Posted in darkness and light, death, The Truth of our Being, transformation

Seeing The Light: Death As Birth

Imagine you’re sent away from everyone you love and who love you, everyone who understands you. Imagine you go to a place where existence is difficult, not least because you have a bad case of amnesia and can’t remember who you are or where you’re from.

Perhaps, you don’t feel like you belong, as though somewhere, deep down, you know you’re not home. Despite this, it’s not all hard work, there’s a lot to learn here, you’re becoming more aware of your truth and enjoying the delights that life has to offer.

Then, one day, through a situation that makes you think it’s the end of the road, that your life is over, suddenly there’s a great light. Life has brought you your death because your soul called it. It’s time to go and Life has finished with being your teacher. You didn’t want to die but the light feels so peaceful, so calm and so full of love. You’ve never felt anything as wonderful as this before.

But wait, wasn’t this what home felt like? All of a sudden, you know that your true home and true soul family and everything you’ve always been missing is right there on the other side of the light.

You only wish to enter the light and go home, nothing has felt more blissful, more beautiful, more right, for as long as you remember. You know there are loved ones that you’ll be leaving behind, if you go, but you instinctively know it’s their home too and one day they’ll be with you again. And you know that, from where you’re going, you can visit them whenever you wish.

As you step forward to enter the light, you experience the greatest surge of the most profound bliss and love and peace. It cannot be understood except by being there. You are simply aware of your oneness with all, your love of all, your divine unity.

Your true form, as a being of light is revealed to you. For a moment, you sense yourself suspended, floating between the indescribable beauty of planet Earth and the divine light before you. In that moment, the surge of love and truth that opened you up and revealed your divinity, is grounded and anchored into the planet, like a shaft of lightning. Mother Earth is present and she gifts the energy of that moment to all the beings living on Earth. This is your gift to your loved ones on Earth, for in this moment, you love every being in equal measure. In the next instant, a connecting cord is untethered from Earth and you are free to gently drift into the light.

As you enter the light, familiar figures come forward with beaming faces to greet you with such heartfelt love. And you know, at last, you are home. It’s as though you have been reborn and you’ve finally woken up from a strange dream.

[Image: ‘Seeing The Light’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Ascension, death

Soul Purpose Revealed

I have wondered why my spiritual support team haven’t shared with me what is my soul purpose, what is my unique gift for myself, humanity and the Earth. How many of us are still wondering, “What am I here for? What’s my destiny, my purpose and direction?”

I asked myself those questions over several years.

When I felt into it, it wasn’t time to know. Maybe I wasn’t ready yet or it would get in the way of something that needs to happen first.

On new year’s eve night, I opened up my channel, invited communication and my soul group came through.

Unprompted, my soul purpose was explained, that many souls are choosing to transition from Earth to the spiritual realms on the other side.

And my soul has chosen to be here to support their transition. I was asked to step up and prioritise my role as an end of life soul guide.

I would never have imagined this was my soul purpose, had you asked me only a few years back. It was thanks to my soul integration in 2018 that I embodied all the skills and tools being held by my soul to enable me to do this work. Since then, I’ve been honing those skills and now I’m ready to fulfil my soul’s purpose.

The souls who are choosing to cross to the inner planes are not doing so consciously, it’s their soul, not personality or mind that’s bringing on the conditions that enable their death. These souls are Truth Makers and their transition is enabling an opening to truth for us all.

I honour every soul. I honour every death, for we often only see this profound transition from the limited perspective of loss and yet, it is so much more. It’s a birth as well. It’s returning to our natural state as an energy being. It’s returning home.

(Image: ‘Freefall’ art by Amenet Drago)

Posted in Abundance and lack, Ascension, darkness and light, Inspiration, love, Mother Earth

Love and Peace and the Happiest Man in the World

How was Christmas? One of the best things about Christmas is permission to have fun, to play, laugh and let our hair down. Did you get to do that this year?

Christmas isn’t always about having fun, sometimes it’s about grief and sadness. For some, it’s a continuation of the abuse or homelessness that is there every day.

I once heard a story about a man who everyone called “the happiest man alive.” He lived in abject poverty, no home, no job, no money, and yet, he was always full of joy. He walked the streets, everyone knew him in the neighbourhood, and he made it his business to look for something helpful to do every day. He was often found picking up litter and putting it in the rubbish bin, after all, his lifestyle meant he had an intimate relationship with the contents of bins.

In the park, people who looked sad would soon find a big smile from him. Many went to him with their problems, which is strange because he didn’t specialise in problems, he only beamed out love.

