Posted in Inspiration, love, Poetry

A Moment of Deep Love

That moment

A teenager tells her mother she’s pregnant

How will her mother respond?

There are many possibilities…

I watched.

The mother looked deeply into her daughters’ eyes

Enfolded her in a hug

Nothing was said for a long time as they held each other.

In that moment, I saw how possible it is

To be the kind of person that,

Even when one she loves

Invokes deep fear within her,

She doesn’t think first of her own fears, beliefs, expectations or conditions

But bypasses them to see what her loved one needs.

What a momentous moment.

Posted in darkness and light, Inspiration

The Gift

“Have you ever felt like you were lost?

That you didn’t know where you were going or where you came from?

Have you ever asked yourself, “Who am I?

What should I remember?

What is my deepest wish from the bottom of my heart?”

I know you must have a wish like that, because we all do.

I learned that we really have to believe in miracles.

All you have to do is take that leap.

If you stop resisting and surrender,

You’ll see that even the most painful thing in life is a gift.

Instead of thinking, “How can I get rid of this burden?”

Ask yourself, “In what way is this a gift?”

The steps you take to escape the pain can bring you to the edge.

And if you cross over that edge, you can never go back to sleep.”

⁃ taken from ‘The Gift’ by Jason George and Nuran Evren Sit

P.S. The picture today is a close up shot of a monkey puzzle tree’s bark. If you enlarge and zoom into the centre of the eye, you might be able to spot two tiny figures, a male and female greeting each other with arms raised. Or is that just my vivid imagination?

Posted in Ascension, Inspiration, Poetry

Pilgrimage

We are on a pilgrimage of faith and belief

We were once cynical and isolated

We saw no future for ourselves or Earth

And worse, we didn’t care enough to believe differently

So, we set out on this journey

Learning to trust each other

We climbed the mountain of doubt when destruction was almost certain

And yet, hope was growing inside

Now, we have power

Power to save humankind from itself

It’s good we know fear

It helps us choose to use power wisely

We have all hurt ourselves and others

We have loved and been loved

Have faith

We are humanity and we have each other.

(- adapted from ‘Humans’ by Sam Vincent & Jonathan Brackley)

Posted in Inspiration

If It’s Easy, It’s In The Flow

When it’s right, it’s easy.

When it’s not easy, something’s not right.

Now, don’t get me wrong, difficult has its place.

Hurt, pain and suffering have their place.

But when we’re trying to find our passion,

Our gifts, abilities and destiny,

When we’re trying to find our way forward,

Look out for where it’s easy.

Look for what’s in the flow.

That’s your clue that you’re in the right place,

Doing the best thing,

On the right tracks.

Posted in Ascension

Our Awakening Journey

We are raising our vibration to a higher level. It means we are less dense, heavy, bogged down in the physical and become lighter, shinier and less focused on physical reality.

Rather than a human being having a spiritual experience, we are becoming a spiritual being having a human experience. It means we look at, live and experience everything differently.

What are some of the signs of such a transformation?

⁃ We choose less material stuff and start removing what no longer serves us from our lives. Less possessions, clothes, food, technology, we are less ‘object’ minded. And this includes people, places and situations. We can no longer tolerate what doesn’t serve us and are ready to let go and manifest better conditions.

⁃ We choose to be occupied less with phones, internet, TV, films, games. We enjoy silence and stillness. We become more tuned in to subtle energies, sounds and influences around and within us.

⁃ We slow down. We are more in the now moment and live less focused on what the future holds, the ‘what ifs’ and what happened in the past, the ‘if onlys’. We move beyond time and exist more and more in a state of conscious presence.

⁃ We begin to tune into our divinity and anchor this truth about ourselves into our being. Divinity is no longer words or an idea, we begin to perceive everything around us as an expression of divinity, including ourselves.

⁃ Even as we release people from our lives, we feel more deeply connected to the right people for us. We feel less isolated. We connect with humanity and that translates to finding our people. We are more tolerant of differences and not fearful of being different ourselves, in fact, even if we felt different or thought ourselves misunderstood or unique in some way, we are realising it’s not true, it never was. We are who we are, no longer needing to compare or compete. Everyone is an expression of the same divine energy unfolding in their own creative flavour. Once we recognise the divine in ourselves, we recognise the same divine presence in everyone else and realise we are fundamentally all the same.

⁃ We begin to experience more moments that are filled with peace, joy and wonder. Even if there’s still confusion or healing to be done, the balance has tipped and we are frequently embracing joy and wonder as we explore and participate in the world.

Look out for these changes, they are signalling your awakening to the higher vibrations of the fifth dimensional expression of being human on Earth. Homo Sapiens is evolving into Homo Luminous. There’s so much more to come as we continue our awakening journey.

