Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration, love, spiritual skills and techniques, transformation

Surfing the Wave of Self Love

I’m hearing from several of my sisters that life is not easy at the moment.  There’s stuff coming up that needs dealing with, so much is presenting, so much to take on board.  Sometimes, it feels relentless, sometimes, we wonder if it will ever end, if we will ever find peace and stability again.  Yes, we will, we do.  But it’s a mistake to think that’s the goal.  Progress is not getting to a point where the difficult stuff no longer happens, progress is being with that stuff and being stable and finding peace when we are still experiencing it.  It’s not life that changes, it’s what we take to it.  It’s us that changes. 

When we’re in the thick of it, when the chaos is swirling all around, our thoughts and feelings are all over the place, we are so confused, we sometimes cannot tell the difference between truth and illusions.  We need to be able to hear our higher self guiding us but we can’t hear the voice, we are unable to differentiate the voice of our ego-personality, our wounded self, from our higher self at times like these. 

This is what we can do.  Write down the questions that are going around your head.  Maybe it’s about what direction you are being prompted to move forward in.  Maybe it’s about who is in your life that’s not serving you.  Maybe it’s about healing from the past.  Physical, emotional and mental conditions are your body’s way of letting you know there’s unresolved pain that needs your attention.  There will be themes, specific situations that trigger more pain, whether physical or psychological.  They are telling you what it’s about.

Although we have days that are really tough, we also get a break, days when we seem to be coping again and can get on with our life.  It’s easy to just fall back into life and forget about what just happened, but don’t.  Because you wrote those questions down, go to them now and spend a few moments letting what comes up be captured on paper.  You can allow your higher self to come to the fore now because you’re not triggered.  You can trust your intuition to give you your truth.  All you need do is move yourself aside, and that means moving aside your judgements, expectations, limitations and opinions for a few moments in order to see what your highest self has to say to you. This is a great skill to have and a wonderful way to gift yourself more of the love that you are.

I also wish to let you know this.  No matter how it feels, you are magnificent and you are in the right place, experiencing what is needed for your soul’s path.  It may not feel like it, but this is all okay.  This is all serving you and you are doing brilliantly.  You haven’t lost ground.  Things might feel like you have, but you haven’t.  If you’re walking through the dark night right now, you are on a difficult path but one that brings the biggest gifts and transformations. Believe in yourself, you are going to come out into the light again and you are going to level up. When you do, you will have gained such clarity that you will transform and become someone who embodies a new level of detachment and resilience.  You will then be able to surf across days like this, like riding a wave.

Posted in healing, Inspiration, love, Personal Story, spiritual skills and techniques

Lightbulb Moment

I had one of those special moments yesterday, you know the ones, when something suddenly clicks into place at a new, deeper, more profound level and a lightbulb goes on.  And as is often the case, it was something I thought I already understood, but no, only intellectual understanding it seems.

Today, I just want to capture that learning, because, like a dream, these moments can so easily blow themselves away from our memory, even if they do count energetically.

I was doing something mundane, I had just read an interesting Facebook post and was mulling it over.  I remember, I was mumbling out loud, and then, suddenly, I said it. 

And, of course, it only happens when something inside us is ready to receive it.  So, it may or may not light your bulb, if I tell you what it was. 

I don’t remember what the post was now, that doesn’t seem important.  But I was thinking about the way we embrace the things that we find really difficult, like painful physical conditions, troubling thoughts and moods, challenging situations.  Well, I’ve been doing that when I can from time to time, with differing results, because sometimes, it’s not easy.

But in this special moment, I suddenly realised that if we open up our heart to that difficulty, literally love it completely, like it is our beloved child, and in realising this, I experienced a flood of love so deep that it was like a pure wave cascading over and through me.  If we do that, it is instantly dissolved.  What can possibly stand in the face of such love?

In that moment, it felt so natural and totally possible to do that.  Now, I’m not so sure, I can still see how easy it is to get caught up in one’s suffering so that we cannot separate it out from ourselves and then look it in the face with such utter, pure heartfelt love that it melts.  I guess I’m probably going to have this particular lightbulb moment a few more times before I totally embody it.   

But now I’ve remembered and captured the memory, I’m going to bring it to mind when I’m in those situations if I can and try it on for size.  You never know, it may just fit.

Posted in Energy healing, inner child, spiritual skills and techniques

Don’t Avoid You

You have issues that need addressing.

You know you do.

There’s healing from the past that you need to attend to.

Why are you avoiding it?

Why do you keep putting it off?

Procrastinating.

Putting it on the back burner.

And then, bemoaning the difficulties that keep surfacing in your life?

You’re good at dealing with this stuff,

The emotions and the problems,

You’re good at giving advice, unpicking the knots,

You do it for everyone else,

Family and friends,

But you wantonly ignore yourself.

What’s that about?

And then, when things become really hard

You start to cast your eyes about

Looking for solutions outside of yourself

Looking for a substance, a product, a service, a person to help.