He had no family or friends, although everyone knew his name and many stopped to talk. Once in a while, someone would offer him an old woolly sweater or a hot meal which he accepted graciously. His name was Carl.

As for you and me, and Carl’s neighbours, we don’t know how to live the secret that Carl instinctively embodied.

All our feelings, thoughts, words and actions are not responses to what goes on around us but to what is going on inside.

If we feel sad, then something inside us is resonating with sadness, maybe it’s the grief of losing a loved one. Sometimes, the person we’ve lost and are grieving the lack of is ourselves.

When we are resonating love and peace inside, then we’re like Carl. It doesn’t matter what or who we lost, it doesn’t matter how unfair life seems, it doesn’t matter what others do or say, we continue to experience joy, happiness, blessings and peace because it’s always there inside.

The secret to life is to understand this truth and come to live it. We are here, right now, worrying about the Earth and the state of the world. We are embodying and expressing sadness, fear, worry, lack, not being enough, not having the answer, hopelessness, frustration, anger. The list goes on. How can we embody love and peace when we engage with everything going on outside and around us with these other emotions?

Now, imagine if everyone in the world put their energy into finding and expressing inner peace and love. Do you realise that would remove all the perceived problems in the world because everyone would be thinking and acting from peace and love? That’s the reason we are here.

Wake up, beautiful soul, stop putting yourself through so much pain, this is simple. All you need do is see it and choose it. You have the answer, we all do.

(Image: “Ignite Love and Peace, They Are Waiting Inside” by Amenet Drago

Posted in healing, I AM Presence, spiritual skills and techniques

How to Stop Worries, Anxieties and Depression

When I stop the world, I get into the stream of divine consciousness that the Welsh call Awen.  This word is not one that translates directly, but to me it means divine inspiration.  It’s like being an open channel most or all of the time. It’s a wonderful time to be creative and creative hands are healing hands. From the ancient wisdom of the elders, I learned that our hands are energetically linked to our heart and when we are moving and using our hands, we are healing our heart.  

To stop the world, I lean back into silence and solitude.  To begin with, my ego fights back, gets all antsy about being isolated and lonely.  But then, I stop engaging on that level and stop the world.  I sink into the peace.

Feeling lonely is only an emotion, an attitude, a state of mind, a choice, a judgement.  Like many other emotions, it’s not real. 

Stopping the world is a wonderful superpower to have.  You stop time.  You do this whenever you meditate or engage in any activity that brings your consciousness to a deeper level, like painting does for me.  And it’s maybe dancing, reading a book, listening to music or something else for you, those times when you drift off into a no-time zone. Because when we’re immersed in one thing in the now moment, we are stopping the world.

Stopping the world is another way to describe what I call conscious presence, when we’re totally aware and focused on the now.  That’s how you stop time.  Take your attention to what you see, hear, feel, smell, taste or touch right NOW.  Remain in the now moment with your perceptions and you stop time.  Focus completely on an object before you or study the back of your hand in minute detail, every crease, every hair, every freckle, every pore. There is no past or future when you do this. Therefore, there are no anxieties, because they are worries about what’s going to happen, and there’s no depression, because that’s ruminations about what has been.  In the now, everything is fine.    

When I stop time, then I find myself naturally existing within that stream of consciousness that feeds my soul.  Circumstances have led me to be out of contact with others, alone in my world most of the time, long enough to let go and let the power of that creative flow pour into my being, flood my mind, engage with emotions and coalesce as ideas and realisations.  Gosh, it’s so much better when my ego gives up and stops complaining.  All of a sudden, there are no problems, no obstacles, they just melt away.  Loneliness becomes peace, isolation becomes stillness, loss becomes bliss.

Posted in healing, inner child, love

Nothing To Do: A Secret To Living a Fuller Life

I’ve just hit a pause.  And, oh, that pause is rich, it is deep and it is giving.  Being active, busy, having a full life and stuff to do is great but we need times when there is nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing to see.  A pause when we are free to just be.  There can be so much richness going on inside, where it matters, when we have nothing to do! 

And I am so lucky.  I don’t exist in relation to anybody else.  I exist only in relation to myself.  Many would consider that a failing, a loss even.  I can see that and sometimes feel it, but it’s also a wonderful gift.  It means I find silence, stillness and space whenever I need it. 

I don’t have a day job (which doesn’t mean I’m not working or busy).  I don’t live with anybody or have anyone dependent upon me.  Some might think me privileged (I would agree) or self-centred (yes I am, but in the most positive manner, putting one’s self first is critical in learning self-love and self-love is my personal healing journey right now.  It’s only a healed self that can really give freely to others.)

