Posted in healing, Inspiration, love, The Truth of our Being

Spiritual Freedom

Over the years, I’ve been chasing freedom and didn’t even realise it until it found me.

It turned out, freedom was not what I expected it to be.  I expected freedom to be a ‘doing’ thing and it turned out to be a ‘being’ thing. 

Being true to myself, that’s freedom.  And that meant learning who I am and that nobody else’s opinion matters.  Freedom is what happens when bravery to live one’s truth becomes second nature and doesn’t require being brave anymore.

Freedom is trusting oneself, finding the self-worth and love you need inside yourself.  Freedom is stepping into your sovereignty and rocking your power. 

I didn’t go looking for it, I just kept following my in-built instinct towards fulfilment.  And that meant taking down my walls and opening my heart, whatever the risks.  I thought I was protecting myself from the outside world but what I found was, until I did that, I couldn’t learn to love myself.

Freedom meant making some big decisions to change and acting from a place of love whilst surfing on the crest of the universal energies that guided me towards a new me.

It’s supreme liberation and it’s so empowering and enriching.  Spiritual freedom is such a glorious superpower to have.

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration, love, spiritual skills and techniques, transformation

Surfing the Wave of Self Love

I’m hearing from several of my sisters that life is not easy at the moment.  There’s stuff coming up that needs dealing with, so much is presenting, so much to take on board.  Sometimes, it feels relentless, sometimes, we wonder if it will ever end, if we will ever find peace and stability again.  Yes, we will, we do.  But it’s a mistake to think that’s the goal.  Progress is not getting to a point where the difficult stuff no longer happens, progress is being with that stuff and being stable and finding peace when we are still experiencing it.  It’s not life that changes, it’s what we take to it.  It’s us that changes. 

When we’re in the thick of it, when the chaos is swirling all around, our thoughts and feelings are all over the place, we are so confused, we sometimes cannot tell the difference between truth and illusions.  We need to be able to hear our higher self guiding us but we can’t hear the voice, we are unable to differentiate the voice of our ego-personality, our wounded self, from our higher self at times like these. 

This is what we can do.  Write down the questions that are going around your head.  Maybe it’s about what direction you are being prompted to move forward in.  Maybe it’s about who is in your life that’s not serving you.  Maybe it’s about healing from the past.  Physical, emotional and mental conditions are your body’s way of letting you know there’s unresolved pain that needs your attention.  There will be themes, specific situations that trigger more pain, whether physical or psychological.  They are telling you what it’s about.

Although we have days that are really tough, we also get a break, days when we seem to be coping again and can get on with our life.  It’s easy to just fall back into life and forget about what just happened, but don’t.  Because you wrote those questions down, go to them now and spend a few moments letting what comes up be captured on paper.  You can allow your higher self to come to the fore now because you’re not triggered.  You can trust your intuition to give you your truth.  All you need do is move yourself aside, and that means moving aside your judgements, expectations, limitations and opinions for a few moments in order to see what your highest self has to say to you. This is a great skill to have and a wonderful way to gift yourself more of the love that you are.

I also wish to let you know this.  No matter how it feels, you are magnificent and you are in the right place, experiencing what is needed for your soul’s path.  It may not feel like it, but this is all okay.  This is all serving you and you are doing brilliantly.  You haven’t lost ground.  Things might feel like you have, but you haven’t.  If you’re walking through the dark night right now, you are on a difficult path but one that brings the biggest gifts and transformations. Believe in yourself, you are going to come out into the light again and you are going to level up. When you do, you will have gained such clarity that you will transform and become someone who embodies a new level of detachment and resilience.  You will then be able to surf across days like this, like riding a wave.

Posted in Abundance and lack, Energy healing, Full Moon, inner child, Inspiration, love, Personal Story

Embracing Abundance at the Full Moon

Abundance is something I’ve looked into and worked with energetically many times over the years. I’ve been trying to connect with that energy and invite it fully into my life.

Like secretly eating donuts when you’re trying to lose weight, I’ve been working against myself, sensing deep down that the fear of lack is still underlying.