And maybe it gets better for a while, but never for long

Because only you can fix what’s inside.

Maybe you don’t think it’s down to you,

After all, so much is not of your making,

Life throwing stones on your path.

And you are the victim.

But you are the one calling it in,

You are choosing all that comes your way,

Even when you don’t realise it.

Maybe it’s because, deep down,

You don’t believe you deserve better.

And maybe that truth is so deep

You can’t see it.

Maybe you fear to visit the past

To open up your own Pandora’s box?

But you don’t need to visit the past,

You don’t need to bring up the hurt.

You don’t need to face it at all.

You are healing what is happening now,

When the triggers are active.

You can do all the healing inside you

And not visit the past at all.

No need to face down all those demons,

Just heal the now with your love.

It’s time, my friend.

Stop avoiding yourself.

Stop looking for solutions outside of you.

Do the work.

Heal.  

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Posted in Energy healing, inner child, Personal Story

Learning How to Heal From Darkness

The next time my life goes tits up, I will know what it means, I will know what to do about it.  I won’t be found floundering about like a fish on land again. 

‘Tits up’ could mean getting ill with the kind of crazy shit that doesn’t have a label.  For me, that has been chronic fatigue, lack of mental acuity, depression, anxiety.  By ‘crazy shit’ I mean it’s going to be trigger energy from a childhood trauma wound. It could be a relationship, whether in the family, intimate or friendship, something that gets messy, to the extent that it starts to make me out of balance.  It could be a situation, something that overwhelms me.  Any kind of thing that throws me off, that takes me out of my centre, unbalances me, leaves me destabilised and outside my power. 

I remember days like that, I remember days stretching into weeks, months, even years as I fought and railed and didn’t have a clue what was going on.  Those were the days of darkness.

Fortunately, I’ve been out of the darkness for a while now, long enough to feel a sense of stability and settling.  In fact, I would say my personal power and liberation has grown enormously of late.  But what has really changed is I’ve done the healing, which, for me was inner child healing and abandonment healing, and now I look back and see those days completely differently.  I see how my body, mind, emotions, higher self, my soul were literally screaming at me the whole time that something was wrong and I was screaming at them, in despair, as I tried, but failed, to work it out. 

So, if it ever comes back, if I ever hit those kind of days again, I will know what to do.  I will check who is in my life and what kind of energy they are bringing to me.  What am I doing that is not serving me?  Where is the healing I need to attend to?  Yes, those are the questions I will ask myself and I will know how to turn that shit around, straight away.

Posted in Inspiration, sovereignty, The Truth of our Being

Living Our Truth

Here’s a difficult question today, and it’s not even ‘transformational question Friday’ (for those that don’t know, we have a little Friday theme going on).

This question is challenging us to a new kind of self-truth. “In what ways are you living a lie?” Ouch, did that hurt? Maybe your answer is, “Not at all!” Maybe the ways we do this are so carefully dismissed and disguised by us, excuses made, that we hardly even realise it anymore.

By living a lie, I mean living in a manner that we are not being honest with ourselves. Perhaps we diminish our truth with our significant other, our family or friends. Maybe it’s something we do at work. It can be little or big things. Essentially, it’s diminishing ourselves and it’s always about what others think. Examples of not living our truth might include needing to hide our gender identity, secret addictions or behaviours, holding secrets within our key relationships. Anything we think we’re going to get judged for, basically. These hidden truths are often about society’s rules and expectations, but those rules are meaningless and we don’t have to live by them. The only rules and expectations we need are those that come from within, using our own moral compass, from our compassionate and honest heart. And the person who is really getting hurt here, is us.

It’s not always the big things, it can be little moments when we diminish our truth, saying what we know is going to be best received, and we usually get an uncomfortable feeling when we do that. I had one of those moments recently. A neighbour asked me in a public setting if I had received the Covid vaccination yet. I said the truth, no, I haven’t, I picked up her body language, saw her shift uncomfortably. She’s die-hard pro-vaccine and publishes her views that those who are not stepping up are letting everybody else down. The truth is, I’m choosing not to get the vaccination but I said this; “I was only offered the one that’s being investigated for risk of blood clots, I’ve had two blood clots in my lungs and one in my legs in the past, I’m not taking the injection I was offered because of the risk and now I’ve been put to the end of the list.” Everything I said was true but it wasn’t THE truth. I have no intention of having the vaccine. I noticed the uncomfortable feeling of that lie and later wished I’d been true to myself, rather than acting from my perception of what another thinks. I’m entitled to a choice and don’t need to offer an explanation. A learning opportunity for the next time.

If we can’t be honest with our loved ones about the truth of who we are, we are better to walk away, even if only for a time, to become comfortable with the truth within ourselves first. Or we need to lay our truth out on the table, no matter the consequences. To live a lie is to create a chaotic and dishonest resonance that won’t support our relationships to function in harmony. And for myself, if a person is lying to another about their truth, then they have it in them to lie to me too. And if a friend is disparaging their other friends in my ear, they can be doing the same about me. That’s not a person who knows how to be true to themselves, let alone anyone else.

