Posted in artistic, oneness, Poetry

“Please Call Me By My True Names”

Do not say that I’ll depart tomorrow
because even today, I still arrive.

Look deeply: I arrive in every second 
to be a bud on a spring branch, 
to be a tiny bird, with wings still fragile, 
learning to sing in my new nest, 
to be a caterpillar in the heart of a flower, 
to be a jewel hiding itself in a stone.

I still arrive, in order to laugh and to cry, 
in order to fear and to hope. 
The rhythm of my heart is the birth and 
death of all that are alive.

I am the mayfly metamorphosing on the surface of the river,
and I am the bird which, when spring comes, arrives in time 
to eat the mayfly.

I am the frog swimming happily in the clear pond, 
and I am also the grass-snake who, approaching in silence, 
feeds itself on the frog.

I am the child in Uganda, all skin and bones, 
my legs as thin as bamboo sticks, 
and I am the arms merchant, selling deadly weapons to 

I am the twelve-year-old girl, refugee on a small boat,
who throws herself into the ocean after being raped by a sea
and I am the pirate, my heart not yet capable of seeing and

I am a member of the politburo, with plenty of power in my
and I am the man who has to pay his “debt of blood” to my
dying slowly in a forced labor camp.

My joy is like spring, so warm it makes flowers bloom in all
walks of life.
My pain is like a river of tears, so full it fills the four oceans.

Please call me by my true names, 
so I can hear all my cries and laughs at once, 
so I can see that my joy and pain are one.

Please call me by my true names, 
so I can wake up, 
and so the door of my heart can be left open, 
the door of compassion.

– by Thich Nhat Hanh

Image: “Look Deeply, I Am My Joy and Pain” by Ananda Amenet Reid

Posted in healing, I AM Presence, spiritual skills and techniques

How to Stop Worries, Anxieties and Depression

When I stop the world, I get into the stream of divine consciousness that the Welsh call Awen.  This word is not one that translates directly, but to me it means divine inspiration.  It’s like being an open channel most or all of the time. It’s a wonderful time to be creative and creative hands are healing hands. From the ancient wisdom of the elders, I learned that our hands are energetically linked to our heart and when we are moving and using our hands, we are healing our heart.  

To stop the world, I lean back into silence and solitude.  To begin with, my ego fights back, gets all antsy about being isolated and lonely.  But then, I stop engaging on that level and stop the world.  I sink into the peace.

Feeling lonely is only an emotion, an attitude, a state of mind, a choice, a judgement.  Like many other emotions, it’s not real. 

Stopping the world is a wonderful superpower to have.  You stop time.  You do this whenever you meditate or engage in any activity that brings your consciousness to a deeper level, like painting does for me.  And it’s maybe dancing, reading a book, listening to music or something else for you, those times when you drift off into a no-time zone. Because when we’re immersed in one thing in the now moment, we are stopping the world.

Stopping the world is another way to describe what I call conscious presence, when we’re totally aware and focused on the now.  That’s how you stop time.  Take your attention to what you see, hear, feel, smell, taste or touch right NOW.  Remain in the now moment with your perceptions and you stop time.  Focus completely on an object before you or study the back of your hand in minute detail, every crease, every hair, every freckle, every pore. There is no past or future when you do this. Therefore, there are no anxieties, because they are worries about what’s going to happen, and there’s no depression, because that’s ruminations about what has been.  In the now, everything is fine.    

When I stop time, then I find myself naturally existing within that stream of consciousness that feeds my soul.  Circumstances have led me to be out of contact with others, alone in my world most of the time, long enough to let go and let the power of that creative flow pour into my being, flood my mind, engage with emotions and coalesce as ideas and realisations.  Gosh, it’s so much better when my ego gives up and stops complaining.  All of a sudden, there are no problems, no obstacles, they just melt away.  Loneliness becomes peace, isolation becomes stillness, loss becomes bliss.

Posted in Abundance and lack, darkness and light, The Truth of our Being

This Is What Trust Is

What are you looking for?

Are you looking to be liked?

Are you looking to be healthy?

To lose weight?

To be healed from all your issues and pains?

To be relieved of all your worries?

To find your true love?

To find your true purpose in life?

To make a success of yourself?

Maybe you’d quite like to find all of the above.

What about the crazy idea of not looking for any of them. 

Stop, look inside yourself. 

