choosing this.  As we do, we consider how it makes us feel.  What is it doing for us?  What would it be like to not do it anymore?  What is our attitude to this activity teaching us about ourselves? Going deeper, what is underlying? Stay mindful and reflective with just one behaviour for a while and watch your relationship to it start to change, loosen.

If we keep consciously working with the energy, we will change our relationship with our addictions and compulsions, they are patterns of behaviour associated with our inner healing, coming from wounds and traumas in our early years. They are ways we manage our feelings and we no longer need them in our lives when we are opening up to self love. These must-do activities are shackling us, self love is our supreme liberation.