Posted in inner child

Loving Our Inner Children

Adults of any age, twenty, forty, even ninety, can act like children sometimes.

And I don’t mean in a fun and carefree way, I mean when we’re upset.

We go back to that childhood feeling of vulnerability when we had much less resources to call on in dealing with emotional upsets.

We act like children when one of our inner children is activated.

Maybe we’re petulant, maybe we don’t listen, we shout or scream, we get tongue-tied and can’t express ourselves. Maybe we lash out, blame others, cover up and say things we’re going to regret.

We’re far from our clear thinking adult self at those times and that’s because we’re feeling hurt and back in that feeling from our childhood.

We don’t have one inner child, we have one for each wound or trauma experienced.

Most of us will have many wounded inner children, each carrying a belief such as “I’m not worthy; I’m not lovable; people can’t be trusted.”

Every time something happens to trigger one of those beliefs, the little child who suffered the original wound and created that belief comes to the surface.

Then, when we’re hurt and emotional, it’s easy to find ourselves acting like a hurt child again at such a time.

And if someone in your life is acting that way from time to time, that’s probably why.

Give them a break and give yourself a break, we all do it, unless we heal those inner children and relieve them of the burdens they are desperately trying to address.

To heal, we go within, find our inner child.

Listen to our child, really hear our child.

Acknowledge, validate, love and embrace that child,

Then, we heal and integrate our inner child into our heart space, finally letting go of what was never our burden to carry. And that’s such a beautiful thing to do.

[Image: ‘Surma Tribe Mother With Baby’ photograph by Francisco Mendoza Ruiz courtesy of Fine Art America]

Posted in Ascension, Energy healing

Singing Yourself Back Home

Although a certain amount of clarity can be perceived through the fog of life, there is always yet more awareness and understanding to come, when what was lost is found. What is lost is your truth, freedom and power, that which was stolen from you.

And now it is time to call those energies back. Keep calling the energies that belong to you home. Keep demanding that they are released by those who took them. It is time. It is time to call yourself home, to finally be complete and healed.

You have been waiting and this is now possible. When you have re-integrated all your missing energies that were lost and stolen, then, the full extent of your soul purpose will be seen, like a sun that emerges from behind a dark cloud.

And it will be magnificent. It will truly be blessed. You will herald it as a marvel. And there will be so much love and support available to you from every side. Then, you will become the fulfilment that is your soul’s destiny.

Right now, your greatest need is to sing yourself back home.

(Here is a LINK to a free resource from Jen Peters that guides you through calling your dissociated energy back home)

[Image: ‘Mother Wound (close up)’ painting by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Inspiration, Mother Earth

Conscious Eating

I just went outside and sat at the table on my patio to eat a delicious plate of freshly sliced mango and banana. I sat down and admired the distant sea view, remembering the first time I saw that view, on Valentines Day last year when I came to see the house as a prospective buyer. And that thought took me to another and another thought, and choo! choo! I was racing away on the thought train.

I looked down, I had nearly finished the plate of fruit and not a single sentiment of gratitude or recognition of the pleasure of eating this fine fruit had passed my lips.

I put my fork down, sat back and took a deep breath. Before I ate another morsel, I now chose to consciously connect with the experience of eating.

First, I spoke my gratitude out loud to Mother Earth and her soul, Goddess Gaia. To the Creator, the Elemental Kingdom, all the trees and plants. To the elements of fire, earth, air and water. To the animals, birds, insects, reptiles and sea creatures. I took a bite of mango, it was delicious, sweet and juicy. Mmmmm. I savoured each mouthful and thought of the nourishment this fruit was bringing to my being.

As I finished, I took a deep breath and felt that breath as nourishment also. It was air, yes, but I could detect the moisture in it, I was also taking in the element of water. And I was taking in the light with each breath, the element of fire.

This is how I wish to eat, consciously. Gratefully.