It’s a difficult one to shake. My mother grew up during rationing with a strong tendency towards frugality, carrying her own lack consciousness wounds. She portioned out every meal, sparsely and carefully, for the family and it was never acceptable to help yourself from the fridge or cupboards, take seconds or refuse to eat everything on your plate. I was the youngest in the family and always received the smallest portions.

Everything was hand-made, toys and clothes, DIY was king and it was all about make-do and mend. My clothes were sewn by my mother, my out-of-fashion school uniform made me an easy target. The sense of material lack, lack of love and lack of emotional connection were tangible in every moment throughout my childhood.

My mother often expressed, sometimes hysterically, fears that we were poor and how she couldn’t cope with it all, now I know we were not as poor as all that. As a little child it scared me and I felt a heavy burden upon me when she spoke like that, a feeling I still remember now. It’s as though my little self translated it as, “we’re going to die!” It felt like she was giving me that burden, she was and I took it.

I don’t think my childhood was that unusual, we all have experiences of lack growing up. When material things and love are both scarce, the two easily become intertwined. So it is my current wounds relate to early traumas about not feeling wanted, loved or valued. That’s the healing I’ve been working on for years.

I’ve come a long, long way. It feels like I’ve cleaned the house and now I’ve just got to hoover up the last bits of mess, left over from all that hard work. But boy, are those sticky bits of mess difficult to vacuum up. If you read my posts you will know that inner child healing has been a game-changer for me, really helping me to shift a lot of stuck patterns and heal early life traumas. And sometimes, one twenty minute healing has changed so much. But when it comes to lack consciousness, I just keep going over and over it with the healing and yet, it’s still there. There’s just so much of it, so many trauma moments from my young selves, such fixed beliefs and patterns of behaviour that it’s like wading through treacle. I know I’m making a difference, finding and healing child after child who are carrying this energy, but there are so many of them!

Lack is deep, sometimes too deep to see. It’s not being good enough, not being worthy, not receiving the love we crave, it’s never feeling full up or complete, like having a hole inside you that cannot be filled, no matter what you do.

Its presence appears in desperately seeking or craving to be loved, engaging in addictions like alcohol, drugs, food or sex. It’s a panic feeling that surfaces when there’s any kind of possibility of not getting enough of anything, whether food, time, money or attention.

Lack of love can materialise as entanglements within relationships, when we are looking for the love we crave but are matching with the wrong energy, finding someone that fits the dysfunctional energy from our past. It never works and there’s only one answer, find that love inside ourselves. But when we carry a hidden wound, it’s not easy to give up the deeply held hope and desire to find the love of our life, the one who fulfils all our dreams and doesn’t hurt us.

I fear, literally fear not getting enough to eat, even when I over-eat, fear I’ll go hungry before my next meal, when that’s simply not possible. I fear that I don’t have enough money to live off, to get me through to my state pension. I even fear that I’m wasting time, that there’s never enough time in the day and I’m not using it wisely. Of course, these fears are always there but they’re not always activated, so there are lots of times I feel huge gratitude and great abundance in my life. But deep down, there’s a part of me that can’t completely buy into that and it’s the part of me that was hurt so much by lack of love throughout childhood.

So, what am I doing about it? Well, today it’s full moon and I’ve been making it my focus all day. I’m celebrating the full moon and her beautiful energies of increase, manifestation and abundance by embracing abundance consciously all day long.

I often bless my food and give gratitude before I eat and today I’m doing this for everything that goes into my body.

I’m having a little fire ceremony to release all that no longer serves me mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually, calling my guides, soul and soul group to help. This will make room for more abundance.

I’m making a candle spell for increase of all harmonious energies in my life, mental, emotional, physical and spiritual.

I’m creating full moon water and drinking it with intention to receive the moon’s blessings of increase and abundance.

I’m drawing down all that is ready to come into my life now and calling in all that my heart is choosing.

I’m working with inner child healing, looking for wound energy trapped within my body related to that little inner child who carried the burdens of lack from her mother.

I’m spending time with my shadow self, my cosmic double who holds all the unresolved energies and offering to transform energies of lack into abundance.

I’m being conscious of abundance all day, starting and ending the day with prayers of gratitude and really feeling the power of gratitude. I’m taking my time, feeling no pressure, putting aside thoughts or feelings that I need to be doing something else.