My pause moment is bringing forth such treasures, the kind of learning, intuitions, understanding that doesn’t find the space to grow and form when we’re living a full life.  I’m learning what needs to be acknowledged, what needs to be integrated.  I’m moving forwards in my fulfilment.  I’m receiving clarity and have the chance to make adjustments for my growth. 

Specifically, I’m looking deeply into what has not healed from past losses and rejections, yet again, at a deeper level than before.  Why it is that I desperately feel a need to be loved?  I’m asking what has to heal to find that love from within myself.  I know my soul is calling for a solitary path at this time in my life and I’ve ditched, rejected or removed some key people who surrounded me because their presence in my life was stopping me from loving me. 

At the end of the day, we will continuously search for the love we never received in childhood from outside ourselves.  We will keep looking for that love, entering numerous relationships to do so.  However much we are loved in those relationships, it always comes up short and the original loss will not be assuaged.  That can only be accomplished within ourselves through the love we give ourselves. 

We may try to fill that hole in all sorts of ways, with love, food, alcohol, drugs, sex, work.  None of it will truly help, it will pull us further and further to a crisis point where we have no other recourse than to turn to ourselves.  We will have no other options than to heal from inside out.  And finally, we face ourselves.  We go deep and embrace our inner child.  We love our inner child with all our heart and all our truth and all our might. And we acknowledge, heal and integrate the wound that has never left us. We are ready to truly face it and claim it.           

Posted in death, transformation

A Beautiful Death

I feel called to return to the subject of death.  And I almost feel like apologising because I know it’s not anybody’s favourite subject.  But we really, really need to be talking about it.  We really need to understand it better and reframe it for ourselves and each other.  And I believe it’s through a spiritual filter that death is best understood.

And that’s not easy, for many, ‘spiritual’ means there’s no evidence, no logic and no validation.

Well, validation is personal, so maybe you have your own spiritual validation to call on, I know I do.  Logic is subjective and what is logical to one is illogical to another.  And evidence presents itself through experience, and when they’re outside the realm of all we are taught to believe, we question our experiences.  But, in the end, that’s tantamount to questioning our own truth, and I’m not doing that anymore.

So, death.  I so wish we were taught about this holistically from the cradle.  Because all that we learn on this subject from an early age in our culture and society is messed up. 

One problem is, we don’t know what death is.  We don’t know what happens to us, it’s like there’s a big black hole of nothing at the end of what we call our life.  And, of course, that’s frightening.  That’s frightening for us and frightening to not know what happens to our loved ones when their time comes.  And then, we all have some experiences of loss, of grieving, of being left when someone we love is gone.  And how hard is that road.

We cannot find the answers in the material world for death.  Materially, there’s an animated body with a personality and consciousness that’s living its life alongside us one minute, and then next, there’s a lifeless body with no glint in the eyes, no movement in the limbs, no breath in the lungs and no beat in the chest.  We only need take one look and we know that person isn’t going to be interacting with us anymore.  In fact, we take a look and we see they are simply not present anymore.  They are gone.  Which just goes to show it wasn’t ever about the body, it wasn’t ever about the material.

Something I say from time to time, we think of ourselves as physical beings but only our body is physical.  We are also our personality, emotions, thoughts, consciousness, ego, soul, memories, none of that is physical.  Strange then, when most of what we are made up of is energy that we don’t think of ourselves as energy beings first and foremost. 

And death is all about energy. 

I’m not here to convince you that there’s life after death.  That, even when the body is an empty shell, our personality, emotions, thoughts, consciousness, ego, soul, and memories continue to exist and express as energy but without being visible because they are no longer contained in the body.

I will tell you this, I’ve had some funny experiences in life, seeing things, hearing things, knowing things, even smelling things.  And not so that I needed to go see a mind doctor.  Maybe you’ve had some experiences like that too, maybe you haven’t.  Maybe you just heard about so many experiences others had, many, many others.  Maybe you read up about all the different cultural beliefs and ideas about life after death, maybe you decided there’s got to be something in it. 

Well, I’ll tell you one thing, whatever happens when our loved ones walk through that door called death, it’s going to hurt us hugely to lose them, they are not going to be there anymore in the same way, no matter how you look at it, and that’s always going to be hard.  But grief is human, it’s natural.  It’s going to hurt a lot and it’s going to take time to get used to them being gone.  And even if you’re a psychic medium, someone who gets to talk to spirits who have crossed over all the time, you are still going to experience a heart-wrenching bereavement when your nearest and dearest pass through that door.  And there’s nothing much we can do about that except understand and support each other.

