Posted in inner child

Loving Our Inner Children

Adults of any age, twenty, forty, even ninety, can act like children sometimes.

And I don’t mean in a fun and carefree way, I mean when we’re upset.

We go back to that childhood feeling of vulnerability when we had much less resources to call on in dealing with emotional upsets.

We act like children when one of our inner children is activated.

Maybe we’re petulant, maybe we don’t listen, we shout or scream, we get tongue-tied and can’t express ourselves. Maybe we lash out, blame others, cover up and say things we’re going to regret.

We’re far from our clear thinking adult self at those times and that’s because we’re feeling hurt and back in that feeling from our childhood.

We don’t have one inner child, we have one for each wound or trauma experienced.

Most of us will have many wounded inner children, each carrying a belief such as “I’m not worthy; I’m not lovable; people can’t be trusted.”

Every time something happens to trigger one of those beliefs, the little child who suffered the original wound and created that belief comes to the surface.

Then, when we’re hurt and emotional, it’s easy to find ourselves acting like a hurt child again at such a time.

And if someone in your life is acting that way from time to time, that’s probably why.

Give them a break and give yourself a break, we all do it, unless we heal those inner children and relieve them of the burdens they are desperately trying to address.

To heal, we go within, find our inner child.

Listen to our child, really hear our child.

Acknowledge, validate, love and embrace that child,

Then, we heal and integrate our inner child into our heart space, finally letting go of what was never our burden to carry. And that’s such a beautiful thing to do.

[Image: ‘Surma Tribe Mother With Baby’ photograph by Francisco Mendoza Ruiz courtesy of Fine Art America]

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration

Imperfect Is The New Perfect

Get comfortable with what’s not perfect,

Allow what’s imperfect in your life, imperfect in you.

These are precious gifts.

They bring treasures as well as pain.

Pain and suffering are so valuable.

When you experience and allow pain

You create space for the joy you’ve been missing.

Your imperfect is beautiful,

Let imperfect be your perfect.

[Image: ‘The Green Goblin’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in darkness and light, healing, Inspiration

Making Pearls From Grit

“When you create yourself, at some point you’re going to have to either let that creation go and take a chance on being loved or hated for who you really are, or you’re going to have to kill who you really are and fall into your grave grasping onto a character that you never were.

What is the grit that the pearl is built around? The pearl is the personality that you build around yourself as a protection against the thought, “If they ever find out that I’m worthless, if they ever find out that I’m not enough, I’ll be destroyed.”

The avatar you create and the cadence you come up with that’s pleasing to people, it takes them away from their issues and makes you popular, and then at some point you have to peel it away. It’s not who you are.

This is what everybody goes through when they create themselves to be popular or successful. You act a certain way and say a certain thing and lie through your teeth at times, and you do whatever you need to do to look like a winner.

And then at some point in your life you have to say, “I don’t care what it looks like. I found the hole in the psyche and I’m going through and I’m going to face the abyss of not knowing whether that’s going to be okay with everybody or not.”

At some point, they’re going to try to drown you in the middle of that abyss. But no, be the other guy. You told us you were this guy, the character you built, but no one can live with that forever.

People sometimes exist so completely in their character, they maybe don’t know how to get out of it or how to take another road. So, they might take the ultimate road, where they actually have to leave the planet to get out.

All we really yearn for is our own absence. We yearn for what happens at death.

I don’t have to worry about that anymore. I truly feel like if you ask me where I live right now, where the real me is, I would say that there’s a quiet, gentle seat in the universe that seems to contain everything and that’s where I am.

I don’t want anything. I have no ambition. I don’t have to go anywhere. That’s fascinating to me now….. the disappearing.”

– words by Jim Carrey (from the film ‘Jim & Andy: The Great Beyond’)

[Image: ‘Pearl With A Shell Inside’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration

The Gifted

There are two sides to the same coin,

And just the same, we may have two sides

Because of the gift we bear.

When we have a gift,

We contend with what it costs to have that gift.

And it’s hard to say what that cost will be.

The gift could be anything, any talent, ability or skill,

And it often comes from darkness

For, it is our earliest adversities that give birth to our greatest gifts.

The cost of that gift is the darkness that comes with it.

And if the darkness eats us up,

If we’re holding anger within us because of adversities from the past,

Be aware of the anger you hold inside.

Anger is a potent spice,

A pinch wakes us up, too much dulls our senses.

Anger is our fighter self who keeps us moving forward

But also, it paralyses.

Our strength came from darkness,

Our hope is in darkness.

We are light and dark, we are all of it.

As long as we accept it as so,

We will not be consumed.

(Words inspired by ‘The Queen’s Gambit’)

[Image: ‘Sparks In The Dark’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in healing, love, Personal Story

Acts Of Self Love

A few weeks ago, I started to consciously consider what was happening on a daily basis, in terms of loving and nurturing myself.

I was going through a difficult period, away from the peaceful solitude of my beloved sanctuary, my home, in an environment that was challenging every day, where making compromises was necessary in each moment.

A month long task of love and support for someone at the centre of my life was called for, someone whose own life seemed to be falling apart to them.