And I’m sending you many blessings this full moon!

Posted in Abundance and lack, Energy healing, inner child, Personal Story, sovereignty, The Truth of our Being

Levelling Up and Coming into Alignment

I’ve recently finished a four part webinar on working with energy templates.  Oh boy!  This work is marvellous and I can see I’m going to be working with this for some time.

I called forth the energy template that is my soul’s fulfilment and asked what needs to be acknowledged.  Two energies came forward.  The first was lack consciousness and secondly, a concern with what others expect or say of me.

I need to address these energies and integrate them into my being so that they move from disharmony to harmony.  So that lack moves to abundance and I am claiming my truth rather than giving my power away.

As I worked with the templates, I saw a vertical and horizontal line connected in the middle like a cross.

The vertical line of the cross represents alignment.  I may wobble on this line and move out of alignment instead of remaining in harmony and centredness.  Sometimes, I feel abundant and am less in fear of lack in my life.  Sometimes, I am in my power and truth and less focused on what others think.  And sometimes, I wobble offline.

The horizontal line of the cross is levelling.  Unresolved issues are trauma from the past and they look for opportunities to find what is missing to achieve levelling. For me, that’s always been love. It’s like water flowing in and filling up to the required level.  Lack consciousness and concerning myself with what others think are there because of unresolved issues that are still teaching me what I need to acknowledge and integrate in order to heal. 

This healing is a horizontal and vertical experience. As we heal, we level up (fill up with love) and achieve alignment with the divine source. We become lined up as well as levelled up.

Even though I’ve been working on this issue for years, there’s still a deep part of me that’s trying to find love outside of me.  That part created and feeds lack consciousness deep within me.  It also created a need to read and respond to my perceived expectations of others.  By recognising this and acknowledging it, I can heal.  I come into alignment and find my level because I’m filled up with the love that I felt was missing and this time it’s coming from myself.  In working with the energy templates, I call forth the energy of abundance.  I call forth the energies of truth and personal power that exist within me.  

Posted in healing, inner child, love

Nothing To Do: A Secret To Living a Fuller Life

I’ve just hit a pause.  And, oh, that pause is rich, it is deep and it is giving.  Being active, busy, having a full life and stuff to do is great but we need times when there is nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing to see.  A pause when we are free to just be.  There can be so much richness going on inside, where it matters, when we have nothing to do! 

And I am so lucky.  I don’t exist in relation to anybody else.  I exist only in relation to myself.  Many would consider that a failing, a loss even.  I can see that and sometimes feel it, but it’s also a wonderful gift.  It means I find silence, stillness and space whenever I need it. 

I don’t have a day job (which doesn’t mean I’m not working or busy).  I don’t live with anybody or have anyone dependent upon me.  Some might think me privileged (I would agree) or self-centred (yes I am, but in the most positive manner, putting one’s self first is critical in learning self-love and self-love is my personal healing journey right now.  It’s only a healed self that can really give freely to others.)

My pause moment is bringing forth such treasures, the kind of learning, intuitions, understanding that doesn’t find the space to grow and form when we’re living a full life.  I’m learning what needs to be acknowledged, what needs to be integrated.  I’m moving forwards in my fulfilment.  I’m receiving clarity and have the chance to make adjustments for my growth. 

Specifically, I’m looking deeply into what has not healed from past losses and rejections, yet again, at a deeper level than before.  Why it is that I desperately feel a need to be loved?  I’m asking what has to heal to find that love from within myself.  I know my soul is calling for a solitary path at this time in my life and I’ve ditched, rejected or removed some key people who surrounded me because their presence in my life was stopping me from loving me. 

At the end of the day, we will continuously search for the love we never received in childhood from outside ourselves.  We will keep looking for that love, entering numerous relationships to do so.  However much we are loved in those relationships, it always comes up short and the original loss will not be assuaged.  That can only be accomplished within ourselves through the love we give ourselves. 

We may try to fill that hole in all sorts of ways, with love, food, alcohol, drugs, sex, work.  None of it will truly help, it will pull us further and further to a crisis point where we have no other recourse than to turn to ourselves.  We will have no other options than to heal from inside out.  And finally, we face ourselves.  We go deep and embrace our inner child.  We love our inner child with all our heart and all our truth and all our might. And we acknowledge, heal and integrate the wound that has never left us. We are ready to truly face it and claim it.           

