Posted in gender, sexual healing, The Truth of our Being

Exploring Gender

I’m interested in gender and the constructive nature of the genders we embody.

We know that from the moment we are born, we’re conditioned to conform with the gender our body represents.

Before birth, we all began with female physicality and some stay that way whilst others develop a male body.

Does a newborn baby know what gender it is?

Is gender purely physical or is it defined by a number of different factors, such as cognitive, emotional, spiritual and energetic frameworks?

It’s clear that humans usually place the defining factor on the body.

Over time, males and females learn to walk differently, speak differently, act, think and believe from different parameters.

We dress differently, arrange our appearance in different ways and live life in different roles.

Everything around us supports this; culture, family, society, media, religion, politics, education, law, business.

We are living at a time when people are breaking through these parameters but it’s still not easy and neither is it safe for many.

I identify as a woman but feel masculine too. It’s not either-or, I feel I contain both within the totality of my being.

We are all performers in our daily lives but we’re not aware of the fact that we’re performing. There’s the person we are when we’re asking the bank manager for a loan, the person we are when we’re talking to young children, we’re someone else when we’re dancing with our friends. We have all these different behaviours and all of it is a performance.

Who we are depends on what we decide to take upon ourselves and become.

I believe that if we explore gender as a part of our truth, we open up to healing and awaken positive qualities that are suppressed within us when we limit our truth. We can understand ourselves and each other so much better if we embrace ourselves as beings that embody both feminine and masculine energies.

Posted in Inspiration, Poetry

Faith

An everyday interaction takes place

Which, due to it’s coincidental timing and vague reflection of the circumstances,

Is interpreted as a sign of a higher power at work.

This leads to a more positive attitude,

A change in behaviour.

And life improves,

Coincidence or synchronicity?

It brings faith that something better is possible

You are the maker of your destiny

You create what you perceive as the best and worst moments.

You may not perceive this because we’re not usually conscious of it,

But we are learning to stay conscious.

Just know,

Everything is One

(- taken, adapted and inspired from ‘Humans’ by Sam Vincent & Jonathan Brackley)

Posted in Inspiration, love, Poetry

A Moment of Deep Love

That moment

A teenager tells her mother she’s pregnant

How will her mother respond?

There are many possibilities…

I watched.

The mother looked deeply into her daughters’ eyes

Enfolded her in a hug

Nothing was said for a long time as they held each other.

In that moment, I saw how possible it is

To be the kind of person that,

Even when one she loves

Invokes deep fear within her,

She doesn’t think first of her own fears, beliefs, expectations or conditions

But bypasses them to see what her loved one needs.

What a momentous moment.

Posted in art, Personal Story

Art From The Heart

There was a time when I wasn’t very confident about my artistic ability. I was still learning techniques but the main problem was confidence in myself.

I couldn’t even get myself to draw or paint for a while. But then, I went to do an art workshop at Findhorn and it released my creativity. That got me painting but it was still years before I became good at it. Art has been there most of my life and I’ve dipped in and out sporadically. There have been times when I did nothing for years. I’ve taken it for granted and thought of myself as a mediocre artist.

That changed after my niece, Chloe, asked me to paint a deck of oracle cards. Forty-four paintings on the same project, it seemed like such a massive task.

Two and a half years later and I’ve painted twenty-three cards. Those twenty-three paintings have changed my painting ability. I’ve become so much more skilled technically and my confidence has grown.

Sometimes, it seems magical, like I’m not even the one doing the painting, I just dab the brush around here and there, sit back to look, and wonder how those marks are working better than I had envisioned. It’s not always like that but it’s true to say I’m a much more accomplished artist than I was twenty-three paintings back.

The paintings are in different styles, they are all bearing the signature of my hand, but quite a range of techniques. A big range of subjects too, some daunting, but I’ve managed to take on some challenging tasks.

“Paint me a woodland full of animals”

“I’ll do my best…”

“Paint me a crowd of people surrounding a breaching whale”

“Okay!”

The more difficult the subject, the more my confidence grew, so that I don’t know there’s anything I wouldn’t tackle, which is just as well, because card twenty-four is a face one way, but when you turn it upside down, you get a whole other scene.

