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Closing Our Deep Wounds

“The role of the writer is not to say what we can all say but to say what we are unable to say.” – Anais Nin

On this website, I’ve shared a number of deep, personal truths about myself and my life from time to time. Some of those disclosures stayed with me for a while. Was it wise or foolish to speak out? I may have said I was doing it for the healing of others who may resonate with the circumstances but I was also doing it for my own healing.

I realise that what disclosure of intimate truth does is allow me to claim trauma as who I am. I claim it as me, a part of me, it’s my truth and even if it was trauma at the time, now it’s okay. Everything about it is okay, that it happened in the first place is okay.

What was hurting me was not that it happened but that it was hidden away, that what happened remained denied. That’s why I write, why I let it out the box and put my truth, my story out there in the world. And that’s me claiming myself in all my full beauty and magnificence.

When I own it, I am responsible and therefore empowered. I take full responsibility for my actions and truth. I can no longer be hurt because the hurt comes from inside me and it’s something I allow as who I am. All those emotions that weren’t love become love. Love for myself, free from needing love from an outside source. I am loving myself to freedom.

Guilt, resentment, blame, anger, sorrow, all become love. And that love becomes peace. Peace brings stillness, release, acceptance and trust. I’m accepting and healing myself once more.

It’s not an easy thing to do, to speak out about intimate, personal things we don’t normally talk about. It’s certainly not a path for everyone. There are risks and consequences.

Still, how is it that such truths remain hidden to keep the status quo? To perpetuate dysfunctions, damage and abuse? How does society condone so much silence and allow so much to be hidden? Damage is done by silence and power rests with those who ensure we never speak out. It’s uncomfortable to speak out but sometimes, essential that a voice is heard.

Abuse and dysfunction are wounds and trauma being carried from generation to generation. There are no abusers on one level, only people carrying deep wounds and pain. It’s time to let our wounds’ stories seep out so that they can be cleansed, ready for the wound to be closed for good. And if someone needs to step up, then I will speak for us all.

Posted in healing, Personal Story, sexual healing, The Truth of our Being

Exposure – The Rawness of Truth

Have you ever thought about publicly writing about your life in a way that reveals what is usually not spoken or shared? Have you ever wondered why others go there?

Writing for oneself is one thing, sharing it is another thing entirely. Once it’s out there, is it the writer’s concern who sees it and how it’s taken? It’s one person’s truth, not anybody else’s. Perhaps, it’s a big test of owning one’s truth and letting go of what others think. Because what others think can be such a big hurdle throughout life, something to be conscious of.

All this brings up the issue of disclosure, when it’s okay, when it’s not okay, and who’s to judge. It feels like this is about revealing hidden secrets from the past, exposing what others have kept hidden because they had the power and authority. When the lid is off, those that had the ability to impose from their position of strength, they created a record of a life, upbringing and experience that was out of synch with what was felt, saw, sensed and believed. And yes, it’s all a question of perception and probably truth is somewhere in the grey areas between those perspectives.

As a healer, I experience many people who have such stories. Maybe the details are different but lies from the past are being exposed. Perhaps lies from your past have been exposed or are in the process of being so. And I know it’s a very painful process, especially if we’re suddenly faced with a huge realisation that goes against everything we once believed. Of course we’re going to want to work that out and explore it, possibly in writing it down.

How painful this process is can be impacted by us. It depends how much we fight it. It’s easy to fight back because we don’t want to know, we don’t want this truth, it hurts. And it may involve finding the healing that enables us to accept, acknowledge, face and embrace the truth. And then the ability to heal and integrate it into our hearts. This can be done in minutes or years, depending upon whether we’ve woken up the knowledge and skills we need, whether we’re ready to claim it all, the good, the bad and the ugly, or not. If it’s coming up, it’s because our guides and spiritual support are helping us release it now and they’re available to call on, they’re rooting for us and know that the only way out is through. Be brave, dear one, it’s time, we are waking up and we are more supported than we can ever imagine.