Posted in inner child

Loving Our Inner Children

Adults of any age, twenty, forty, even ninety, can act like children sometimes.

And I don’t mean in a fun and carefree way, I mean when we’re upset.

We go back to that childhood feeling of vulnerability when we had much less resources to call on in dealing with emotional upsets.

We act like children when one of our inner children is activated.

Maybe we’re petulant, maybe we don’t listen, we shout or scream, we get tongue-tied and can’t express ourselves. Maybe we lash out, blame others, cover up and say things we’re going to regret.

We’re far from our clear thinking adult self at those times and that’s because we’re feeling hurt and back in that feeling from our childhood.

We don’t have one inner child, we have one for each wound or trauma experienced.

Most of us will have many wounded inner children, each carrying a belief such as “I’m not worthy; I’m not lovable; people can’t be trusted.”

Every time something happens to trigger one of those beliefs, the little child who suffered the original wound and created that belief comes to the surface.

Then, when we’re hurt and emotional, it’s easy to find ourselves acting like a hurt child again at such a time.

And if someone in your life is acting that way from time to time, that’s probably why.

Give them a break and give yourself a break, we all do it, unless we heal those inner children and relieve them of the burdens they are desperately trying to address.

To heal, we go within, find our inner child.

Listen to our child, really hear our child.

Acknowledge, validate, love and embrace that child,

Then, we heal and integrate our inner child into our heart space, finally letting go of what was never our burden to carry. And that’s such a beautiful thing to do.

[Image: ‘Surma Tribe Mother With Baby’ photograph by Francisco Mendoza Ruiz courtesy of Fine Art America]

Posted in Ascension, Energy healing

Singing Yourself Back Home

Although a certain amount of clarity can be perceived through the fog of life, there is always yet more awareness and understanding to come, when what was lost is found. What is lost is your truth, freedom and power, that which was stolen from you.

And now it is time to call those energies back. Keep calling the energies that belong to you home. Keep demanding that they are released by those who took them. It is time. It is time to call yourself home, to finally be complete and healed.

You have been waiting and this is now possible. When you have re-integrated all your missing energies that were lost and stolen, then, the full extent of your soul purpose will be seen, like a sun that emerges from behind a dark cloud.

And it will be magnificent. It will truly be blessed. You will herald it as a marvel. And there will be so much love and support available to you from every side. Then, you will become the fulfilment that is your soul’s destiny.

Right now, your greatest need is to sing yourself back home.

(Here is a LINK to a free resource from Jen Peters that guides you through calling your dissociated energy back home)

[Image: ‘Mother Wound (close up)’ painting by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Inspiration, Mother Earth

Conscious Eating

I just went outside and sat at the table on my patio to eat a delicious plate of freshly sliced mango and banana. I sat down and admired the distant sea view, remembering the first time I saw that view, on Valentines Day last year when I came to see the house as a prospective buyer. And that thought took me to another and another thought, and choo! choo! I was racing away on the thought train.

I looked down, I had nearly finished the plate of fruit and not a single sentiment of gratitude or recognition of the pleasure of eating this fine fruit had passed my lips.

I put my fork down, sat back and took a deep breath. Before I ate another morsel, I now chose to consciously connect with the experience of eating.

First, I spoke my gratitude out loud to Mother Earth and her soul, Goddess Gaia. To the Creator, the Elemental Kingdom, all the trees and plants. To the elements of fire, earth, air and water. To the animals, birds, insects, reptiles and sea creatures. I took a bite of mango, it was delicious, sweet and juicy. Mmmmm. I savoured each mouthful and thought of the nourishment this fruit was bringing to my being.

As I finished, I took a deep breath and felt that breath as nourishment also. It was air, yes, but I could detect the moisture in it, I was also taking in the element of water. And I was taking in the light with each breath, the element of fire.

This is how I wish to eat, consciously. Gratefully.