[Image: ‘Peachy’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Inspiration

Surge

Have you ever noticed the surge? The surge is like a tidal wave. It’s a powerful and sudden swell of energy that pushes what needs to happen forward. It could be anything. It could be healing. It could be love. It could be creativity.

All of a sudden, the lull is over and you are really moving, gathering speed. 

Be prepared, be awake.  Your senses must be alert at all times, even when you are dallying with the mundane.  The surge can arrive at any moment and then you will riding on the crest of a wave. 

[Image: ‘Waiting for the wave, Llangrannog, Ceredigion, Wales’ photograph by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Ukraine, war

Ukraine – Keep The Faith

My life has been immeasurably busy lately.  There’s been a lot going on in terms of familial commitments involving being away from home for a long period.  Despite this, I’ve tried to prioritise healing for the war in Ukraine.

Because I’ve not been in charge of my environment but in the company of others with different habits to mine, I’ve found myself susceptible to receiving information through the media that I would ordinarily have filtered.

In short, I mean, I don’t usually listen, watch or generally take in the news because of its negative bias, doing so helps keep my energy clear.  It’s one of a number of influences that my being has become too sensitive to receive in any significant quantity.  The same is true for TV, music and film, I have to be much more discerning and aware of the energy that’s being activated from media that I’m immersing myself with these days.

So, I have been amazed at how debilitating and draining hearing news broadcast after broadcast about the situation in Ukraine feels.  When I use my energy body to travel to the region, I experience a different kind of energy altogether.  There are many powerful supportive beings of light filling up the atmosphere above the country, pouring down healing, unconditional love, strength, serenity, peace and many supportive energies.  There’s a bubble of love over Ukraine. None of that is visible on the news broadcasts.

I see the souls who are transitioning through death and support some of them.  I see they are fulfilling their soul’s pre-agreed plan.  I know that each, individual transition through death is creating a tremendous burst of energy that increases the power of truth upon the Earth.  Even in death, every being is contributing to the ultimate solution for humanity, through love and peace.  But, of course, on the news, we hear only of another meaningless death and it feels gutting.

The news can’t but help tell the story as it unfolds, and much of that story is very sad and tragic.  However, immersing ourselves in that sad, tragic energy for too long, too deeply, isn’t a good idea when we’re trying to send those souls healing, hope, faith and peace.  I’m not saying don’t watch the news, but please consider how much time you give to that kind of energy, especially if you are involved in sending your healing light and love to the region.  Just make sure you don’t bring yourself down. 

You need to keep yourself strong.  You need to keep your light burning more than ever.  Your love and your power is making all the difference.  We can’t see the difference for a child who receives that loving energy and feels more able to hold it together as they cross the border away from their home, or the soldier who miraculously misses being killed or losing a limb, or the man who is pulled from the wreckage alive after many hours.  We can’t see the difference between hundreds of deaths compared to thousands of deaths.  We can’t see the difference between fortitude and a crushed spirit, between a victim mentality and a survivor attitude.  But it’s there, it’s happening, believe it.  We don’t know how bad it could have been already without all the love and light that’s pouring in.  Don’t give up hope.  The people of Ukraine haven’t.  And I won’t.  Let’s do this together, people. 

[Image: ‘Angel of Love and Healing at Portmeirion, Wales’ photographed by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Energy healing, Personal Story

Holding Me in Arms of Love

It’s only recently that I’ve begun to understand the extent of the trauma created during my childhood years. At the age of sixty, it’s taken me a long time to get there because part of me has diminished what happened.

I suppose I never completely accepted it was that bad. Many people have a hard life, much worse than me, so I thought I should pull myself together and get on with it, and this attitude simply invalidated my childhood experiences.

Suddenly, I seem to have reached a place where it’s safe for it all to be revealed and I can finally hold it for myself without breaking down. There have been times over the years when I did break down, not realising what was underlying the emotional pain.

