Who we are is so arbitrary.
What country we were born in.
What family we were born in.
The name that was chosen for us.
The religion and culture that was attributed to us.
The aspirations that were handed to us.
It’s all so abstract.
None of it really belongs to us at all.
And knowing that is what freedom is.
[Image: ‘People gathering at Stonehenge Summer Solstice’ photograph by Amenet Drago]
“God likes to play hide-and-seek, but because there is nothing outside of God, God has no one but themself to play with. But they get over this difficulty by pretending that they are not themself. This is God’s way of hiding from God.
God pretends that they are you and I and all the people in the world, all the animals, plants, all the rocks and all the stars. In this way, they have strange and wonderful adventures, some of which are terrible and frightening. But these are just like bad dreams, for when God wakes up they will disappear.
Now, when God plays “hide” and pretends that they are you and I, God does it so well that it takes God a long time to remember where and how they hid themself. But that’s the whole fun of it, just what God wanted to do.
God doesn’t want to find themself too quickly, for that would spoil the game. That is why it is so difficult for you and me to find out that we are God in disguise, pretending not to be God. But, when the game has gone on long enough, all of us WAKE UP, stop pretending, and REMEMBER that we are all one single Self – the God who is all that there is and who lives forever and ever.
You may ask why God sometimes hides in the form of horrible people, or pretends to be people who suffer great disease and pain. Remember, first, that God isn’t really doing this to anyone but God. Remember too, that in almost all the stories you enjoy there have to be bad people as well as good people, for the thrill of the tale is to find out how the good people will grow as they get the better of the bad.”
― Adapted from “The Book On The Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are” by Alan Watts
Recently, I brought you a transformational question, and today, I bring you another one.
I was thinking it might become a Friday Feature, something for you to take inside yourself and allow it to unfold, with no opinions, ideas or thoughts offered, just you and your soul, pondering.
Today’s transformational question comes from St Germain.
He suggests you ask within your being for one word that describes your truth, the truth of who you are, who you have always been, your eternal expression throughout all the multidimensions and physicality of your being.
What would that word be?
When you find the truth of your being, accept it into your being, into all that you are.
Make a declaration to accept that truth into every cell of your being.
And now, I really must stop writing, my lovely cat Poppy is here for her early morning cuddle.
Happy Friday everybody! Have a wonderful, magical weekend.
Today, I am bringing to mind speaking our truth, opening our voice and not swallowing our words. This subject seems pertinent because last night, the Oprah interview with Harry and Meghan was broadcast in the UK on International Women’s Day, which seemed relevant. It brought to my mind a number of key issues about the enormity of speaking our truth, how fundamentally difficult that can be and how many fear factors can be stacked up against us, and sometimes the fear factors include that if we don’t speak the truth, new fears are going to be realised. So, it’s a big issue.
For me personally, it’s only in the last few years that I have found myself able to recognise who I am, enough to know what my truth is and what is the truth of my words. Partly, I have stuffed it down so deeply in terms of my childhood wounds and traumas that I haven’t been able to value myself enough to even know who I am or what my truth is. Part of that has been that I haven’t had the permission, as a child, to have a truth, or have a ‘self’, even. And it’s taken a lot of my adult life to come to the point where I’ve been able to understand and access my truth and find out who I am.
There have been times when I haven’t been truthful about my boundaries, my needs or myself, because of my fears of other people’s judgements, of what others will say, that I would be incapable of managing the assumed or perceived rejection and the assumed or perceived criticism or judgment.
Criticism and rejection have been two of the biggest themes of my childhood, into my adult life, because I’ve continued to be held hostage by those traumas and their underlying beliefs, developed at a very young age, including the behaviours I adopted or sought refuge with because of them. So, knowing what my truth is and speaking my truth has been a big issue for me.
These days, it’s not a problem, I have now voiced many truths that have been huge in my world and would have previously been impossible, but now they are said with freedom and power. Some recent examples have been changing my name, telling my mother about my tattoo, something I would have previously hidden rather than face the judgement and criticism. Another situation is deciding to leave my husband, a big one that I wouldn’t previously have been able to follow through. All sorts of truths are surfacing in my life now because I have a completely different attitude about who I am. I haven’t set out to increase the personal power that has given me the strength to uncover and declare my truth, it’s more that it’s unfolded as a part of my spiritual journey, a journey that’s another testament to stepping into my truth and speaking from it.
I do feel that what Harry and Meghan have unleashed through their interview is to model for many the power of speaking one’s truth and how the value of doing so is much greater than all of the fears and consequences. For them in particular, they are public figures, they are a part of the British monarchy which some might say is notoriously stuffed down in its truth.
It’s never wise to sit on our truth or be more concerned about the look of things, how we will be perceived and judged, those are not the kind of values we should be living by. Meghan and Harry have blown that out of the water. They have made themselves targets for being judged, everybody feels they now have a right to have an opinion about all they’ve said. Personally, I don’t feel inclined towards an opinion, or to judge or question whether or not their words are ‘The Truth’, I don’t think there is a ‘The Truth’ in this or any situation because we’re humans, we all have a filter, every single one of us has a filter and therefore, we can only ever experience our truth, only ever represent our truth, only ever validate our truth, and not the truth.
What Harry and Meghan have done is validated their truth. It doesn’t mean that the Royal Institution or other members of their family who may wish to have a say in the truth that Harry and Meghan have expressed, that they would or wouldn’t agree with it, it doesn’t matter. What matters is it’s the truth as they perceive it, and therefore it’s validated, and that’s the case for all of us.
When we express our truth, it doesn’t matter whether anybody judges or has a different view of the situation, they will do, we all see things from our own perspective and we’re probably never going to be able to fix an objective ‘Truth’, even though that’s what’s attempted in courts of law, I don’t think it’s ever really achieved. We don’t have to do that, we can just acknowledge each other’s truth, even when it’s different from our own. In family situations where resolution is taking place, if we uncover, by speaking our truth, that other members of the family see things from a different view, that truth can be accepted, allowed for and encompassed into the whole. Bringing everything out into the open, speaking from each person’s perspective and viewing the full picture can be illuminating and healing. To get to that healing place, it first has to come out, even though that can be terrifying. Let’s not be fearful of speaking from our true voice.
‘Beloved ones, you are my reason for existing, you are belonging to my heart and soul, I am bringing forth your expressions, for you are entirely made of divine, eternal, magical energy that is an expression of me.
I am the I AM Presence and I wish to remind you that your presence is one of energy and light. You are hidden so deeply inside your sense of self that you no longer recognise who or what you are. You are divine. You are more than the sum of your parts and your expressions of love are your truth.
Imagine there is a bright, beautiful star shining in the dark, scintillating. It is a beacon, it is an expression of hope. It makes the dark appear darker, for the light creates such a strong contrast with the dark. And, of course, the dark creates the same contrast with the light, therefore, the dark makes the light seem brighter. Now, imagine that this star explodes in a blaze of light and expands. It increases until it fills the entirety of your vision and all is light. The star seemed to be an object of light but now you see nothing but a field of lightness with no darkness to define it. This is the truth of the Creator. The Creator is the field of lightness and it is only when the darkness exists and the Creator is separated into numerous pin-pricks of light, like stars in the night sky, only then can the Creator be defined, through the experience of being present as an object in the darkness. You are the stars. You are the Creator, for you are expressions from the Creator and at your heart is the light of the Creator. Your truth, your true expression of being is revealing to you the light of divine magic. May peace be with you and may your expressions of scintillating light evermore bring joy to yourself and all.’
amenet drago 