[Image: ‘Peachy’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Inspiration

Surge

Have you ever noticed the surge? The surge is like a tidal wave. It’s a powerful and sudden swell of energy that pushes what needs to happen forward. It could be anything. It could be healing. It could be love. It could be creativity.

All of a sudden, the lull is over and you are really moving, gathering speed. 

Be prepared, be awake.  Your senses must be alert at all times, even when you are dallying with the mundane.  The surge can arrive at any moment and then you will riding on the crest of a wave. 

[Image: ‘Waiting for the wave, Llangrannog, Ceredigion, Wales’ photograph by Amenet Drago]

Posted in prayer, Ukraine, war

Let The Highest Good Be Done

“What hurts you blesses you

Darkness is your candle

Boundaries are your quest.”

⁃ Rumi

I used to ask for protection from negative energies but now I ask for the protection that my soul and soul group are choosing for me, to allow the adversities that it’s in my interests to receive to happen.

I used to ask for every bad situation that brings me down to be removed but I don’t do that anymore.

I let things take their course and allow adversity to be another opportunity to sit with the energies that my soul has called into my life.

I’ve lived long enough to know that beautiful things are born through adversity.

Things that wouldn’t get a chance to blossom if we didn’t go through the destructive fires of transformation first.

Before you can rebuild, you have to tear the old world down.

And that’s why it’s not our task to stop the war in Ukraine, unless doing so is for the highest good.

I don’t pray for peace expecting wars to go away anymore.

I pray for peace knowing peace will find its way to where it can be accepted.

I don’t know the value of the adverse conditions of this war or for what reasons they manifested.

I ask, instead, for the highest good to be supported and for all those involved to be strengthened and receive all they need on their soul journey.

That leaves room for the best outcome to be whatever it needs to be.

[Image: ‘This War Zone Is Now Bombarded With Love’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Ukraine, war

Ukraine – Keep The Faith

My life has been immeasurably busy lately.  There’s been a lot going on in terms of familial commitments involving being away from home for a long period.  Despite this, I’ve tried to prioritise healing for the war in Ukraine.

Because I’ve not been in charge of my environment but in the company of others with different habits to mine, I’ve found myself susceptible to receiving information through the media that I would ordinarily have filtered.

In short, I mean, I don’t usually listen, watch or generally take in the news because of its negative bias, doing so helps keep my energy clear.  It’s one of a number of influences that my being has become too sensitive to receive in any significant quantity.  The same is true for TV, music and film, I have to be much more discerning and aware of the energy that’s being activated from media that I’m immersing myself with these days.

So, I have been amazed at how debilitating and draining hearing news broadcast after broadcast about the situation in Ukraine feels.  When I use my energy body to travel to the region, I experience a different kind of energy altogether.  There are many powerful supportive beings of light filling up the atmosphere above the country, pouring down healing, unconditional love, strength, serenity, peace and many supportive energies.  There’s a bubble of love over Ukraine. None of that is visible on the news broadcasts.

I see the souls who are transitioning through death and support some of them.  I see they are fulfilling their soul’s pre-agreed plan.  I know that each, individual transition through death is creating a tremendous burst of energy that increases the power of truth upon the Earth.  Even in death, every being is contributing to the ultimate solution for humanity, through love and peace.  But, of course, on the news, we hear only of another meaningless death and it feels gutting.

The news can’t but help tell the story as it unfolds, and much of that story is very sad and tragic.  However, immersing ourselves in that sad, tragic energy for too long, too deeply, isn’t a good idea when we’re trying to send those souls healing, hope, faith and peace.  I’m not saying don’t watch the news, but please consider how much time you give to that kind of energy, especially if you are involved in sending your healing light and love to the region.  Just make sure you don’t bring yourself down. 