Posted in darkness and light, Energy healing, Inspiration, Personal Story

Waking Up

Quite often, the posts I write don’t represent where I’m at, they’re me working things out for myself.  It’s a part of a process where intellect is engaged, part of moving through the energy to realisation.  So, when I state something, it doesn’t mean I’m there yet, it means I know I’m working through that energy.

I watched a film recently, it was one I’ve watched at least five times, an old favourite I never seem to tire of.  Every time, it gets me in the heart, which is not surprising since it’s a film all about the heart.  And more than that, it’s a film about claiming your darkness, and I hadn’t really noticed that before because I hadn’t watched it just at the moment when I was ready to see it before.

As usual, this time, the emotions started to surface, ones I often struggle with.

And there it was.  After my recent post ‘Allowing Life to Be’, I realised what I needed as I watched the film.  I realised that those struggling emotions of yearning and desires and loneliness, a desire for a deep, abiding loving relationship that expresses as a sacred union at all levels, this is not a lack in me, not something to fight or struggle against, not a bad or negative feeling. It doesn’t represent a deficiency or failure. It’s okay, it’s a part of me.  It’s who I am, and all of a sudden I claimed it.  I embraced my needs and desires and moved the energy from dissonance to resonance. 

Then, I realised there was more that needed to be claimed, I needed to claim the darkness, the loss, abandonment, lack of love I’ve experienced, deeper than I’d ever claimed it before.  Instead of feeling it was something that had happened to me, that it was a problem, that it was the opposite of what I wanted, I claimed it all.  I claimed the darkness as mine. 

Now, I own it.  I can no longer be hurt because it’s something I allow as who I am.  All those emotions that weren’t love became love, love for myself.  I loved myself to freedom.

Guilt, resentment, blame, anger, sorrow, all became love.  And that love became peace.  The peace brought stillness and release, it brought acceptance and trust.  I accepted me and at the same time, I healed myself some more.    

Waking up is a series of moments of realisation, of claiming and acceptance of oneself.      

Posted in Abundance and lack, Ascension, channelled message, divine magic, Energy healing, Goddess, healing, I AM Presence, Inspiration, love, oneness, Online workshops, Soul Integration, Soul Mastery, spiritual skills and techniques, the Creator, The Truth of our Being, transformation, Twin Flame

Divine Union Is You

We live our lives with the illusion of separation and it causes us so much trouble and gives us so many rich experiences for our growth.

A double edged sword, you might say.

We are now fast-tracking our growth and healing and bringing that sense of separation to an end as we invite and embody divine union.

How do we do this? We activate and ignite our twin flame.

Your twin flame is an energy that sits at the core of your soul. Activating it is akin to connecting with the truth of our being. You see, we are divine. You are divine, you are divine now, always have been, always will be. You are never alone, you are a beacon of love, in fact, you are love incarnate. You are always everything that is, everything.

But the question is, do you sense, feel, acknowledge these deep truths about you?

If you do, you will never seek anything outside of yourself.
You will never feel lonely or as though you don’t belong.
You will never need healing.
You will always be complete and balanced.

And that’s just for starters. It’s time to activate your twin flame. Because your twin flame IS divine union. It is the divine feminine and divine masculine that you are, combined. Because we are all both.

And when you activate divine union at the core of your being, your soul, you BECOME your divine truth. You wake up to being the divine being you always were. You rock it.

Imagine going through life KNOWING you are divine. BEING your divine self.

To activate your twin flame requires an energetic activation process that I would LOVE to take you through on my TWIN FLAME ALCHEMY online workshop.

It takes place on FRIDAY 13th AUGUST at 3.30pm to 5.30pm British Summer Time.
It costs only £15

Not only will you ignite your twin flame but you will also receive a sacred soul initiation, integrating you with the full spectrum of your soul and entitling you to enrol on all future amenet drago : Soul Mastery workshops.