I’ve never shirked from facing, head on, what I call my personal development.  But I’ve been scratching the surface all this time.  For any of you out there who are facing a total mess coming up from inside, or even seemingly being brought about by life and circumstances around you, which is the same thing because of the law of attraction, you may know what I mean. 

It can feel like going backwards, like “what the…?!” It can feel like being broken, wondering what’s going on and what’s wrong with us. Well, there’s nothing wrong with us, we’re not special (except we are, we all are, but we’re not especially special for being messed up). We are finally finding ourselves in a place where we can begin to comprehend just how hurt we became. And not because anyone meant to hurt us, but because they were hurt themselves. And hurt people hurt others.

So much of the trauma has been stuck inside for such a long time and had nowhere to go, we haven’t got time for it, we need to get on with daily life. Therefore, a lot of that emotional wounding has no option but to manifest as physical conditions.

I am aware just how much our physical ailments are manifestations of the emotional wounds we carry. Emotional wounds need to be treated at the subconscious level because that’s where they exist. We grope about, trying to find physical solutions to our physical symptoms, the symptoms come and go like moods and what we thought was helping, suddenly isn’t anymore. Because the underlying original source is still untreated.

I’m more together now than I could have imagined. I’ve got a long way on my own merit. I’ve changed my life and brought a considerable degree of stability. And yet, that’s also allowed deeper layers to come to the surface and brought me to the awareness of just how damaged my childhood self really was.

So, I’ve decided to call in an expert in the field and get some help to clear it at this point. It pays to have somebody who can be objective and get a broader view of what’s there.

I’m really excited, I’m going to be working one on one with Jen Peters, and she’s one of the most amazing experts in the field of inner child healing. Someone who has the skills and tools, who can really validate and hold space. Someone who totally gets it because not only has she been there herself, she’s heard the same stories from others, over and over again. And she knows exactly what’s needed and how to deliver it.

I’m not alone and it makes a world of difference. Right now, it almost feels like I’m a child again and I’m being held safely in truly loving arms.

[Image: ‘Sun Breaking Through The Clouds, Isle of Wight’ photograph taken by my soul sister, Emma Bartlett]       

Posted in death, dragons, Inspiration, Personal Story, Soul Mastery

Amenet Drago & Mastery the Black Dragon

I first received my soul name in the summer of 2018. I was waking from sleep and heard “Amenet” spoken, strong and loud. I knew instantly that it was the name of my soul. When I received my sacred soul initiation a few months later, the name came through again. I did some research into Amenet, since I hadn’t come across this name before that I could remember.

The first information I found was about Amunet, the ancient Egyptian Goddess, female counterpart and twin flame of Amun. She is the original primal divine Goddess whose name means ‘she who is hidden’. This title refers to her being hidden in plain sight. She is everywhere, present in everything, and yet, only the initiated can see her presence because she is hidden within.

The ancient Egyptians didn’t use vowels when writing, so her name is spelled in numerous forms; Amunet, Amenet, Amaunet…

In the Akan culture, the same deities are known as Amenet and Amen. Akan is primarily present in Ghana and Ivory Coast, with an ancestry clearly rooted in ancient Egypt. Amenet is the supreme Great Mother and with Amen, they are the embodiment of Divine Union.

I am not suggesting that my soul is that of a goddess, except from the understanding that I believe we are all divine beings, so I do like to think of myself as such, but not exclusively so.

I recall several ancient Egyptian past lives, it feels like ancient Egyptian culture is the time my soul has loved the best and I remember clearly when my Earthly personality was called Meritamen, which means ‘blessed of the hidden one’.

During 2019, I made a vision quest and after that, a black dragon started to make itself known to me. I began to feel his presence during meditations. I felt a kind of awakened memory of extreme affection and deep knowing with this powerful being, so I tuned in and received his name, Mastery. After that, it was as though he was often around in the background.