You need to keep yourself strong.  You need to keep your light burning more than ever.  Your love and your power is making all the difference.  We can’t see the difference for a child who receives that loving energy and feels more able to hold it together as they cross the border away from their home, or the soldier who miraculously misses being killed or losing a limb, or the man who is pulled from the wreckage alive after many hours.  We can’t see the difference between hundreds of deaths compared to thousands of deaths.  We can’t see the difference between fortitude and a crushed spirit, between a victim mentality and a survivor attitude.  But it’s there, it’s happening, believe it.  We don’t know how bad it could have been already without all the love and light that’s pouring in.  Don’t give up hope.  The people of Ukraine haven’t.  And I won’t.  Let’s do this together, people. 

[Image: ‘Angel of Love and Healing at Portmeirion, Wales’ photographed by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Personal Story

Messages In Time

Lately, there’s been a lot of inner planes work going on at night whilst my body sleeps.

I’m in a period of very intense dream journeying, ‘travelling’ to different dimensions throughout the inner planes, being supported by the elders and masters who teach and support us from the other side.

I believe this is common for many of us, maybe all of us. I sometimes meet other souls who are visiting in their dreams and maybe you’re one of them.

Are you aware of your dreams? If so, do you sometimes wake up from a dream feeling that you’ve learnt or been told something profoundly important? Maybe you remember a character from the dream that seemed more than just a dream construct, like they were a guide or a teacher for you. Maybe you simply wake up feeling like you’ve been busy, hard at work all night long, studying or helping others.

When I have a night like this, I wake up and it’s as though I come up for air, and then go back down again.

When I come up, lying on my side, the clock is usually in my line of sight.

The other night, first time I saw 3:33 (a regular one), then 4:44, then 6:06 and then 7:17.

I knew these numbers were messages. Sometimes, they’re just numbers but this night, I knew they were purposeful.

The first number told me that there’s an ascended master with me.

The second number revealed that a host of angels are encouraging me and bathing me in a blanket of peace.

The next number let me know that the angels heard my prayer and what I asked for is being manifested.

And the final number is most encouraging of all.

It says I’m on the right path, in the right place, doing the right things.

It let me know that my spiritual support team are celebrating, they are reaffirming my path and reminding me to put doubt aside.

What kind of messages do you receive from the invisible realms?

[Image: ‘You Are Seen And It’s A Celebration’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in darkness and light, Energy healing, Ukraine, war

Compassion At The Heart Of Our Connection

Of late, you may have noticed I’ve cut my posts down to two a week. However, I’m feeling drawn to make additional posts at the moment, in order to share developments and insights coming through during my energy healing for the crisis in Ukraine.

I continue to be blown away by an awareness of many beings who are energetically present over Ukraine, they are sending so much healing and protective energy to the people and the land. There are many beings there from the inner planes and many who are living on Earth, visiting in their meditations, people like you and me. Perhaps you are amongst them.

As I’ve said before, in addition to sending energies to Ukraine, I also focus on sending healing energies to the Russian President. I am immersing him in the violet flame ray of transformation and bathing him in the soft pink light of unconditional love. Then, I’m placing drops of golden liquid light into his crown chakra to bring in the energy of divinity. Finally, I’m placing a rainbow crystal into his energy field. This crystal looks like a regular quartz crystal except it’s blue in colour and it directs rainbow light that carries codes and templates specific to his needs into his being.

As I was doing this tonight, I sensed that the two energies most in need of dissolving within his being are anger and a deep, almost hidden feeling of unworthiness.

So, it is the energies of inner peace to quell the anger alongside divinity and unconditional love bringing him to worthiness that he needs to receive the most.

This will help counteract the patterns and triggers he expresses as aggression and a sense of entitlement, which are displayed in his actions.

I know it may feel like going against the grain to make him the focus of healing but I feel this is a critical part of the overall solution.

If we energetically match his anger by directing our anger towards him, we are only increasing anger. If we feel hatred for him and direct that, we are fuelling his arrogant and haughty behaviours and attitude.

It’s only natural to feel anger and dislike for someone who behaves like him, but what are we trying to achieve here and how do we become the bigger person?