And, of course, each death is different, there are circumstances that can make that process harder and easier.  We need a death doula in every town.  A person, maybe a shaman, who can support the process for the soul and for the family.  And I guess that’s what I do, that’s what a psychopomp is.  A death doula.  It’s such a feeling of honour to be this, to be present with a family and a dying soul at such a profoundly intimate time.  There is nothing like it. 

It’s usually so peaceful, like being in the most incredibly holy sanctuary, church or temple to be with the soul at the time of transition.  Loved ones in spirit are present, sometimes, angels and even Archangel Azrael is present.  It’s a beautiful moment and it’s as if the person who is passing finds such deep peace at the last.  I think, sometimes, they need to find that peace in order to finally let go. 

I have come across frantic souls who passed quickly and tragically without knowing it, whose souls are scared and don’t know where they are or where to go, they didn’t have time for their soul to prepare them.  It’s been such a blessing to be there for them and enable them to understand and adjust.  Then, that deep peace descends and they calm down as they see the light, yes, there is a light, that’s where the deep peace is coming from.  It’s a door opening, or perhaps, more accurately, a crack between the worlds.  To stand at that crack and feel that love and peace, be bathed in that light, let’s just say I am never going to be fearful to be there for myself when the time comes.        

Posted in darkness and light, death, Inspiration, love

Why Death is Our Dear Friend

Why do we need to visit death in order to understand life?

Why do we need to experience lack in order to understand abundance?

Why do we need to be abandoned in order to find the love inside ourselves?

Because…

How can we understand the light without knowing darkness?

How can we appreciate sound without comprehending silence?

How can we come to know our blessings unless we have suffered some misfortune?

So it is that misfortune is our wise teacher.

Silence is our welcome guest.

Darkness is our loving guide.

Abandonment is our great gift.

Lack is our secret treasure.

Death is our dear friend.

Posted in death, love, oneness, transformation

Death is Love Teaching Us That We are One

We have such negative ideas about death in our culture.

And, of course, we don’t have to.

The truth is, humanity carries such a deep separation wound.

Separation from the divine,

From the Creator,

From each other,

From ourselves.

And so we fear death.

Because we only see separation

Where it does not exist.

And that can manifest as abandonment

Because we are here to learn and grow.

So, death comes into our lives to teach us.

Abandonment comes forward to teach us.

Rejection comes forward to teach us.

To teach us that we are love,

That we carry all we seek within ourselves.

We are always whole,

We are always divine,

We are always love.

We are never alone,

We are never separate from anything or anyone.

We are never abandoned,

We never were.

Death is here to show us

That we are so much more than our bodies

And we cannot lose anything or anyone

And if we look inside

We will see that there is nothing that is not us.

[Painting called ‘Homo Luminous: The Ascended Human’ by Ananda-Amenet Reid]

Posted in death, Personal Story, transformation

Life After Death

I know there is life after death. How? Well, for one, because that concept just feels so right that when I try it on, it fits like the most comfiest garment ever. Then, I have a huge catalogue of personal experiences that show me this is so. And I don’t question it anymore.

For me, death is no longer the polar opposite of life because life is a continuum that moves through and out the other end of the gateway we call death. And I suppose this view has a lot to do with being fully integrated with my soul. You see, once you are integrated with your soul, you are no longer looking at everything from the perspective of being only your current personality and body. I am Ananda who is the body and personality that my soul is expressing through, in this particular incarnation, but I am also so much more.

I am my soul and my soul is infinite and eternal. I believe that all souls were created at the same time and have incarnated many, many times, and not always on the Earth. Our souls are a projection of the divine source.

I am all of that. So far, I have regained part memory of a handful of other lifetimes, and it’s probably impossible to remember many more, it would be overwhelming and a distraction from being Ananda.

And I also sense that, as my soul, I have spent a great deal of time on the inner planes or spirit world, more so than living on Earth in a body. And I have a strong sense that I vastly prefer not being in a body, but existing in my light body in the non physical planes, so I’m really looking forward to getting back there again some day, and to do that, I need to die.

Actually, I spend a fair amount of time over there when I’m asleep, using my energy body, and maybe you do too.

If we didn’t forget about all that when we are born on Earth, we would spend the entire time yearning to get back home, because being in the light on the inner planes is our true home.