They were understandably scared and unable to appreciate the value of my presence or kindly intentions because of their health, anxiety and personality. Things were not running smoothly between us and we were both struggling.

I needed to look after myself as I looked after them but was too tired and too busy.

It took effort to structure some acts of self love instead of simply pouring myself into practical tasks for my charge. I made changes that slowed down my day and set me up for it much better. Initially, things changed.

It changed the atmosphere in the house and both our attitudes lightened. We began to be constructive, considering little ways to brighten the day and we related to each other with more harmony.

It didn’t last for more than a day or two because we were in such a difficult and challenging situation. The darkness still had plenty of gifts to bring and is still bringing them, but it brought a reprieve for a while, a refresh that could be repeated.

More importantly, it helped me remember something important, that when someone behaves badly towards us, there might very well be a scared and wounded child hiding inside that person, no matter how old they are.

Such circumstances are best met with gentleness and understanding, if possible, even when the natural impulse is to treat them as the enemy, which is reasonable when we’re under attack. I do know just how hard a thing that can be to do.

Especially when it’s a parent who was supposed to be the one to love us. Sometimes, that’s something that parents never learn how to do and it’s a big lesson for us to be the receiver of such a realisation.

When I look at myself now, I am proud of how I’ve navigated such a journey. I’m learning to be the bigger person.

When someone treats us poorly, we can always choose to be the bigger person by not answering their aggression with our own. And this is as true for nations as it is for personal relationships.

[Image: ‘Brilliance’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Inspiration, love

What To Do When You’re Struggling (And Also When You’re Not)

An important thing you can do whenever you’re struggling is find at least three, preferably five, things to do that day which are loving, nurturing and caring towards yourself.

Be fierce when it comes to loving yourself and you might bypass a whole heap of suffering and self doubt.

The Divine Source is not floating above you but exists at the very heart of your being.

Therefore, love yourself intensely and give yourself immeasurable support, attention and affection.

[Image: ‘New Earth Ascension Blueprint’ (close up) painting by Amenet Drago]

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration, Personal Story

When We Are Free

I’ve just been through another dark night of the soul.

I’ve been through them before, ones that lasted days, weeks, months, even years.

The intensity of my darkest night only lasted 24 hours but the ongoing situation is much longer.

My dark night was intense, powerful, transformational and illuminating.

As I reflect back, I notice how much stronger I’ve become and how quickly I turned it around.

I can see how necessary and useful it was.

It came about because of a situation that many go through.

We reach a certain age when our widowed, aged parent is no longer coping.

Somebody needs to step up.

Maybe we’re the only one who can or will do that.

We do our best to make sure our vulnerable parent is looked after, helped to find their best life, a life where they’re safe, loved, happy and able to live every day with the best quality of life available to them.

We explain all the options and make sure there are choices.

Maybe that parent cannot make the decisions we think are best for them.

Maybe they are choosing what is neither safe nor wise anymore.

Maybe it’s difficult because of dementia, mental health, or simply a stubborn disposition.

Maybe the parent has all those things going on.

Maybe there comes a time when we have to make tough decisions for them, just to keep them safe.

Maybe we place ourselves in the firing line to do it.

Maybe we’re the only one prepared to act according to their best interests and that makes us the villain, at least in the eyes of our parent.

Maybe we spent the last few decades knowing this time would eventually come and always wondered what it would be like, how we’d cope, how our parent would be.

If we’re unlucky, maybe our parent will turn against us.

We may falter. We may take it personally, who wouldn’t?

We may be criticised, blamed, accused, when all we’re trying to do is the best thing that can be done.

And perhaps our childhood selves will come to the fore because this is the parent our inner child remembers.

The one who criticised, blamed and didn’t know how to love us.

And if it happens like this, it’s not a bad thing.

If we go through this dark night, we face truth once more, seeing new light, allowing more feelings to be released.

We are cleansed further.

We are not the same as our childhood selves,

We have gathered many resources along the way.

We have learnt how to be our own parent.

This time, we are different.

We are not looking for anything from our parent now.

We are not needing anything now.

We find it inside.

We are free.

If we are by their side at all, let it not be because we have to be but because we choose to be.

Even when it’s the hardest thing to be there.

Even if we keep getting slapped in the face.

Even when they spit hateful words at us.

Or spread them about us behind our back.

Or when we see our parent is showering our sibling with loving words that we don’t receive, even though they make excuses and don’t show up for them.

We choose to forgive.

Forgive ourselves and forgive our parent.

Because we are free.

And they, bless their soul, are not.

[lmage: Owl heart reflection photograph by aol.co.uk]

Posted in darkness and light, Energy healing, Ukraine, war

Compassion At The Heart Of Our Connection

Of late, you may have noticed I’ve cut my posts down to two a week. However, I’m feeling drawn to make additional posts at the moment, in order to share developments and insights coming through during my energy healing for the crisis in Ukraine.

I continue to be blown away by an awareness of many beings who are energetically present over Ukraine, they are sending so much healing and protective energy to the people and the land. There are many beings there from the inner planes and many who are living on Earth, visiting in their meditations, people like you and me. Perhaps you are amongst them.