If he, or anyone else, provokes those feelings in us, we do have the power to choose differently by invoking our higher self rather than our egoic nature.

By all means, feel angry, express that anger. Feel hatred, frustration, fury, despair and deep, deep sadness at what’s going on. Let it flow, let it out, don’t block whatever emotions want to emerge, and don’t feel bad for having them. But don’t stay there. Move on, and when you do, when you embody compassion and love, then you are ready to direct your healing energies where they are needed.

We are living at a time when humanity has the opportunity and power to come together in oneness, with compassion and unconditional love at the heart of our connection. It is this possibility that we are here to actualise.

[Image: ‘Light And Dark Clouds At Sunset, Seen From My House’ photograph by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Personal Story

Holding Me in Arms of Love

It’s only recently that I’ve begun to understand the extent of the trauma created during my childhood years. At the age of sixty, it’s taken me a long time to get there because part of me has diminished what happened.

I suppose I never completely accepted it was that bad. Many people have a hard life, much worse than me, so I thought I should pull myself together and get on with it, and this attitude simply invalidated my childhood experiences.

Suddenly, I seem to have reached a place where it’s safe for it all to be revealed and I can finally hold it for myself without breaking down. There have been times over the years when I did break down, not realising what was underlying the emotional pain.

I’ve never shirked from facing, head on, what I call my personal development.  But I’ve been scratching the surface all this time.  For any of you out there who are facing a total mess coming up from inside, or even seemingly being brought about by life and circumstances around you, which is the same thing because of the law of attraction, you may know what I mean. 

It can feel like going backwards, like “what the…?!” It can feel like being broken, wondering what’s going on and what’s wrong with us. Well, there’s nothing wrong with us, we’re not special (except we are, we all are, but we’re not especially special for being messed up). We are finally finding ourselves in a place where we can begin to comprehend just how hurt we became. And not because anyone meant to hurt us, but because they were hurt themselves. And hurt people hurt others.

So much of the trauma has been stuck inside for such a long time and had nowhere to go, we haven’t got time for it, we need to get on with daily life. Therefore, a lot of that emotional wounding has no option but to manifest as physical conditions.

I am aware just how much our physical ailments are manifestations of the emotional wounds we carry. Emotional wounds need to be treated at the subconscious level because that’s where they exist. We grope about, trying to find physical solutions to our physical symptoms, the symptoms come and go like moods and what we thought was helping, suddenly isn’t anymore. Because the underlying original source is still untreated.

I’m more together now than I could have imagined. I’ve got a long way on my own merit. I’ve changed my life and brought a considerable degree of stability. And yet, that’s also allowed deeper layers to come to the surface and brought me to the awareness of just how damaged my childhood self really was.

So, I’ve decided to call in an expert in the field and get some help to clear it at this point. It pays to have somebody who can be objective and get a broader view of what’s there.

I’m really excited, I’m going to be working one on one with Jen Peters, and she’s one of the most amazing experts in the field of inner child healing. Someone who has the skills and tools, who can really validate and hold space. Someone who totally gets it because not only has she been there herself, she’s heard the same stories from others, over and over again. And she knows exactly what’s needed and how to deliver it.

I’m not alone and it makes a world of difference. Right now, it almost feels like I’m a child again and I’m being held safely in truly loving arms.

[Image: ‘Sun Breaking Through The Clouds, Isle of Wight’ photograph taken by my soul sister, Emma Bartlett]       

Posted in Energy healing, transformation, Ukraine, war

World Healing For Ukraine

A lot of us are wondering what’s going on with the Earth’s energies that has brought about Russia’s attack on Ukraine and where’s it going to end?

When it all kicked off, I immediately had a vision of all the people who are supporting Ukraine standing in a circle around them as protectors, sending love and peace energies into the arena. I used that as my visualisation to send those energies, especially calling on St Germaine and the 7th Ray ascended masters and the Archangels and Angels. When asked, St Germaine and the 7th Ray masters bring in the powerful violet flame that purifies and transforms energies.