The moment we start to see ourselves beyond our limiting bodies and personalities, we change our relationship with death.

I met a person recently who told me she didn’t want to leave her current personality when she dies because that’s her identity. She is hoping to unite with a past love who already passed through the door of death and be together as the personalities she knows. Based on my understanding of the spirit world, we do remain in the same personality as a spirit, even after our soul has moved into another incarnation. Every being we ever existed as continues on in existence on the other side. Whether the consciousness that I am now remains within them, I don’t know. I do know that the same rules don’t apply on the other side.

On the other side, you can be in many places, interacting independently, at the same time. You can manifest the reality of your choosing instantly, limited only by your imagination. You can move freely and instantly to anywhere, just by intent. You exist as energy and are not subject to physical conditions.

And you return to your soul group, your family from where your soul belongs and the love and connection you experience there is simply beyond description.

When a person dies, their experience of the inner planes varies, depending upon how much they remember it and there’s often a period of reconnecting with that state. This need not be so for those that travel there often in their energy body, through sleep, meditation or shamanic or trance states, whilst they were alive, they arrive with everything up and running, so to speak.

When someone dies, it comforts me to know they are going home. They are moving into such freedom and peace and love and total healing. They are going to revisit their recent life and realise the truth of who they are in a truly beautiful and affirming manner. They are going to be so enraptured by the light, they would fight to stay there rather than return to Earth. And they will still see, hear and walk amongst all their loved ones left on Earth, if they choose.

Of course, left behind here, I will miss them and I will grieve their loss. But I always have a lot of compensation for that through all I know of their new conditions.

And I know how to reconnect with them in the energetic, even though it’s not the same as being in the physical together. We can still talk and I will feel them around me.

The soul finds it far easier to pass through the gateway of death than of birth. Being born on Earth is much harder than dying. And considering living here can be so difficult, so challenging, so painful in so many ways, despite providing the opportunities we require for growth, it sometimes amazes me that we want to stay here so much or that we fear death at all.

That said, I also remind myself of the incredible beauty and the rich gifts that are received in living as the well-loved and blessed children of Mother Earth, not to mention the tremendous growth and wisdom that comes from experiencing this earthly life. And there’s nowhere else quite like it in the universe of the Creator.

Posted in darkness and light, death, Online workshops

Death is Our Teacher

Death is a subject close to my heart.  Being a psychopomp, a fancy Greek word meaning one who guides souls, death is ever present as a part of my role.  A psychopomp travels energetically using shamanic skills to connect with those who are in the process of departing through the transition we call death.  I help people and animals to pass over and also guide souls who are stuck, such as we might call hauntings, supporting them to move towards the light, enabling them to cross into the realms of spirit. 

I have found that the role of the psychopomp is all about those who are left behind, those sitting on the sidelines whilst a loved one is going through the process we call death.  Many times, I am present to support them, to help them let go, to be reassured, to move through their grief. 

Everyone is touched by death, sooner or later, we all lose someone we love.  And it’s hard.  It’s even harder that we belong to a culture that is not comfortable talking about death.  We are all concerned, not only with the grief of loss, but our own ageing and eventual demise.  How do we understand it, how to we prepare for it?  How do we talk to our children about it?  The truth is, so many don’t really know how or what to say and there are such discrepancies about what happens next. 

Personally, I feel very sure about what happens next, having had a lot of evidence from a young age to support my understanding, but this is the kind of evidence that cannot easily be shared. 

Recently, I’ve been working on a project with my niece, Psychic Medium and Rune Witch, Chloe Elgar.  She is someone who is very much in touch with death and embraces it along with life.  We have been exploring some of the energies death brings us.  That inspired me to consider running an online workshop on the subject of death because I really see there’s a need for us all to explore this together.  But then I thought, who will come to that?  And I let the idea fall away.  Then, a conversation led me to reconsider.  I was talking to a mother who was watching her twelve year old son struggling with the idea of death, and just as this was unfolding for him, his beloved one year old cat was hit and killed by a car outside his house.  He was devastated.  He is really getting an initiation into death from the energies on his path, it seems.  As we talked, I realised we do need to have workshops on death.  We do need to know how to help children manage the emotions and the ideas it brings, and not just children, we are just as much in need as adults. 

And from there, my next online workshop project was born.  Expect a few posts on this subject as I plan and develop the content of this new and, I feel, vital energy workshop.  As always, I will be calling in light beings from the inner planes, channelling their wisdom and supporting a deep state of awareness for participants to receive deep transformation in the understanding and embracing of the wisdom death offers us.