Posted in Inspiration

Your Way Or The Highway

Hey guys, I just wanted to say one thing.

Your journey is your journey

And it’s not for anybody else to judge.

There’s no right way,

There’s no wrong way,

There’s only your way.

So, just rock up and flow with whatever seems to be your flavour.

Posted in Energy healing, Personal Story

On The Golden Road

Today, I am coming forward with a huge amount of love and gratitude towards myself, towards all the little versions of me I ever was, what they went through and how amazing they are. This is for me being me and for my journey. 

I’ve been on a healing journey for most of my adult life and a couple of months ago, it got hugely real and very empowered when I invited a very special person into my life to help me. Now, me being me is a whole new ball game and I could never begin to describe to you the many ways this is so.

The changes are many, they are unfolding and profound. I’m moving away from a fierce need to exert my individuality as something important, a need that I know has made me appear arrogant or aggressive. I’ve done that throughout the years as part of my inner child’s fight against not feeling seen or valued.

But I’m now letting that go for humble because I no longer feel like I need to fight for myself. When I fought for myself, I was not in alignment, not coming from a place of authenticity, it was fear expressing itself. It was wound and trauma expressing itself and it never felt right. I just didn’t know how else to be.

To finally find the peace to be me is more than wonderful, it’s a gift, a divine gift that I can now fully embrace. It means I breathe out and feel myself sink into the peace of letting go of the fight.

I don’t have to prove myself, I don’t have to convince anyone of anything or fear what anybody might say or how they might judge who or what I am. That’s been my whole life, fear of judgement, of being criticised as a moment-to-moment experience. To feel that it’s not happening or not important anymore, or just not there anymore, is peace and freedom.

Peace and freedom to love myself and others, to love everybody. It’s okay and it’s safe now. It’s all possible. From this place, in letting go of that tiring fight, which felt like the fight to survive, in relaxing into acceptance, peace, love, gratitude and forgiveness, I am proud of myself and can truly say that I love myself, I love what I am, who I am, and in seeing my shadow self, the not so attractive qualities that we all have to some degree, I love them too. I love all of me.

This journey isn’t about the past anymore, it’s about where I am now and who I am now. Here I am, a sixty year old woman, making her healing journey the priority and the journey is really empowering me.

Where I am now feels like a turning point. I have a vision of a golden road that just goes straight out in front of me, clear of obstacles and with a beautiful golden glow about it. I see myself walking down that road hand in hand with my little three year old self and all my healed inner children are walking with us, there’s quite a crowd of us now.

We’re on that road together. We’re marching forward together, and boy, what a mighty force of love we are.

I’m actively embodying self love into every moment of my days, in the way that I live, that I go through a day, the way I make food and eat, that I choose activities and interact with others. Embracing every task, making acts of self love and self care the foundation of my wellbeing.

Every time I choose something that doesn’t fulfil my being, it’s an act of self destruction at some level or other. The influence of my energetic self on my health and wellbeing is undeniable. I am stepping up to appreciate the richness that’s in every moment.

What is home for me? What’s my soul here for? What does it look like? Is it who I am, what I’m doing, where I’m living? And what am I calling forward? How am I manifesting and creating in my existence, my being and life? Because it’s from there that I express my soul purpose.

It means not hiding anymore but expressing my truth through my clear and true voice. It means being connected with other human beings in an easy, natural, loving, supportive and sacred manner.

And all this I manifest. I manifest everything very specifically, clearly knowing that I’m creating home for this soul in this personality at this time, in this physical manifestation upon the Earth.

And then it came. First, I received clarity about my divine plan. Then, along with others, I received an update that aligned my being to a higher dimensional vibration. I realised that as we receive this shift, as many have and more will, it’s important we realise that we still need to step up for ourselves and remain true to our power every day. To stay empowered through our inner peace, love and truth. To trust ourselves, believe in ourselves and hold that conviction steady. It’s down to us to remain in the higher vibration in every moment. It’s a moment to moment choice, not a given. The shift comes when we are ready to step up to that level of clarity and mastery.

All this places me exactly where I’m meant to be in the flow. That’s where I am, in the right place in the flow. When it’s right, it’s easy, that’s what flow means.

So, when the journey’s still difficult, there are obstacles, problems or physical conditions present and I know what that’s like. That’s been my journey for years, especially during the last six years. It means that healing is calling for our attention.

Posted in Inspiration

What’s It Like To Be You?

A special question came across my radar recently.  What would you say if you were asked, “What’s it like to be you?”

It’s a great question because it gets one thinking about oneself from a slightly different perspective to the one that’s usually in our heads when we’re thinking about being us.