I wondered if the rest of the world countries would get their acts together and go there in the physical to join the circle of protection and support, after all, if everyone else stood up for Ukraine, Russia wouldn’t stand a chance. Then, I realised there was a reason why nobody would go there, Putin has had this planned a long time and he’s made sure everyone’s hands are tied somehow. Then, I found out about the pinky promise.

I would like to share something that a friend shared with me, it’s a helpful way to support children to understand and feel safer, because even at a distance, hearing about war can be quite frightening for our little ones:

“After the BIG playground fight (WW2), lots of popular kids (World leaders) got together and made a big gang (NATO), and all the kids in the gang made a pinky promise (Treaty) to be nice and respectful and not fight each other anymore.

This means not going into each other’s part of the playground (Country) without permission, and not throwing sticks or stones (heavy artillery) at each other, and the UK is part of the gang.

But then a new kid (Ukraine) joined the playground and a big bad bully (Russia) started picking on the new kid, all because he is greedy and bossy and wanted the new kids’ playground space for himself, even though he has one of the biggest spaces in the playground.

But sadly, the new kid is not part of the gang because the big bad bully didn’t want the new kid to join the gang.

We would be breaking our pinky promise if any of the gang members help the new kid fight the bully.

We have all told the bully off and stuck up for the new kid by hiding the bully’s pocket money until the bully stops hurting the new kid (sanctions) and this will hopefully stop the bully from buying more sticks and stones.

We have also given the new kid lots of our own sticks and stones to fight the bully, because this is not breaking the pinky promise!

Even though it’s really, really sad, all we can do now is stand on the edge of the playground and watch and give moral support to the new kid, because we are not allowed to fight the bully for them, not without breaking the pinky promise.

BUT… if the bully breaks the pinky promise and comes into our part of the playground (UK) without permission and throws a stick or stone at us, then the whole gang (NATO) will come to help us and we will ALL jump on top of the bully and beat him up.”

Every time I go over to the region in my meditations, I visit both Ukraine (for the Ukrainian people and the Russian soldiers) and Vladimir Putin and his advisors in Russia. I invoke the violet flame of transformation and purification, also adding in golden drops of liquid light which bring in the energy of divinity, soft pink unconditional love energy and place rainbow light codes into their energy fields. I’m aiming to do this twice a day.

Already, I’m picking up a change in the energy for the better. There’s so much positivity and love and compassion coming at Ukraine that the fear and hate and aggression coming from its aggressors is being gradually diminished, as long as we focus on love and peace, not fear or anger.

Please, if you are one who is sending your energies, please remember that your anger, hurt, hate, frustration or any other negative energy is not needed, it will only escalate the situation. 

Please send only peace, love, serenity and compassion, EVEN to the bullies!  They need to be transformed the most.

Please don’t forget that the Russian people are not a part of this, most don’t want war and are horrified that their sons, fathers, brothers and husbands are being sent out there to fight.  Please send love to the Russian soldiers, they are following orders which, like all soldiers, are strongly fixed in their energy, but we live in extraordinary times, the power of our ability to manifest peace is incredible right now, send them love and peace and they will start to lose faith in their mission.

Putin IS losing power and energy.  He is doubting his plans and his monkey mind is feeding his fears of failure before the eyes of the world.  Meanwhile, Ukraine is being empowered and is acting with dignity and a pure heart in the face of death. 

We can all do this from a distance.  We have the power, YOU have the power!  Keep it up, keep believing, keep sending peace and love.

Thank you, every one of you, who is contributing to this world healing.   

[‘Angel Aurora’ This photo was taken by Babak Tafreshi and posted by Natgeotravel. It’s an amazing natural formation in the aurora, appearing like a dancing angel, seen at a Sami village in Lapland, Sweden on a cold night in March 2012]