However, the twenty-second card became a bit of a game changer. A new style, a personal story, a triumph. To me, it blew everything else out of the water.

Now, I want to paint more and more in this one style, and it’s working with the theme of the womb, healing work that I’ve been doing with Jen Peters, part of the birthing process that I’ve been experiencing.

But I have a commitment to finish the oracle project as well, so now I’m painting the rest of the cards and starting new paintings, big ones on canvas, and they’re for sale.

I no longer take my art for granted and I’m no longer a mediocre artist. Now, I have to paint. Painting is my breathing.

The funny thing is, I’ve been asking, “What is my gift to the world?” and painting was there all along and I ignored it. I wasn’t ready to see it before. I am now. Painting is my language and I have a lot to say.

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration

The Gift

“Have you ever felt like you were lost?

That you didn’t know where you were going or where you came from?

Have you ever asked yourself, “Who am I?

What should I remember?

What is my deepest wish from the bottom of my heart?”

I know you must have a wish like that, because we all do.

I learned that we really have to believe in miracles.

All you have to do is take that leap.

If you stop resisting and surrender,

You’ll see that even the most painful thing in life is a gift.

Instead of thinking, “How can I get rid of this burden?”

Ask yourself, “In what way is this a gift?”

The steps you take to escape the pain can bring you to the edge.

And if you cross over that edge, you can never go back to sleep.”

⁃ taken from ‘The Gift’ by Jason George and Nuran Evren Sit

P.S. The picture today is a close up shot of a monkey puzzle tree’s bark. If you enlarge and zoom into the centre of the eye, you might be able to spot two tiny figures, a male and female greeting each other with arms raised. Or is that just my vivid imagination?

Posted in Energy healing, Inspiration, The Truth of our Being

My Amazing Body

This post is in celebration of my amazing body.  Not just my body, yours too, all our bodies are equally amazing!  Have you discovered what your body can do for you yet?

My body is a finely tuned instrument that can tell me whether each thought or idea is a good one or not.  If I have an emotion, I ask my body to tell me more, whether this feeling means something, whether I need to do a healing, whether it needs my attention or just to let that feeling go.

My body works with me throughout my healing work all the time and I would be lost without it, whether healing for myself or anybody else.  I ask my body to show me where in the energy field there’s a wound or trauma, where there’s a blockage, and it gives me a physical sensation at the location that feels like the problem, perhaps a sharp pain or a feeling of constriction or nausea.  I know that many physical conditions are really because my body’s talking to me about my needs, whether emotional or physical.

I have a special left hand, it’s my healing hand and I’ve been taught to use it as a kind of radar.  It kind of tingles if I ask, when I’m doing the right thing or going in the right direction down a path.  I can use it to find my way or avoid danger.  Are you familiar with dowsing rods or a pendulum?  They are simply extensions of our body, tools that allow us to see what our body knows, that’s also our bodies talking to us.  My left hand works like that, I don’t need to hold rods or a pendulum, just tilting my hand gives me answers.  I can use it to ‘read’ ley lines and energy fields at sacred sites and standing stones.  It was taught to me by the Elemental Kingdom, specifically for doing Earth healing, although I find it can do so much more. 

My body gives me sensations like chills up the spine to let me know when spirits who have passed over are near and shows me specific symbols when my guides and soul group are present. 

My body is in no way unique, everyone’s body is the same, just as animals and birds have super-senses, so do we, only we question ours and learn to ignore the signals.  Bats have echolocation, snakes can detect infrared radiation, bees and certain birds can sense the Earth’s magnetic field and so can we.  We all have moments when we get that feeling in the gut or know something is so.  We just get freaked easily when we don’t understand what can’t be seen, but bees and bats get on with it because it works for them.  When we begin to trust and cultivate what our body can do, it’s like having a super-buddy who’s got our back night and day.  