As I’ve said before, in addition to sending energies to Ukraine, I also focus on sending healing energies to the Russian President. I am immersing him in the violet flame ray of transformation and bathing him in the soft pink light of unconditional love. Then, I’m placing drops of golden liquid light into his crown chakra to bring in the energy of divinity. Finally, I’m placing a rainbow crystal into his energy field. This crystal looks like a regular quartz crystal except it’s blue in colour and it directs rainbow light that carries codes and templates specific to his needs into his being.

As I was doing this tonight, I sensed that the two energies most in need of dissolving within his being are anger and a deep, almost hidden feeling of unworthiness.

So, it is the energies of inner peace to quell the anger alongside divinity and unconditional love bringing him to worthiness that he needs to receive the most.

This will help counteract the patterns and triggers he expresses as aggression and a sense of entitlement, which are displayed in his actions.

I know it may feel like going against the grain to make him the focus of healing but I feel this is a critical part of the overall solution.

If we energetically match his anger by directing our anger towards him, we are only increasing anger. If we feel hatred for him and direct that, we are fuelling his arrogant and haughty behaviours and attitude.

It’s only natural to feel anger and dislike for someone who behaves like him, but what are we trying to achieve here and how do we become the bigger person?

If he, or anyone else, provokes those feelings in us, we do have the power to choose differently by invoking our higher self rather than our egoic nature.

By all means, feel angry, express that anger. Feel hatred, frustration, fury, despair and deep, deep sadness at what’s going on. Let it flow, let it out, don’t block whatever emotions want to emerge, and don’t feel bad for having them. But don’t stay there. Move on, and when you do, when you embody compassion and love, then you are ready to direct your healing energies where they are needed.

We are living at a time when humanity has the opportunity and power to come together in oneness, with compassion and unconditional love at the heart of our connection. It is this possibility that we are here to actualise.

[Image: ‘Light And Dark Clouds At Sunset, Seen From My House’ photograph by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Abundance and lack, Ascension, Inspiration

Seize Your Power

It is not enough to learn things

You must choose them

And keep on choosing them with all your power

That’s why cultivating your personal power is so important

If your power is weak, then your goals may begin to manifest but they will slip away before you can fully grasp them.

What is your power?

It is a combination of strength, belief in yourself, trust in everything, knowing when to surrender, accepting the flow, opening your heart, making fear your friend, stillness, truth and saying yes to life.

[Image: This is my nephew, Sam, and his lovely wife, Tori, on their wedding day, December 2021]

Posted in Ascension, Energy healing, transformation

Body, Mind and Soul: We Are Changing

There is so much going on these days, energy-wise, do you feel it?

Right now and ongoing, the energies that are pouring into the Earth-sphere that are available to us all, they are radiating many powerful qualities. Some of these energies are activating within us naturally and we don’t even need to be aware. But if we are aware, we can consciously boost and focus those energies to fulfil our own personal intentions.

One of the major areas of vibrational convergence is the blending of physical and non-physical energy, so that what is being received from the inner planes is seeping through, not only spiritually, emotionally and mentally but physically too.

Our bodies are changing, literally realigning as energy and flesh, blood and bone. Our cells and DNA are updating. Everything and everyone is levelling up. The consequence of this means that, as the old energy comes to the surface to be released and make room for the new, we may experience an increase of pains, symptoms, bodily sensations, emotions and mental turmoil. This is a part of the cleansing and releasing process that underlies the rebuilding and recalibrating of our multi-faceted being.

Perhaps you are aware of this. Perhaps there are symptoms and feelings expressing for you that you’re struggling to understand. Perhaps you’re changing your understanding and attitude towards your body, towards the nutrients that you’re choosing to put in your body. Thanks to the recent changes, our bodies need much less food than we’re used to, it’s okay to leave behind the three-meals-a-day habits of a lifetime and follow your body’s impulses.

Perhaps movement is the expression that your body is focusing upon. Maybe you have the desire to dance or walk or run or stretch or simply do more. Or less, maybe your body is needing rest and your impulse or conditions are bringing you to increased stillness, silence, peace and solitude.

What’s changing for you?

Take the opportunity to check in with your body more often. 

To ask your body what it needs.

To notice where the choices you are making are changing your life and your being.

Get involved, make new intentions and send them out, what are you choosing for your new self?

Are you choosing health? That all your existing health conditions recalibrate and heal? Are you choosing energy and vitality? Are you seeing yourself grow more flexible, active and lively every day?

You can change your health and wellbeing if you choose to energise those intentions now.

What are your intentions for your body? 

How would to choose to improve your relationship with your body?

It’s all possible now, due to the energy available to us all.

Easily and simply, we can do this just by utilising our intentions and focus.

Choose. Then surrender, trust, accept and receive the energies that are already within and around you, energies that can manifest your wishes.

[Image: ‘Walking the dog on the beach at sunset, tide out, Burry Port, Carmarthenshire’ photograph by Amenet Drago]