Posted in artistic, oneness, Poetry

“Please Call Me By My True Names”

Do not say that I’ll depart tomorrow
because even today, I still arrive.

Look deeply: I arrive in every second 
to be a bud on a spring branch, 
to be a tiny bird, with wings still fragile, 
learning to sing in my new nest, 
to be a caterpillar in the heart of a flower, 
to be a jewel hiding itself in a stone.

I still arrive, in order to laugh and to cry, 
in order to fear and to hope. 
The rhythm of my heart is the birth and 
death of all that are alive.

I am the mayfly metamorphosing on the surface of the river,
and I am the bird which, when spring comes, arrives in time 
to eat the mayfly.

I am the frog swimming happily in the clear pond, 
and I am also the grass-snake who, approaching in silence, 
feeds itself on the frog.

I am the child in Uganda, all skin and bones, 
my legs as thin as bamboo sticks, 
and I am the arms merchant, selling deadly weapons to 
Uganda.

I am the twelve-year-old girl, refugee on a small boat,
who throws herself into the ocean after being raped by a sea
pirate,
and I am the pirate, my heart not yet capable of seeing and
loving.

I am a member of the politburo, with plenty of power in my
hands,
and I am the man who has to pay his “debt of blood” to my
people,
dying slowly in a forced labor camp.

My joy is like spring, so warm it makes flowers bloom in all
walks of life.
My pain is like a river of tears, so full it fills the four oceans.

Please call me by my true names, 
so I can hear all my cries and laughs at once, 
so I can see that my joy and pain are one.

Please call me by my true names, 
so I can wake up, 
and so the door of my heart can be left open, 
the door of compassion.

– by Thich Nhat Hanh

Image: “Look Deeply, I Am My Joy and Pain” by Ananda Amenet Reid

Posted in darkness and light, Soul Integration, spiritual skills and techniques, The Truth of our Being

4 Steps to 100% Personal Power

1:  Conscious Presence

2:  You are your Soul

3:  Live your Truth

4:  Own all that you are

It’s difficult to address each of these steps separately because they are so intertwined.

Being your soul means living in a state of conscious presence.  When you own all that you are, you are living your truth. 

We have all experienced being immersed in the moment at some time or other.  This is conscious presence and is attained by increasing the time we are living in such a mindful state of awareness.  Be aware of that and when you notice yourself immersed in past or future thoughts or distracted by your mind, let your consciousness return to the present moment as much as possible.  This is especially helpful for reducing and stopping the internal dialogues that keep us imprisoned within a narrative or fixated on limitations.

To be our soul can be achieved by experiencing a soul integration, that is, energy work that initiates and ignites our soul’s synthesis with our physical being.  The Soul Integration workshop available here does just that.  Essentially, we invite our soul to be the director of all that we are, our multi-dimensional, multi-faceted self.  This is energy work that can be achieved through intent.

Living our truth means we release boundaries, limitations and restrictions.  We become aware of how much of our perception as personalities is in need of releasing.  Once our soul is in the driving seat, this is going to happen naturally.  Living our truth embraces all the healing, cleansing and purifying we need as a multi-dimensional being.  It means embracing integrity and honesty.  It means accepting ourselves and loving ourselves.

Owning who we are is claiming our entirety, all of it, without discrimination or judgement.  We claim the bits we don’t like as much as those we do.  We claim the darkness, the pain, the suffering, the worst of our character and the best, because self-love cannot exist without it all.  We claim everything we have ever been, done, felt and thought and everything we are now.  We stop waiting for better.  We stop aiming for enlightenment or ascension or to be healed.  We claim and own who we are now.  We are divine and we claim and ground our divinity now.  Once we do, we have accessed supreme liberation and there’s nothing like it because it heals us and enables pure unconditional self-love to emerge. 