Fast forward to late 2020 and I was painting my newly acquired shamanic drum. I knew intuitively that my dragon friend, Mastery, was going on the drum’s image and as it turned out, so was my soul, Amenet, in her Egyptian form. As I tuned into the energies, four words came forward to be painted along the rim of the drum; Soul, Dragon, Mastery and Amenet.

I knew these words were intimately bound to my soul calling, and somehow, they arranged themselves into Soul Mastery and Amenet Dragon, but when I painted the last word, I intuitively stopped before I painted the last letter. Soul Mastery became the name of my soul mission and I realised that Amenet Drago was the true name of my soul, although I sense that Drago is more a title than a name. They are now an intricate part of my identity.

Later, I asked my soul group, the collective from which my soul extends, to tell me about the relationship between my soul and Mastery the black dragon. They told me of a distant time on Earth when people and dragons walked together. A time we know as Lemuria. It was not like nowadays, humans were not restricted to the physical realms, they had a great many more abilities than are awake in humanity currently. A dragon and a person could create a partnership that was deep and abiding. They would achieve many marvellous things together and my soul was such, a Drago or dragon walker.

Eventually, as humanity faced a corruption of their energies, the dragons retreated to the inner planes, but the deep bonds remained. I believe there are many people alive today on Earth whose souls are calling in their beloved dragons again. The dragons are here in the energetic to be with our souls and help us fulfil our soul purpose. My dragon is working with my soul as we support souls who are transitioning through the process we call death.

On New Year’s Eve night as 2021 ended, I received guidance from my soul group explaining how Mastery and I are here to support the Truth Maker souls who are choosing to transition at this time from their Earthly existence to the inner planes. As they transition, they are creating powerful energies of truth which are grounded for humanity’s ascension. This work often takes place during my sleep and when I’m engaged to journey as a soul guide.

I humbly ask that I, as my personality, Ananda, will always be the conduit of love and peace that my soul, Amenet Drago, and my dragon, Mastery, require to fulfil their truth and purpose.

[Image: ‘Dragon Cloud’ – Photo of a storm cloud in the form of a black dragon over cacti, taken by Michael Shainblum, Tucson, Arizona]

Posted in healing, inner child, Personal Story

Growing Up With a Box Full of Darkness

“Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.” – Mary Oliver

Are you someone who grew up having a difficult relationship with a parent? 

It can be a tough experience to grow, from womb to adulthood and beyond, trying to make sense of oneself and the world. And then add in to that a parent or parents who don’t see, hear or acknowledge that we matter, let us know that we are loved and worthy.

Worst still, maybe you lived with a parent or parents who criticised, judged, manipulated, controlled, demanded, abused, denied, hated or gaslighted. Maybe there was alcohol, drugs, absence, divorce, violence, abuse…

There are parents that aren’t able to be loving and affirming because it wasn’t there for them. It wasn’t modelled or experienced when they were growing up. They had difficulties with their own parents that led to not feeling loved or worth much. That’s not to say that a child who had a dysfunctional parent grew up to be dysfunctional themselves. Sometimes, the child becomes the healer of the entire generational family trauma. Sometimes, dysfunction is the starting point for such a journey.

Nothing said here is intended as criticism or judgement. There are few more unfortunate circumstances than a person becoming disordered in their personality because it happens during the earliest years of childhood. I feel sad for every one of us that’s subject to such a life story.

One of the most complicated labels is Narcissistic Personality Disorder. A person with NPD has little or no chance of understanding or accepting that they have this disorder and even if they do, it’s almost impossible to commit to treatment that could help them unpick it, because to do so would go against the absolute need to deny their wound is there.

When an NPD parent brings up a child, undoubtedly it means that the child experiences some shocking deficits that would impact their life. They may need to walk away. Maybe they stay. Either way is difficult.

A parent with NPD would find it difficult to show genuine love, empathy, compassion or gratitude. They may say they understand you, love you or are grateful, but over time, you realise they’re hollow words that are not backed up.