When it comes to disclosure, we don’t need to share with those who won’t know what to do with the information and, quite often, they don’t really need to know. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for who you are. We are not wilfully hiding who we are, but we don’t have to explain ourselves.

Something else to bear in mind, if you are feeling ready to let your truth show, timing is everything, feel your way through it, don’t just blurt it out. Spend time making it more obvious without saying it outright by living your truth more visibly and drop casual statements that validate your truth. In it’s own time, an opportunity will open up to have a conversation and when that happens, let your confidence and self-belief shine through. This is your TRUTH, own it.

When we live a lie, no matter how small, it eats away at us. Over time, we become accustomed to it for the most part, but we are living in an energy of dissonance and we create our own toxicity. That often expresses itself in our lives physically as an illness. Most of these conditions primarily feature either chronic fatigue, immune deficiency or inflammatory conditions.

Chronic fatigue is a way for our body to shut down. It’s saying, “I can’t live like this anymore! Please, let’s just stop altogether.” That exhaustion is displaced from the dissonance and toxic conditions in our lives.

Immune deficiency is the body’s way of saying, “I can’t fight anymore, I’m overwhelmed, I give up.”

And inflammation disorders are the body’s response to living in damaging conditions or lifestyle. This condition is fighting back, doing it’s level best to protect the body from threat, except that the threat in question cannot be cushioned by swelling and the resulting aches and pains only make life worse.

When you live with long-term conditions, look for the lie in your life. It may even be that your entire life is not where it needs to be, and I say that as I’m about to embark on my new start, new home and new life, already my health conditions have started to move into the realm of wellness. None of this is a judgement, it’s a wake-up call. When we move to be in alignment with our truth, we remove those limitations, that toxicity and dissonance and step out into the light. Truth is light and light doesn’t shine where it’s hidden.

The time has come to open up to the truth of who we are. Let everything be known, the consequences will not be as severe as you imagine. And if they are, ride the storm knowing you are following the truth of your heart. And you will feel like a weight has been lifted from you when you are no longer hiding your truth. But remember, one step at a time. Let’s all do it together, loving and supporting each other, holding amnesty for all the secrets that are revealed. This is how we claim ourselves, how we access 100 per cent personal power, 100 per cent supreme liberation, 100 per cent authentic self. Imagine that.

[ I love this amazing painting by artist Aleah Chapin. These women are naked in their truth and look how magnificent they are. So powerful. aleahchapin.com ]

Posted in Energy healing, inner child

Healing At Source

When we need healing, when there is something inside of us that is a wound from the past, something that keeps disturbing our peace and hijacking our life, it surfaces in one or two ways.  One way is through our body as physical symptoms and especially when we and our doctor struggle to understand what is wrong.  The other way our wounds and traumas surface are in our relationships.  This is because other people act as a mirror that allow us to see ourselves.  Other people create the kind of situations which trigger our patterns and beliefs.  The worst case scenario is that we find ourselves in toxic relationships, whether familial, intimate or platonic.

When we become ill with chronic pain and fatigue, explained or unexplained symptoms, when we are suffering an emotional rollercoaster of torment and blame in our relationships, we need to do something about it, otherwise, we go around and around in circles.  If we leave the relationship, we just end up in another similar situation.  If we successfully treat the symptoms and conditions of our illness, we just end up with another illness a short way down the road.  That stuff has to come out somehow, but it doesn’t get rid of it until we remove the energy at source.

Does any of this sound familiar?  If so, what is the answer?  There is only one answer and that is to treat the underlying problem at source.  If we treat only the surface appearance of it, the symptoms, it is not gone and it just keeps coming back.  This means we have to treat the problem at a deeper level, at a subconscious level.  That means energetically as well as physically because the wound or trauma isn’t just a physical manifestation, it’s emotional energy, it’s memory, it’s a trapped moment from our past when an energy blockage was created, a wound.  A wound is a powerful emotional energy that is frozen in time, stuck with a deep-set belief that doesn’t work for us, never did.  A belief like “I’m not good enough” or “I’m unlovable” or “Everyone abandons me”.  There are so many possible beliefs based around rejection, loss, lack of self-worth, lack of self-love.  Essentially, these wounds are stopping us from loving ourselves and that is desperately what we need to be able to do, to embrace ourselves, become ourselves, love ourselves. 

How do we remove the wound?  When we treat conditions with conventional medicine we are usually using chemicals in the form of drugs to mask or remove the symptoms but not the dis-ease, conventional medicine is rarely holistic.  But if we treat our needs using a treatment that targets the energy that is forming the wound, the feelings and pain, the frozen blockage, then we are able to dissolve that wound away to nothing and change the beliefs from impossible ones to healthy ones, removing the patterns and behaviours so they no longer trigger pain and suffering for us.