Posted in healing, Personal Story

The Last Post

A writer fabricates a narrative by linking events together. Every story is coloured and defined, a comedy or tragedy, depending on how the writer interprets events and the connections between them. Without this, there is no story, only a landscape of disparate words. A landscape that is broad, infinite and mysterious, just as our inner landscape is one of divine magic and mystery.

To accept that inner magical landscape, we must abandon the idea of making any sort of connection between one idea and another. We grasp nothing.

Opening ourselves up to the mystical landscape of our soul and its wordlessness, that is the greatest healing.

Words don’t go far enough. There’s magic in words, they are spells, hence ‘spelling’, but for deep healing we have to get beyond words and into the abstract. We need to bypass the intellect which gets caught up with words. What’s called for is a deeper, wordless knowing.

That’s the kind of healing journey I’ve been on, the kind that heals from within, the only holistic healing there is. The kind that teaches you that everything exists inside you, everything. And it’s no longer words, it’s knowing.

When you’re reborn through that kind of healing, you are born to yourself. You are your own mother and you are foetus and newborn babe all at the same time. You are all that you ever were, are now and will ever be. Nothing is the same from that moment on. And there’s really nothing left to say.

So it is, this is my last post. My blog is ending here and now, this website will soon be taken down. Those who need me will find me, the universe will take care of that.

One day, there may be a new website, but right now, nothing more needs to be spoken, nothing is waiting to be said. I have entered that inner, magical landscape and from here, I am learning to paint my truth without words.

Posted in death, end of life, Shamanism

In The Death Zone

“In the death zone, I come alive” – Nirmal Purja, Mountaineer

We don’t live in the face of death everyday, maybe we live a safe life, never looking death in the eye. A tame life like that may feel unrewarding, as though we never really grab life by the balls.

Ordinarily, I’m not a thrill seeker or a risk taker, but I do step outside my comfort zone in numerous ways and this is inevitable as a shamanic practitioner.

To be a shamanic practitioner, especially one who supports the death process, it means making death one’s friend. It’s not the same as making fear one’s friend because fear isn’t trying to be our friend whilst death never wanted to be anything but a friend, it’s us who fight against that friendship.

Death is telling us we’re alive. Death asks, “Who are you, really? What do you want out of life? Where do your passions lie? What do you truly believe in?”

Death isn’t an ending, it’s a doorway. It’s in our lives every day in so many little ways. Every ending, transition, transformation, death is there. Without it, we don’t keep moving on the path of our fulfilment. Death is a transition from one state to another that we would not grow without.

How do you feel about endings? Do you embrace them?

Are you prepared to close doors and walk away from what no longer serves you?

Are you ready to risk losing it all?

[Image: ‘Plaque at St Anthony’s Well, Llansteffan, Carmarthenshire’ photograph by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Ukraine, war

Ukraine – Keep The Faith

My life has been immeasurably busy lately.  There’s been a lot going on in terms of familial commitments involving being away from home for a long period.  Despite this, I’ve tried to prioritise healing for the war in Ukraine.

Because I’ve not been in charge of my environment but in the company of others with different habits to mine, I’ve found myself susceptible to receiving information through the media that I would ordinarily have filtered.

In short, I mean, I don’t usually listen, watch or generally take in the news because of its negative bias, doing so helps keep my energy clear.  It’s one of a number of influences that my being has become too sensitive to receive in any significant quantity.  The same is true for TV, music and film, I have to be much more discerning and aware of the energy that’s being activated from media that I’m immersing myself with these days.

So, I have been amazed at how debilitating and draining hearing news broadcast after broadcast about the situation in Ukraine feels.  When I use my energy body to travel to the region, I experience a different kind of energy altogether.  There are many powerful supportive beings of light filling up the atmosphere above the country, pouring down healing, unconditional love, strength, serenity, peace and many supportive energies.  There’s a bubble of love over Ukraine. None of that is visible on the news broadcasts.

I see the souls who are transitioning through death and support some of them.  I see they are fulfilling their soul’s pre-agreed plan.  I know that each, individual transition through death is creating a tremendous burst of energy that increases the power of truth upon the Earth.  Even in death, every being is contributing to the ultimate solution for humanity, through love and peace.  But, of course, on the news, we hear only of another meaningless death and it feels gutting.