Almost everything revolves around the NPD person, leads back to them and their needs, worries or affairs, although they may be skilled at making it look otherwise. Truth is, they live for drama and their life is often chaotic and complicated as they draw drama around them.

An NPD parent will usually have a charming and highly social persona so that others think they’re fun, charming people. They may be overly affectionate, a ‘talk-to-anybody’ kind of person. They are charismatic, often successful people. As their child, you will see this side being demonstrated, but not so much within the core family. The side projected towards you may be a completely different picture which is very confusing since many will see your challenging parent as a lovely person and that’s not likely to be your reality at all.

The NPD person contains and expresses an absolute sense of entitlement. Maybe they need to express how special and unique they are, maybe they become angry when they feel someone doesn’t understand or appreciate them or didn’t value their specialness, maybe they simply make things about themselves and expect others to organise their lives around them, be at their disposal.

Walking away from an NPD parent is a real consideration, sometimes it’s the only way to heal and learn to love ourselves. I didn’t.

I maintained a good distance and limited contact for many years. Eventually, I found a way to get closer, to abate the onslaught, stay calm, ignore or walk away when needed. I learned it’s of no use to try to explain things in the hope they may understand and adjust their behaviour. Totally pointless.

I love my parent and feel sad that they’re trapped by conditions that were never asked for or deserved and they don’t understand any of it. My parent created in me a pleaser and fixer from a young age but I don’t please or fix so much nowadays, thanks to inner child healing. It’s such freedom to no longer carry the drive to have to do that. I can accept other people’s journeys for what they are, including that of my parent, and focus on my own journey, the only one I have the power to change.

Do you have an NPD-type person in your life? Did you have a difficult time with a parent growing up? Are you still struggling? Have you learned to love yourself, through healing from such a dynamic? Have you understood the gifts and opportunities that are open to you? Have you found all the love you need inside yourself, so you don’t need it from your parent anymore?

If this resonates for you, my love and blessings are with you. There are many others sharing this journey, you’re not on your own. Quite often, we live for years without knowing that it’s never been about us. Then, we hear or read something and start to see the whole of our past in a new way that makes sense. It helps to understand, it’s part of the healing. There may be little we can do but understand, yet that, in itself, is the start of healing, not only for ourselves but for previous generations.

Many of us are healing now and our insights are changing the energy of the past too. We are clearing it for our parents and grandparents and their parents too. We are all healing, only some of us consciously, but that’s all it takes.

(Image: “Opening The Box” by Amenet Drago)

Posted in Ascension, death

Soul Purpose Revealed

I have wondered why my spiritual support team haven’t shared with me what is my soul purpose, what is my unique gift for myself, humanity and the Earth. How many of us are still wondering, “What am I here for? What’s my destiny, my purpose and direction?”

I asked myself those questions over several years.

When I felt into it, it wasn’t time to know. Maybe I wasn’t ready yet or it would get in the way of something that needs to happen first.

On new year’s eve night, I opened up my channel, invited communication and my soul group came through.

Unprompted, my soul purpose was explained, that many souls are choosing to transition from Earth to the spiritual realms on the other side.

And my soul has chosen to be here to support their transition. I was asked to step up and prioritise my role as an end of life soul guide.

I would never have imagined this was my soul purpose, had you asked me only a few years back. It was thanks to my soul integration in 2018 that I embodied all the skills and tools being held by my soul to enable me to do this work. Since then, I’ve been honing those skills and now I’m ready to fulfil my soul’s purpose.

The souls who are choosing to cross to the inner planes are not doing so consciously, it’s their soul, not personality or mind that’s bringing on the conditions that enable their death. These souls are Truth Makers and their transition is enabling an opening to truth for us all.

I honour every soul. I honour every death, for we often only see this profound transition from the limited perspective of loss and yet, it is so much more. It’s a birth as well. It’s returning to our natural state as an energy being. It’s returning home.