Truly, each of these four categories could be written about in a big book all of their own. There’s so much to say and understand, to intellectually grasp the sum total of all they have to teach. But intellect will only get us so far. If we wish to embrace them energetically, as is required for embodiment, invite each of these gifts into your heart, ask your guides, soul and soul group to support you. Meditate on each, simply creating and repeating a powerful affirmation:

“I am my soul and I am living in conscious presence as I claim and own all that I am and embody my truth.”     

Posted in healing, I AM Presence, spiritual skills and techniques

How to Stop Worries, Anxieties and Depression

When I stop the world, I get into the stream of divine consciousness that the Welsh call Awen.  This word is not one that translates directly, but to me it means divine inspiration.  It’s like being an open channel most or all of the time. It’s a wonderful time to be creative and creative hands are healing hands. From the ancient wisdom of the elders, I learned that our hands are energetically linked to our heart and when we are moving and using our hands, we are healing our heart.  

To stop the world, I lean back into silence and solitude.  To begin with, my ego fights back, gets all antsy about being isolated and lonely.  But then, I stop engaging on that level and stop the world.  I sink into the peace.

Feeling lonely is only an emotion, an attitude, a state of mind, a choice, a judgement.  Like many other emotions, it’s not real. 

Stopping the world is a wonderful superpower to have.  You stop time.  You do this whenever you meditate or engage in any activity that brings your consciousness to a deeper level, like painting does for me.  And it’s maybe dancing, reading a book, listening to music or something else for you, those times when you drift off into a no-time zone. Because when we’re immersed in one thing in the now moment, we are stopping the world.

Stopping the world is another way to describe what I call conscious presence, when we’re totally aware and focused on the now.  That’s how you stop time.  Take your attention to what you see, hear, feel, smell, taste or touch right NOW.  Remain in the now moment with your perceptions and you stop time.  Focus completely on an object before you or study the back of your hand in minute detail, every crease, every hair, every freckle, every pore. There is no past or future when you do this. Therefore, there are no anxieties, because they are worries about what’s going to happen, and there’s no depression, because that’s ruminations about what has been.  In the now, everything is fine.    

When I stop time, then I find myself naturally existing within that stream of consciousness that feeds my soul.  Circumstances have led me to be out of contact with others, alone in my world most of the time, long enough to let go and let the power of that creative flow pour into my being, flood my mind, engage with emotions and coalesce as ideas and realisations.  Gosh, it’s so much better when my ego gives up and stops complaining.  All of a sudden, there are no problems, no obstacles, they just melt away.  Loneliness becomes peace, isolation becomes stillness, loss becomes bliss.

Posted in I AM Presence, Inspiration, Poetry, the Creator

I Am Consciously Present

I am waking up
How would the Creator wake up?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am taking a shower
How would the Creator take a shower?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am eating my breakfast
How would the Creator eat breakfast?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am sitting in silence
How would the Creator sit in silence?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am chatting with friends
How would the Creator chat with friends?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am walking in nature
As the Creator, I walk in nature
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am living this moment
In conscious presence
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am
Immersed in awareness and realisation

I am
Awareness

I am
Realisation

I am

Posted in Soul Integration, spiritual skills and techniques, The Truth of our Being

Being Fulfilled

It is always important to recognise where we are not being an expression of conscious presence in our reality and the way that we act and react.

It is important to recognise where we are being an expression of conscious presence as this allows us to understand, acknowledge and recognise what it is like to be an expression of the divine.

Being an expression of the divine is a natural aspect of our being, something we can achieve without thinking about and yet there is a need to contemplate it, to become familiar with it.

Our purpose is to recognise our truth, power, and wisdom within our being, to bring forward a new way of being.

It is not a new way of being for our soul, but it is a new way of being for our personality.

To describe this new way of being, we can use the word fulfilment.

Accessing, feeling, sensing, acknowledging and experiencing fulfilment is the key.

With every experience we embark upon, every feeling, thought, action and reaction, it is important to acknowledge the energy of fulfilment.

Ask yourself, am I experiencing fulfilment in this moment?