What I’ve recently embraced about my body is something that’s come from the healing work I’ve been doing with Jen Peters recently.  That my body is not who I am.  It’s a marvellous sensitive instrument that comes with this Earth incarnation, for focusing my energy in the physical experience and providing me with all the feedback that I’ve mentioned above and more.  Like many others, I grew up thinking it was who I am, identifying myself with it.  And because of my early life experiences, I grew to have a negative view of my body.  I got caught in a cycle of hatred and destruction towards my body which manifested as an eating disorder, in my case, an overeating compulsion.  Consequently, I’ve abused my body rather badly, to the detriment of my health.  But no longer, I’m healing and reframing our relationship.  I know now that my body isn’t who I am, it doesn’t define me, and that leaves me free to accept my body as it is.  It’s not my body that shows my beauty, it’s my soul.  It’s not my body that attracts people or success into my life, it’s my soul.  I am a soul with a body, not a body with a soul.  I marvel at all it does to support me, I’m literally in awe.  And I accept the body I have with huge love and gratitude.   

[Image: ‘Dancing Gypsy Queen’ painting by Amenet Drago. Not available for copying or reproduction] 

Posted in Ascension, Inspiration, Poetry

Pilgrimage

We are on a pilgrimage of faith and belief

We were once cynical and isolated

We saw no future for ourselves or Earth

And worse, we didn’t care enough to believe differently

So, we set out on this journey

Learning to trust each other

We climbed the mountain of doubt when destruction was almost certain

And yet, hope was growing inside

Now, we have power

Power to save humankind from itself

It’s good we know fear

It helps us choose to use power wisely

We have all hurt ourselves and others

We have loved and been loved

Have faith

We are humanity and we have each other.

(- adapted from ‘Humans’ by Sam Vincent & Jonathan Brackley)

Posted in Inspiration

If It’s Easy, It’s In The Flow

When it’s right, it’s easy.

When it’s not easy, something’s not right.

Now, don’t get me wrong, difficult has its place.

Hurt, pain and suffering have their place.

But when we’re trying to find our passion,

Our gifts, abilities and destiny,

When we’re trying to find our way forward,

Look out for where it’s easy.

Look for what’s in the flow.

That’s your clue that you’re in the right place,

Doing the best thing,

On the right tracks.

Posted in Ascension

Our Awakening Journey

We are raising our vibration to a higher level. It means we are less dense, heavy, bogged down in the physical and become lighter, shinier and less focused on physical reality.

Rather than a human being having a spiritual experience, we are becoming a spiritual being having a human experience. It means we look at, live and experience everything differently.

What are some of the signs of such a transformation?

⁃ We choose less material stuff and start removing what no longer serves us from our lives. Less possessions, clothes, food, technology, we are less ‘object’ minded. And this includes people, places and situations. We can no longer tolerate what doesn’t serve us and are ready to let go and manifest better conditions.

⁃ We choose to be occupied less with phones, internet, TV, films, games. We enjoy silence and stillness. We become more tuned in to subtle energies, sounds and influences around and within us.

⁃ We slow down. We are more in the now moment and live less focused on what the future holds, the ‘what ifs’ and what happened in the past, the ‘if onlys’. We move beyond time and exist more and more in a state of conscious presence.

⁃ We begin to tune into our divinity and anchor this truth about ourselves into our being. Divinity is no longer words or an idea, we begin to perceive everything around us as an expression of divinity, including ourselves.

⁃ Even as we release people from our lives, we feel more deeply connected to the right people for us. We feel less isolated. We connect with humanity and that translates to finding our people. We are more tolerant of differences and not fearful of being different ourselves, in fact, even if we felt different or thought ourselves misunderstood or unique in some way, we are realising it’s not true, it never was. We are who we are, no longer needing to compare or compete. Everyone is an expression of the same divine energy unfolding in their own creative flavour. Once we recognise the divine in ourselves, we recognise the same divine presence in everyone else and realise we are fundamentally all the same.

⁃ We begin to experience more moments that are filled with peace, joy and wonder. Even if there’s still confusion or healing to be done, the balance has tipped and we are frequently embracing joy and wonder as we explore and participate in the world.

Look out for these changes, they are signalling your awakening to the higher vibrations of the fifth dimensional expression of being human on Earth. Homo Sapiens is evolving into Homo Luminous. There’s so much more to come as we continue our awakening journey.

Posted in Inspiration

Your Way Or The Highway

Hey guys, I just wanted to say one thing.

Your journey is your journey

And it’s not for anybody else to judge.

There’s no right way,

There’s no wrong way,

There’s only your way.

So, just rock up and flow with whatever seems to be your flavour.