Everything that you need, you have.

Everything that you have was a gift from the Universe.

To serve you.

Even if it looks like an inconvenience, or not good enough, or a curse.

Be who you are, and be that totally, honourably, wholly.

And the Universe will rearrange itself so that everything works out beautifully.

Posted in I AM Presence, Inspiration, Poetry, the Creator

I Am Consciously Present

I am waking up
How would the Creator wake up?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am taking a shower
How would the Creator take a shower?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am eating my breakfast
How would the Creator eat breakfast?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am sitting in silence
How would the Creator sit in silence?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am chatting with friends
How would the Creator chat with friends?
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am walking in nature
As the Creator, I walk in nature
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am living this moment
In conscious presence
Immersed in awareness and realisation.

I am
Immersed in awareness and realisation

I am

I am

I am

Posted in channelled message, I AM Presence, Personal Story, Soul Integration, The Truth of our Being

Being in Conscious Presence

“Let not your heart regret a single moment that you have lived, nor need you tarry in the past any longer.  It is the present moment that holds your fulfilment.

Be at peace, for you are upon the path that your soul is choosing.”

I am waking up those energies within my being, my soul’s core, that have called mastery into my consciousness. Mastery has been present with me for some time. I painted a dragon called Mastery on my shamanic drum recently and when I wrote the words ‘Mastery Soul’ on the side, realised I had received the name of my new service, only the other way around, Soul Mastery.

Mastery brings energies that are reflected in the name, this is a word for me to explore on every level, to sit with, feel into. What does the word mastery bring deep into my being? What does it ignite?

Empowerment.  A huge amount of assuredness, confidence and skill.  A great deal of abilities.  But I think that from a spiritual point of view, mastery is about mastering one’s conscious presence.  Conscious presence is a term that’s coming up for me a lot.

This state of being is a natural remembering and returning. It is an unlearning. Unlearning patterns to the extent that one embodies a state of conscious presence without even trying. Mastery is not about trying or attempting, mastery is about moving with the flow of self, of being. It is about not getting in one’s own way, in any sense.

Becoming the soul, becoming the observer.  Becoming the Creator.  Becoming the eyes of the Creator.  Inviting and allowing that.  The Creator is looking and experiencing from the perspective of this piece of consciousness that is me.  As though the ocean is focusing its awareness through a droplet of water that spins off from its body into the air, in a moment of separation, and the ocean is experiencing that sensation. 

Mastery is ‘being’, realising, because we can’t become something we already are. It’s a question of taking off the filter that makes us see the world from a place of limitation, and ourselves from a place of limitation.

I have taken off a filter, I’m not sure how many filters there are, I think I’ve taken a few filters away, not even knowing that I was doing so.  I believe that came out of soul integration coupled with inner child healing and abandonment healing. 

When you are in this state, everything’s so easy. I don’t know yet how well I can attain this state when I’m with other people. Because, right now, I’m experiencing this state almost all the time and I’m on my own. I’ve just moved to live on my own for the first time in my life and don’t know anybody where I now live. Apart from the odd brief conversations with my neighbours and other random strangers, the only person I’m with is myself and that’s what I needed.

I needed a reset. I needed to be with myself so much more than I realised, to find out who I am, to let myself be myself. Those are some of the filters that I’ve taken off. The filters of having to be something other than my natural self because of other people influencing me and me responding to them whilst compromising myself. Sometimes, we need other people to reflect us, to learn from. Sometimes, we need space to breathe.

I will keep myself in conscious presence and then step back into a world of people at some point, but not yet. It’s like entering an experiment. We’ll see. It doesn’t matter what happens. From whatever happens, I move forward, and that’s all we do in any moment. We experience, and from whatever happens in that moment, we move forward. No presupposing, no assumptions, no judgements, no expectations, no thinking ahead or working it out. Just being.

[The image I felt best summed up conscious presence is that of my shamanic drum. It depicts my soul with her wings outstretched and her channel wide open. The black dragon, Mastery, protects her. This dragon exists in the energetic and made itself known to me a couple of years ago.

A few days ago, I asked my soul family to tell me something about the dragon energy of my soul story and this is what they said:

“Your soul is a dragon-walker. She has had a strong and abiding energy link of utter depth with one dragon since that dragon was born. He is Mastery, the black dragon that you are aware of. He remains present in your life and his energies are connecting with you more often. And they will continue to do so, for you are waking up those energies within your being, your soul’s core, that called Mastery into your consciousness. Mastery brings the energies that are reflected in his name.”