To achieve this, there is a need to contemplate and meditate on what fulfilment would be like for you, within your being, within your reality, within all aspects of your existence upon the Earth.

Posted in channelled message, I AM Presence, Personal Story, Soul Integration, The Truth of our Being

Being in Conscious Presence

“Let not your heart regret a single moment that you have lived, nor need you tarry in the past any longer.  It is the present moment that holds your fulfilment.

Be at peace, for you are upon the path that your soul is choosing.”

I am waking up those energies within my being, my soul’s core, that have called mastery into my consciousness. Mastery has been present with me for some time. I painted a dragon called Mastery on my shamanic drum recently and when I wrote the words ‘Mastery Soul’ on the side, realised I had received the name of my new service, only the other way around, Soul Mastery.

Mastery brings energies that are reflected in the name, this is a word for me to explore on every level, to sit with, feel into. What does the word mastery bring deep into my being? What does it ignite?

Empowerment.  A huge amount of assuredness, confidence and skill.  A great deal of abilities.  But I think that from a spiritual point of view, mastery is about mastering one’s conscious presence.  Conscious presence is a term that’s coming up for me a lot.

This state of being is a natural remembering and returning. It is an unlearning. Unlearning patterns to the extent that one embodies a state of conscious presence without even trying. Mastery is not about trying or attempting, mastery is about moving with the flow of self, of being. It is about not getting in one’s own way, in any sense.

Becoming the soul, becoming the observer.  Becoming the Creator.  Becoming the eyes of the Creator.  Inviting and allowing that.  The Creator is looking and experiencing from the perspective of this piece of consciousness that is me.  As though the ocean is focusing its awareness through a droplet of water that spins off from its body into the air, in a moment of separation, and the ocean is experiencing that sensation. 

Mastery is ‘being’, realising, because we can’t become something we already are. It’s a question of taking off the filter that makes us see the world from a place of limitation, and ourselves from a place of limitation.

I have taken off a filter, I’m not sure how many filters there are, I think I’ve taken a few filters away, not even knowing that I was doing so.  I believe that came out of soul integration coupled with inner child healing and abandonment healing. 

When you are in this state, everything’s so easy. I don’t know yet how well I can attain this state when I’m with other people. Because, right now, I’m experiencing this state almost all the time and I’m on my own. I’ve just moved to live on my own for the first time in my life and don’t know anybody where I now live. Apart from the odd brief conversations with my neighbours and other random strangers, the only person I’m with is myself and that’s what I needed.

I needed a reset. I needed to be with myself so much more than I realised, to find out who I am, to let myself be myself. Those are some of the filters that I’ve taken off. The filters of having to be something other than my natural self because of other people influencing me and me responding to them whilst compromising myself. Sometimes, we need other people to reflect us, to learn from. Sometimes, we need space to breathe.

I will keep myself in conscious presence and then step back into a world of people at some point, but not yet. It’s like entering an experiment. We’ll see. It doesn’t matter what happens. From whatever happens, I move forward, and that’s all we do in any moment. We experience, and from whatever happens in that moment, we move forward. No presupposing, no assumptions, no judgements, no expectations, no thinking ahead or working it out. Just being.

[The image I felt best summed up conscious presence is that of my shamanic drum. It depicts my soul with her wings outstretched and her channel wide open. The black dragon, Mastery, protects her. This dragon exists in the energetic and made itself known to me a couple of years ago.

A few days ago, I asked my soul family to tell me something about the dragon energy of my soul story and this is what they said:

“Your soul is a dragon-walker. She has had a strong and abiding energy link of utter depth with one dragon since that dragon was born. He is Mastery, the black dragon that you are aware of. He remains present in your life and his energies are connecting with you more often. And they will continue to do so, for you are waking up those energies within your being, your soul’s core, that called Mastery into your consciousness. Mastery brings the energies that are reflected in his name.”

And it is from there that I decided to delve into the word mastery. The words at the top of this post also came from my soul family, I feel they are words for us all.]