You will experience not one, but two energy chambers where you will meet your twin flame embodied as a person or persons and then manifest your twin flame into your life as a person who acts as a mirror for you and creates sacred, divine union with you, in the form of your choosing.

I can assure you, every one of my offerings is deep, profound, transformative and life changing. Go HERE to read what people have to say.

Honestly, are you crazy enough to say no to this?!?

Posted in Ascension, love, oneness, Online workshops, Soul Integration, Twin Flame

Twin Flame Ignited

You’ve probably noticed that I’ve got my second online workshop coming up soon.  The first one, a six week course, has only one week left to go and it’s gone down very well, I’m feeling very pleased and hope to run it again sometime. 

This second workshop was designed to be a follow-on because, when we are integrated with our soul, our twin flame is awakened.  So, the next stage is to activate it and enable the energies to be expressed. 

Now I’ve made this Twin Flame Alchemy workshop a stand-alone workshop because I’ve incorporated a soul integration into the programme. 

I’m aware that many people see the twin flame as another person who is our one true love.  This says a great deal about how so many people would love to find love and are still looking for that love outside themselves.  And I really get that. 

The twin flame is so much more than that.  Essentially, it’s the energy of divine union, of the divine feminine and divine masculine that exists within each of us, at the core of our soul.  And it requires to be activated.

The most fundamental value of waking the twin flame up is not to meet Mr or Ms Right, it’s to further realise the truth of our being as a soul, as a multi-dimensional being, and not just a body with a personality. 

That’s not all, more than anything, igniting this energy brings us further away from the illusion of separation and nearer to our awareness of being connected with all-that-is and of our own divine nature.  And the thing is, that’s the entire point of being on Earth and living our lives, to move closer to the truth, to realign with the divine source, of which we are a part.

When we wake up our twin flame, it is akin to fast-tracking our spiritual journey.  Everything speeds up.  That includes the cleansing, purification, the healing, the awakening, the recognition of who we are and what, ultimately, we are here for.  So, we find our path, we find our tribe and we find all the healing and growth that is needed to make that so.

How is it that the twin flame is a part of our soul and simultaneously another person?  It is energy.  Energy is beyond the manifest, it can be in more than one place, it can express in more than one form.  And it can be called into existence.  And when we activate the twin flame within our being, we are then able to ignite the alchemy that forms relationships.  Not any kind of relationships but sacred relationships centred upon divine union.  Relationships with other persons who are our soul.  Yes, that is the twin flame. 

Twin Flame Alchemy online workshop Sunday 1st August at 3.30pm BST

 

  

Posted in darkness and light, death, Inspiration, love

Why Death is Our Dear Friend

Why do we need to visit death in order to understand life?

Why do we need to experience lack in order to understand abundance?

Why do we need to be abandoned in order to find the love inside ourselves?

Because…

How can we understand the light without knowing darkness?

How can we appreciate sound without comprehending silence?

How can we come to know our blessings unless we have suffered some misfortune?

So it is that misfortune is our wise teacher.

Silence is our welcome guest.

Darkness is our loving guide.

Abandonment is our great gift.

Lack is our secret treasure.

Death is our dear friend.

Posted in love, Personal Story, Soul Integration, The Truth of our Being

The Harmony of Being

There are two parts of me that are learning how to work harmoniously together. There’s my personality and my soul. We need both and they need to communicate and co-operate when we live on this Earth. My personality has long since held the reins and now my soul is fully on board as well. My soul is choosing to do some things differently and I can see she is always choosing what is healthy and serves me most.

But personality has got comfortable with quite a few poor behaviours and habits, most of which developed from early childhood wounds and limitations. Personality doesn’t always want to give up foods that don’t serve me, attitudes that don’t do me justice or methods that keep me stuck. Personality is a bit stubborn like that and has a tendency to not want to step outside the comfort zone.

Soul is patient and understanding, there’s no hurry, no timescale in changing the habits of a lifetime. The less urgency and pressure, the better.

The way forward is love, to keep loving and reassuring my personality, letting her know it’s safe to change, reminding her she is loved, important and valued.

Personality is letting go more and more, realising there’s still a role for her. Accepting that soul is improving things for us all. Welcoming soul and her loving wisdom to the party.

We are learning to work together for our ongoing fulfilment.