The news can’t but help tell the story as it unfolds, and much of that story is very sad and tragic.  However, immersing ourselves in that sad, tragic energy for too long, too deeply, isn’t a good idea when we’re trying to send those souls healing, hope, faith and peace.  I’m not saying don’t watch the news, but please consider how much time you give to that kind of energy, especially if you are involved in sending your healing light and love to the region.  Just make sure you don’t bring yourself down. 

You need to keep yourself strong.  You need to keep your light burning more than ever.  Your love and your power is making all the difference.  We can’t see the difference for a child who receives that loving energy and feels more able to hold it together as they cross the border away from their home, or the soldier who miraculously misses being killed or losing a limb, or the man who is pulled from the wreckage alive after many hours.  We can’t see the difference between hundreds of deaths compared to thousands of deaths.  We can’t see the difference between fortitude and a crushed spirit, between a victim mentality and a survivor attitude.  But it’s there, it’s happening, believe it.  We don’t know how bad it could have been already without all the love and light that’s pouring in.  Don’t give up hope.  The people of Ukraine haven’t.  And I won’t.  Let’s do this together, people. 

[Image: ‘Angel of Love and Healing at Portmeirion, Wales’ photographed by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Abundance and lack, death

What’s On Your Tomb?

The ancient Egyptians honoured death and if they could afford to, they created the most amazing and beautiful tombs to house their bodies after they died. On the walls of the tomb, they depicted everything they wished to manifest in the afterlife, so that they could continue living their best life. Thus, we see hunting scenes, great feasts, family members gathered together in fondness, all the riches of life, the activities, objects and experiences they loved best. Sometimes, they depict themselves with the deities, as if they are saying, “Here’s one of me in the afterlife with my bestie, the great Goddess Isis!”

This was a form of transmutation to them, by magically depicting the world they wished to live in and filling it full of all they desired, they intended to draw the energy of that reality to them when they left their earthly existence.

The truth is, the spirit doesn’t need earthly things in the next realm, but it can manifest them if it so chooses. My grandfather never smoked during the years I knew him, so I was puzzled why he always brings the smell of tobacco when he visits me in spirit. One day, I asked my mother, she told me he had been a heavy smoker until he was diagnosed with cancer when I was a baby. He survived for nearly twenty years after that, as a non-smoker, during the years I remember him. Nevertheless, he seems to have chosen to revive that particular pleasure again, once arriving on the other side where smoking can do no harm.

The tomb I imagine for myself would depict the lush green richness of nature; woodlands, seashore, rivers and valleys. I will paint an underwater seascape of coral reefs and kelp forests with shoals of rainbow fish and a diving cormorant. A landscape filled with birds and wildlife belonging to the British isles; fox, stag, hawk, raven and bee. The ceiling shall depict a night sky with a mass of stars coalescing into the Milky Way.

All those I love shall be painted with me, whether physical or spiritual beings. I shall paint a temple of serenity for us to sit together in stillness and peace whilst we emanate loving vibrations for all that need them.

On the lower walls, the underworld shall be represented along with drumming, dancing, music, singing and chanting around a fire. I will honour and depict the Elemental Kingdom and the Crystalline Consciousness, call in divine magic and make sure my shamanic drum and painting kit are present for me to access from the other side. And there shall be as many cats as I have known in life, in their colours and patterns, each one illustrated with their earthly name.

If you could create, or have created, paintings and carvings to conjure up the world your spirit will live in after you die, what would you represent on the walls of your tomb?

[Image: Ancient Egyptian tomb wall painting from thegreatcoursesdaily.com]

Posted in death, dragons, Inspiration, Personal Story, Soul Mastery

Amenet Drago & Mastery the Black Dragon

I first received my soul name in the summer of 2018. I was waking from sleep and heard “Amenet” spoken, strong and loud. I knew instantly that it was the name of my soul. When I received my sacred soul initiation a few months later, the name came through again. I did some research into Amenet, since I hadn’t come across this name before that I could remember.

The first information I found was about Amunet, the ancient Egyptian Goddess, female counterpart and twin flame of Amun. She is the original primal divine Goddess whose name means ‘she who is hidden’. This title refers to her being hidden in plain sight. She is everywhere, present in everything, and yet, only the initiated can see her presence because she is hidden within.

The ancient Egyptians didn’t use vowels when writing, so her name is spelled in numerous forms; Amunet, Amenet, Amaunet…

In the Akan culture, the same deities are known as Amenet and Amen. Akan is primarily present in Ghana and Ivory Coast, with an ancestry clearly rooted in ancient Egypt. Amenet is the supreme Great Mother and with Amen, they are the embodiment of Divine Union.

