Recently, I wrote about a situation where my anger was coming out and being expressed, in a post called ‘Fire From Within’. I decided to do some work with my anger and just at that moment, specific guidance appeared to help. Not for the first time, exactly what was needed materialised at the right moment.
So it was, I sat with my anger and, asking for clarification, realised it emanated from injustices perceived as a small child. These were experiences of being bullied and traumatised by others. My little self didn’t know why I was being attacked, but had the sense to realise it wasn’t fair. The initiator of my current anger, held within for many years, was my childhood self who didn’t have a voice and was still feeling neither seen or heard.
Anger, albeit internalised, was my lifeline. Anger carries a lot of power and energy, it became my strength and salvation. It meant I was a fighter and survivor. I didn’t give up, I always believed in myself deep down and held the power to eventually cultivate inner love for myself. As a child, I learnt to hide my power, because if expressed, I was punished, but it was still there, defiantly lying dormant within.
When I recently started exploring my anger, I called in a white healing light and was bathed in unconditional love that allowed me to see my anger differently. I saw how it was only because of experiencing injustices that I experienced anger, and it was due to experiencing anger that I experienced my creative power. And when the illusion of anger subsided, I saw that my power was love, unconditional love.
With this unconditional love, which bathed me completely, I saw myself emanating a great cloud of soft pink love towards all those who I had received injustice from. I perceived that I loved them unconditionally. There was nothing there but love, I was nothing but love.
This power of unconditional love has become my foundation. From this foundation, I create. I feel strongly called to make paintings whilst coming from and holding this powerful pink light of unconditional love, so that the canvases themselves hold and convey this love towards all who gaze upon them. The energy is a softness, a flow, it is union, divine unity expressed creatively. Maybe the paintings can help others dissolve their anger and release the power of their creativity.
Anger is an expression of fear and yet, anger can be very powerful, creative and valuable but we must not let that anger become stuck, it must flow as we allow it to be expressed. Every energy we think of as negative is there for a purpose and that purpose brings more love and light into our hearts, if we let it.
Imagine that your base chakra is a red colour.
When you take your awareness into your base chakra and ask if there’s anger there, what do you learn?
What do you learn when you sit with your anger? Stay with it for a while.
Now call in white healing light and see it turn pink when it merges with the red inside your base chakra. This pink colour is unconditional love, let it bathe your root chakra and transform your anger.
Stay with the energy as the pink light dissolves away the illusions of all your anger and allows you to see, with clear understanding, the original source of your anger.
Notice that your new understanding is transforming into the resolution you need, whether it’s the need to forgive, to embrace peace, to love yourself more, to let go, to open up, whatever it is for you.
Know that the anger has now been released and yet, the creative power and force that underlies it will continue to flow from your base chakra and become your foundation, from which you can create anything and everything you could imagine.
[Image: ‘Phoenix Nest’ art by Amenet Drago]