And it is from there that I decided to delve into the word mastery. The words at the top of this post also came from my soul family, I feel they are words for us all.]


Posted in inner child, Inspiration, Soul Integration, The Truth of our Being

The Jewels We Hide

How do I know who I am?  Who my authentic self is?  I know from the things that come out of me when I let go of myself, or move my personality/ego aside.  When I’m alone with nobody around to trigger my insecurities, when I am not thinking about who I am, not even thinking about being me. 

We tend to think about being ourselves a lot more than we realise, especially when amongst company.  Complete strangers in the store or café, amongst friends, in relationships, we are running everything through the ‘me’ filter automatically, working out what is meant by the words, actions and behaviour of those around us, especially when their attention is directed our way. 

But when we’re alone, there’s no need to worry about all that, no need to feel self-conscious, perform or automatically behave from inner child wounds.  We can drift into a state of natural awareness where we don’t come from self-consciousness but from consciousness. 

That’s when my paintings pour out of me, when words pour out and when I sing with my naked voice.  That’s where I am when I’m channelling, healing and shamanic journeying. They are the times when I’m bringing the truth that’s inside me out.  And that’s me in my super-power, with my mojo working.  That’s my authentic self.  That’s when my soul speaks. 

How do you know who you are, who is your authentic self?  What comes out from inside you when you are alone, when you let go of yourself, move aside from yourself?  When your triggers are not active?  Maybe you run, get your running shoes on and create a deep relationship with the open road.  Maybe you bake, allowing food to be your palette, your alchemy, as you wizard up delicious creations in the kitchen.  Maybe you dance or express through musical instruments and allow music to unleash the vibrations of the spheres within your soul.  Whatever it is, it feels like meditation.

Baking is not just baking.  Playing the guitar is not just playing the guitar. It’s not what we do, it’s the places and spaces we travel through when we enter into a connection with that energy.  When we are authentic with it. 

Never belittle or diminish the value of your truth. Whatever pours out of you when you are being rather than doing, that is gold-dust right there, that’s diamonds.  Let your jewels shine.  

Soul Integration deepens our authentic relationship with ourselves, and the workshop that will make that happen is starting soon on June 12th. Spaces still available.

Soul Integration is for you if you are:-

Dreaming of finding your soul’s purpose, your life path;
Wishing to activate your twin flame;
Breaking through wounds from the past;
Looking to find your tribe;
Searching for your authentic self;
Connecting to the truth of your being.

Check it out here now:

[Above is one of my more recent paintings, or actually, a close up of a part of it. I hope you like it and perhaps you can sense the voice of my soul speaking through it]

Posted in Inspiration, spiritual skills and techniques

What Can’t You Stop?

This Friday’s Transformational Question is somewhat challenging, assuming we choose to take the challenge.  If not, the seed has still been sown if there’s something our soul wishes us to learn here.

Have a look at this list.  What can’t you stop doing?

Drinking coffee


Wearing make-up

Eating junk food

Checking your phone

Using social media

Writing posts

Taking selfies

Drinking alcohol

You get the picture, maybe you can think of your own compulsions, we all have them and they all have something to teach us about ourselves.  There’s nothing wrong with doing any of these things, the issue here is who is in control? When it feels like something we can’t do without, that’s not freedom. 

What if we were to pick just one activity that we feel resistant towards giving up and choose to stop doing it for 30 days. For me, it’s got to be coffee, I’m definitely shackled to coffee. Give it up? Eeek! Not going to happen?

Then, consider this.  The next time we do it, we do it mindfully, completely aware that we are choosing this.  As we do, we consider how it makes us feel.  What is it doing for us?  What would it be like to not do it anymore?  What is our attitude to this activity teaching us about ourselves? Going deeper, what is underlying? Stay mindful and reflective with just one behaviour for a while and watch your relationship to it start to change, loosen.

If we keep consciously working with the energy, we will change our relationship with our addictions and compulsions, they are patterns of behaviour associated with our inner healing, coming from wounds and traumas in our early years. They are ways we manage our feelings and we no longer need them in our lives when we are opening up to self love. These must-do activities are shackling us, self love is our supreme liberation.