I am not suggesting that my soul is that of a goddess, except from the understanding that I believe we are all divine beings, so I do like to think of myself as such, but not exclusively so.

I recall several ancient Egyptian past lives, it feels like ancient Egyptian culture is the time my soul has loved the best and I remember clearly when my Earthly personality was called Meritamen, which means ‘blessed of the hidden one’.

During 2019, I made a vision quest and after that, a black dragon started to make itself known to me. I began to feel his presence during meditations. I felt a kind of awakened memory of extreme affection and deep knowing with this powerful being, so I tuned in and received his name, Mastery. After that, it was as though he was often around in the background.

Fast forward to late 2020 and I was painting my newly acquired shamanic drum. I knew intuitively that my dragon friend, Mastery, was going on the drum’s image and as it turned out, so was my soul, Amenet, in her Egyptian form. As I tuned into the energies, four words came forward to be painted along the rim of the drum; Soul, Dragon, Mastery and Amenet.

I knew these words were intimately bound to my soul calling, and somehow, they arranged themselves into Soul Mastery and Amenet Dragon, but when I painted the last word, I intuitively stopped before I painted the last letter. Soul Mastery became the name of my soul mission and I realised that Amenet Drago was the true name of my soul, although I sense that Drago is more a title than a name. They are now an intricate part of my identity.

Later, I asked my soul group, the collective from which my soul extends, to tell me about the relationship between my soul and Mastery the black dragon. They told me of a distant time on Earth when people and dragons walked together. A time we know as Lemuria. It was not like nowadays, humans were not restricted to the physical realms, they had a great many more abilities than are awake in humanity currently. A dragon and a person could create a partnership that was deep and abiding. They would achieve many marvellous things together and my soul was such, a Drago or dragon walker.

Eventually, as humanity faced a corruption of their energies, the dragons retreated to the inner planes, but the deep bonds remained. I believe there are many people alive today on Earth whose souls are calling in their beloved dragons again. The dragons are here in the energetic to be with our souls and help us fulfil our soul purpose. My dragon is working with my soul as we support souls who are transitioning through the process we call death.

On New Year’s Eve night as 2021 ended, I received guidance from my soul group explaining how Mastery and I are here to support the Truth Maker souls who are choosing to transition at this time from their Earthly existence to the inner planes. As they transition, they are creating powerful energies of truth which are grounded for humanity’s ascension. This work often takes place during my sleep and when I’m engaged to journey as a soul guide.

I humbly ask that I, as my personality, Ananda, will always be the conduit of love and peace that my soul, Amenet Drago, and my dragon, Mastery, require to fulfil their truth and purpose.

[Image: ‘Dragon Cloud’ – Photo of a storm cloud in the form of a black dragon over cacti, taken by Michael Shainblum, Tucson, Arizona]

Posted in death, love, Soul Mastery, transformation

Journey Beyond the Veil

Have you ever been present at the moment someone died?

In my experience, the energy often begins to change before the moment of the soul passing on. It begins from the moment the personality and soul align their acceptance of the transition.

In sudden death situations, everything may seem to be happening quite fast from the outside, but to the person dying, it all really does slow right down and every moment is experienced in full presence, so the moment that inevitability is grasped by the personality, they are aligned with the soul who already knew the event was about to happen, because the event couldn’t have happened without the soul calling it in.

It’s not one’s life that flashes across ones eyes at such a moment but a profound in-the-moment knowing of truth. A peace and stillness, even in the face of chaos and great trauma. The consciousness is already detached, even before the body can be declared dead.

By the bedside of a dying loved one, you can sense a profound change in the atmosphere of the room from the moment your loved one comes to a place of peace with their imminent passing. Some time before they finally take their last breath, loved ones in spirit and one or more angels may well be present in the room. Perhaps their soul family will be there, sometimes, even an archangel.

If you are still and allow your breathing to slow, you might sense these presences and if you do, it will feel so peaceful and loving in that room. For us, the trick is to let go of the fear of death and loss so we can be fully present with the consciousness and soul of the person who is transitioning.

And when that last breath is taken, the one who is passing will already be above you. They may be greeting a beloved who is waiting for them on the other side, already wrapped in their arms. They are experiencing the most incredible moment imaginable, a moment of transition and their attention is turned away from their earthly existence as they contemplate a new understanding, that they are a light being and they have come home to their truth.