(Image: ‘Freefall’ art by Amenet Drago)

Posted in channelled message, elemental kingdom, healing, Mother Earth, nature, Personal Story

Talking With Plants: The Japanese Knotweed Conversation

A while ago, I considered purchasing a house with lots of Japanese knotweed growing in the garden. I’ve heard the horror stories but don’t easily succumb to fearful talk. So, I tuned into the plant diva of Japanese knotweed to find out more.

Japanese knotweed, or JK as I came to address this incredible plant, turned out to be welcoming and forthright. Far from a destructive nightmare, JK is a high vibration, powerful healing plant consciousness, waiting to co-create with humans.

When I opened my channel to communicate, first, I offered a heartfelt apology for previously pointing out the presence of JK plants opposite my house that were subsequently poisoned. Here’s the communication I received:

“It is with delight that we hear your voice and we are accepting of the apology and learning that you have faced. We wish to support you in changing your activities, your thinking and your attitude towards our beautiful plant. The plant that you call JK, and we accept that name, is a plant with a great deal to offer humanity and we do understand the concerns that humanity has over the growth rate of our plant and the resilience and robustness of our plant, that is seen as resistance. We have a role, a job to do upon the Earth. A role of collaboration and co-creation with humanity and we wish for our voice to be heard. We wish for persons like yourself who will make a place for us to be heard, and this is our desire.

We wish to reassure you that if you choose to make your home within this garden, it will be a beautiful place and you will find the ability to make connection, not only with ourselves but many other incredibly giving plants whose voices are waiting to be heard.  We are grateful that you have spoken to us in the way that you have, and that you have opened your heart to us, to work together, for we wish to let you know we have much to share and much to teach.  And you may find that, far from being a liability, our presence in your life may be amongst your greatest blessings, thus it is to have a garden full of our presence.  We wish to enliven you to such a possibility.  Whether or not you live at this place and use your time in the garden to connect with the nature beings and plant devas there, we are always available, we are always wishing to hear your voice and for you to hear ours.  We thank you for your true apology, we understand the difficulty that humans face with their perceived limitations concerning plants and their nature.  Let us, together, work to make changes to that attitude, for the relationship we offer has a potential energy and power to open up many peoples’ thinking about their relationship with plants and we are grateful that you have stepped forward to connect with us and to become an ambassador for us in the world.  We are the consciousness, the plant deva of the Japanese knotwood, and we offer you our love.”  

Did you notice they referred to themselves as Japanese knotwood rather than knotweed?
The healing power of this edible plant is phenomenal. JK supports pain control, constipation, cramps, bloating, IBS, cancer, Lyme disease, autoimmune issues, brain injury and memory, mood disorders, wound healing, blood pressure, prevention of blood clots, respiratory and lung infections, regulating blood sugar levels and much more. Most of this is down to a couple of active elements in its make-up, resveratrol and emodin.

Young stems that grow in Spring are the edible part, tasting like sour rhubarb. JK can be eaten raw or cooked. Use as you would rhubarb, in savoury or sweet dishes. It works great with strawberries in a tart or fruit pie. Also as pickles, chutney or jams. Try it grilled, tempura style or sautéed in oil and don’t overcook it.

JK eaten raw with cream cheese and raisins

When harvesting in the wild, there are some lookalike plants you will need to avoid, so make sure you know what you’re doing. In many areas, JK is treated with strong chemicals, so ensure your source is indisputably untreated. Avoid roadsides, due to exhaust pollution. It’s not for you if you’re anaemic and it’s not good to eat too much at a time.

JK syrup and a biodegradable drinking straw made from last year’s JK stalks

When it grows again next Spring, I’m hoping to test whether chronic migraine can be added to the list of helped conditions, I’ve got a good feeling about this.

Have you ever tried opening up to communication with plants? Personally, I love connecting with the ones we (unfortunately) call weeds. Dandelion and nettle are encouraged in my garden, I look on them as loving and giving friends.

(Images: All images from the3foragers.blogspot.com)