We’re thinking from the view of how somebody else might understand us, and we can clarify who we are in a new and refreshing way.

It’s a multi-layered question, we might ask: Who am I? Am I my way of life? Am I what goes on in my head that only I hear? Am I my beliefs and the patterns they create? Am I those complex and varied feelings that are constantly playing out within me? Am I my hopes and aspirations? Am I my past? Am I my memories? This question prompts all of those things in terms of how we express them.

It asks where do we tend to live our moments from? Mostly in the past, the future or the now? How do we see ourselves and our life? Are we glass half empty or full? How kind and loving are we to ourselves?

In so many ways, I think it’s really great to be me, I have freedom to live my life as I choose, I’m empowered to decide every moment and can allow almost every day to be as much of an adventure as I care to make it, in my way. I have all my basic needs ticked off and can dedicate myself to the higher functions of being human. I can invite music, dancing, singing, meditation and relaxation into my life and often do.

My spiritual focus brings enrichment. It’s a blessing to be able to contribute to increasing love and light in the world, in whatever small way I can.

Several days a week I paint and it’s like I slip away into another dimension. It feels wonderful to be creative and expressive. It’s so peaceful and I really feel like I’m in the flow of something divine. Through painting, I am expressing my soul.

I live in such a beautiful place where I can spend the day walking on my mountain or down in the woods and not see another soul. Or I may go to the coast which I love so much, the sea invigorates me with its energies and sounds.

I am a solitary animal but these days, I’ve found my tribe and am blessed with special people around me who love me, have my back and whose hearts are true. Some are nearby, some at a distance and some I have carried through the years. When people know how to love you, you don’t let them go. When I first moved to this neighbourhood a year ago, I didn’t think there was anyone here with similar ideas and aspirations as me, how wrong I was and now I’m certain that this is the right place for me.

My home is a huge blessing, it’s my sacred sanctuary. It feeds my soul. I have nature all about me. Just by opening the glass sliding door of my living room, I step out onto a platform that looks across the tops of the trees to a 180 degree view of lush, green Welsh hills with the Gwendraeth valley below, across to the picturesque ruined castle of Kidwelly and out to sea. I always know where the tide is and watch white foam waves on windy days. Sometimes, the magical mist rolls into the valley beneath my elevated view and I imagine that a fire-breathing Welsh dragon has passed by my door yet again.

One of my favourite places, visible from my house, is the Neolithic henge and standing stones on the opposite hill. Difficult to spot like a well kept secret, it draws my heart and my eye. I feel that the ancestors are ever present through time, conducting ceremonies amongst the stones. I truly feel blessed to live with such a special vista.

Being me has had its challenges. Every so often, the need for further healing comes to the surface and there’s been no slacking on my part. Recent healing has been potent and effective, leaving inner peace and closing doors so that I can finally move forward. Honestly, it’s been like undergoing a rebirth and no wonder this is the theme emerging through my current paintings.

Recently, I received clarity about my soul calling and experienced a shift in my energy. The migraine aura episodes that have largely dictated my life are not happening. It’s down to me to stay true to myself, honouring and loving myself. And if doubt or fear surfaces, I have the skills to handle it.

What’s coming forward right now, more than anything, is the realisation that so much inner peace has seeded and grown at my core. The awareness of how many resources I have to call upon and my capacity to turn things around. I realise how much I used to pay attention to illusion. Most of all, I am loving myself as I live a life that honours my soul.

What about you?  I invite you to reflect on this question for yourself and see how you’re feeling about being you right now.       

Posted in Inspiration, love

Love Is Not Nice

I am not nice

I am love

Love is not nice

Love is love.

What is ‘nice’, anyway?

Nice is a word that needs to be quantified

It’s a judgy word.

Love doesn’t need to be quantified

It stands alone,

There really is only love.

Love is our natural state.

Being nice is one of fear’s many manifestations,

The fear of being judged

As not good enough,

Not worthy enough.

That’s what drives us towards being nice.

So, I’m giving up nice and focusing on

Just being love.

[Image: ‘Angel Wings Explosion’ art by Amenet Drago]

Posted in Abundance and lack, Ascension, Inspiration, love, oneness

Showing Up To Love

Do you realise

If we are to attain oneness and unity

As a human race

Anytime soon,

We had better start opening the door of our hearts,

We had better start spreading the love,

Being that beacon of light.

We had better stop holding back,

Fearing rejection,

Being polite,

Protecting our feelings.

No holding back now,

Nothing but honest to goodness

Authentic expression

Of totally ‘out there’ feelings

That radiate

One hundred per cent

Unconditional

Non-judgemental

Beautiful

Powerful

Supreme

Love

[Image: ‘Flower-Seed Suspension’ art by Amenet Drago]