Already, all their ills have left them, they are free from all health-related restrictions, free from pain, suffering and danger. They are embraced in love and peace. It’s such a powerful moment, like a nuclear bomb of love, peace and truth has just exploded in that place. If you are still and if you can atune to your inner peace, you will feel it.

When your loved one has breathed their last, they are, in that moment, grounding all that beautiful energy into the Earth for you and everyone else. Their love for you is magnified by the realisation of their transition, for they experience a huge surge of energy in that moment that elevates their entire being to a much higher vibration. Which means their wisdom, understanding, love and compassion is profoundly increased.

Don’t panic at such a time, don’t start over-thinking about what it all means, just be there with them. It’s such an honour and a privilege. Wouldn’t you want that, when your time comes? Someone to be with you who can calmly hold the space for you? Your love and presence is all it takes to support them on their journey beyond the veil.

[Image: ‘Together As The Light Expanded’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in darkness and light, death, The Truth of our Being, transformation

Seeing The Light: Death As Birth

Imagine you’re sent away from everyone you love and who love you, everyone who understands you. Imagine you go to a place where existence is difficult, not least because you have a bad case of amnesia and can’t remember who you are or where you’re from.

Perhaps, you don’t feel like you belong, as though somewhere, deep down, you know you’re not home. Despite this, it’s not all hard work, there’s a lot to learn here, you’re becoming more aware of your truth and enjoying the delights that life has to offer.

Then, one day, through a situation that makes you think it’s the end of the road, that your life is over, suddenly there’s a great light. Life has brought you your death because your soul called it. It’s time to go and Life has finished with being your teacher. You didn’t want to die but the light feels so peaceful, so calm and so full of love. You’ve never felt anything as wonderful as this before.

But wait, wasn’t this what home felt like? All of a sudden, you know that your true home and true soul family and everything you’ve always been missing is right there on the other side of the light.

You only wish to enter the light and go home, nothing has felt more blissful, more beautiful, more right, for as long as you remember. You know there are loved ones that you’ll be leaving behind, if you go, but you instinctively know it’s their home too and one day they’ll be with you again. And you know that, from where you’re going, you can visit them whenever you wish.

As you step forward to enter the light, you experience the greatest surge of the most profound bliss and love and peace. It cannot be understood except by being there. You are simply aware of your oneness with all, your love of all, your divine unity.

Your true form, as a being of light is revealed to you. For a moment, you sense yourself suspended, floating between the indescribable beauty of planet Earth and the divine light before you. In that moment, the surge of love and truth that opened you up and revealed your divinity, is grounded and anchored into the planet, like a shaft of lightning. Mother Earth is present and she gifts the energy of that moment to all the beings living on Earth. This is your gift to your loved ones on Earth, for in this moment, you love every being in equal measure. In the next instant, a connecting cord is untethered from Earth and you are free to gently drift into the light.

As you enter the light, familiar figures come forward with beaming faces to greet you with such heartfelt love. And you know, at last, you are home. It’s as though you have been reborn and you’ve finally woken up from a strange dream.

[Image: ‘Seeing The Light’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in darkness and light, nature, Shamanism

Hummingbird Shaman

This is a picture-led post and this stunning image caught my eye. It’s a hummingbird-shaped naturally occurring ice feature discovered in a Michigan yard, photographed by Tammy Shrive, via LOCAL 12 WKRC-TV.

Then, in the usual synchronicity that the universe provides, I caught a fascinating TV programme all about hummingbirds.

There was a time when, in my shamanic practice, I called the directions using the Four Winds system. In this South American system introduced to me by Alberto Villoldo, serpent is in the south, jaguar in the west, eagle or condor in the east and hummingbird in the north.

In shamanic terms, hummingbird is connected to our awakening, our vision and the epic journey of our soul. Hummingbird brings courage and resilience and is the symbol for those whose lives are specifically focused on the journey of their soul, and I count myself as one.

Hummingbirds are migratory, spending winter in the South American rainforest, the Sonoran desert and the Andes mountains and travelling as far as the Canadian border for summer. They travel up to 23 miles a day, their heart beating 1,260 times a minute and their wings beating 15 – 80 times a second.

Across the species, they range from 5.5cm up to 13cm in length, and that includes their long beak and tail.

Living on the edge, hummingbirds exist at the very precipice that is the energetic trade-off between how much nectar they need to fuel their flight and how much flight is required to find the food. They literally dance between death and life every day.

They live at high altitudes where oxygen is thin, reaching their limit at around 43,000 feet. To achieve this, hummingbirds maximise the oxygen molecules in their bodies, which makes them uniquely equipped to live in the mountains.

Because of this, hummingbirds don’t have enough energy to sleep, they have to go beyond sleep and enter a deeper state called torpor every night, which is dangerous, another way they dance with death. Torpor means their heart rate drops from 1000 beats per minute to 70. Their nearness to death and association with a deep state of consciousness could be seen to label them as ‘little shamans’.

Hummers can fly forwards, backwards and hover in place because their wings are different to all other birds. Instead of rotating from the shoulder joint, they have a short arm and rotate on the wrist joint, giving their wings a much greater range of movement.

Their long tongue-filled beaks are not only for probing flowers but for serious aerial warfare, in the battle for flower access. They are combatant, in competition for the best feeding grounds and frequently fight to the death to protect their favoured flowering plants.

All in all, hummingbirds are pretty incredible, their fortitude and beauty are the least of the tools, skills and abilities that these ‘little shamans’ embody.

Posted in Ascension, death

Soul Purpose Revealed

I have wondered why my spiritual support team haven’t shared with me what is my soul purpose, what is my unique gift for myself, humanity and the Earth. How many of us are still wondering, “What am I here for? What’s my destiny, my purpose and direction?”

I asked myself those questions over several years.

When I felt into it, it wasn’t time to know. Maybe I wasn’t ready yet or it would get in the way of something that needs to happen first.

On new year’s eve night, I opened up my channel, invited communication and my soul group came through.

Unprompted, my soul purpose was explained, that many souls are choosing to transition from Earth to the spiritual realms on the other side.

And my soul has chosen to be here to support their transition. I was asked to step up and prioritise my role as an end of life soul guide.

I would never have imagined this was my soul purpose, had you asked me only a few years back. It was thanks to my soul integration in 2018 that I embodied all the skills and tools being held by my soul to enable me to do this work. Since then, I’ve been honing those skills and now I’m ready to fulfil my soul’s purpose.

The souls who are choosing to cross to the inner planes are not doing so consciously, it’s their soul, not personality or mind that’s bringing on the conditions that enable their death. These souls are Truth Makers and their transition is enabling an opening to truth for us all.

I honour every soul. I honour every death, for we often only see this profound transition from the limited perspective of loss and yet, it is so much more. It’s a birth as well. It’s returning to our natural state as an energy being. It’s returning home.

(Image: ‘Freefall’ art by Amenet Drago)

Posted in Ascension, darkness and light, Inspiration, Mother Earth, transformation

Emergence: two

Hopi Indian Chief White Eagle has recently shared a message about the current world situation. In the light of my recent post ‘Emergence: one’ I felt this was quite relevant, providing further understanding of the coming times:

“This moment that humanity is living through can be considered a door or a hole. The decision to fall into the hole or go through the door is yours.

If you consume information 24 hours a day, with negative energy, constantly nervous, with pessimism, you will fall into this hole.

But if you take the opportunity to look at yourself, to rethink life and death, to take care of yourself and others, you will go through the door.

Take care of your home, take care of your body. Connect with your spiritual home. When you take care of yourself, you take care of others at the same time.

Do not underestimate the spiritual dimension of this crisis. Adopt the perspective of an eagle that sees everything from above with a broader vision.

There is a social demand in this crisis, but also a spiritual demand. The two go hand in hand. Without the social dimension, we fall into fanaticism. Without the spiritual dimension, we fall into pessimism and futility.

You are prepared to go through this crisis.
Grab your toolbox and use all the tools at your disposal. Learn to resist by the example of the Indian and African peoples: we have been and continue to be exterminated. But we never stopped singing, dancing, lighting fires and having joy.

Don’t feel guilty for feeling lucky in these difficult times. Being sad and without energy doesn’t help at all. Resilience is resilience through joy!

You have the right to be strong and positive. You have to maintain a beautiful, cheerful and bright posture.

This has nothing to do with alienation (the ignorance of the world). It is a strategy of resistance.

When we walk in the door, we have a new view of the world because we have faced our fears and difficulties.

This is what you can do now:

  • Serenity in the storm,
  • Keep calm, meditate daily,
  • Make a habit of encountering the sacred every day.

Demonstrate resilience through art, joy, trust and love.”

(Image: “View of Sunrise, as seen from Stonehenge at Summer Solstice” by Andy Reid)